Here is how it was:
I was forced to marry one of my friends (guy la) in my dream who happened to be "gaga" over me (but not mutual la). I don't know how it happened but before I know it... my family was pushing me into the wedding with him and eventually we got married suddenly! 0_o"
Since it was a dream, funny things took place. Like there was not actual wedding ceremony. No church, no congreation, no registration, not even Chinese custom stuff. It all just happened on a lunch thing. Something like a lunch wedding, thats all.
I was fairly concious in the dream, so of course I rebel la... kahwin with someone I dont love. But somehow couldnt la. I remember having this fight with my mum in the dream during the "wedding lunch". I was telling her off bout the wedding when she suddenly RAISED her voice aloud and said NO! (meaning I have to kahwin la)
Than this guy friend of mine (who I was "marrying" - gulp) was just so happy there and I ACTUALLY FELT BAD FOR NOT WANTING TO MARRY HIM! I was trying to let him down by being mean, but my natural nature-of-being-a-nice-girl (yeah right!) made my guilt bladder to start working furiously. Which ends up making me feel very much guilty in my entire dream!
So then...don't-know-what-happened-la, but I end up marrying him (not on my free will) in a weird way. LOL!!!!
Then there was the wedding night....(NOTE: Nothing bad happened!!!).
The bridal room was my grandmother's room! LOL!!! But it was slightly different as the end of the room was placed with this really big red curtain that kind of makes it look like a castle room - except the interior was my granny's room...again, lol.
So anyway, I got paranoid la... Then I went to MY OWN ROOM in which just miraculously happened to be NEXT DOOR to get three of my bolster to put inbetween us! LOL. So yea... then after that.. I cant remember d.... I think I woke up. In which I was pretty freaked out wit the dream.
I left out many details cause its just too long and freaky (again, nothing bad happened la). But bottomline is.. I don't think I can look at this friend of mine the same way again...lol. At least after some time of cooling it off!
So this is a small preview of how it feels to have to marry a friend who is 'gaga" over you but you don't feel the same. Just freaky!!! A mix of disgust (that I was put in such position) and guilt (cause I still care for that person).... terrible la. LOL!
Anyway, I am glad it is only a dream...hehe.
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I miss a good old friend so much!
I miss your roar of laughter, your stupid and lame jokes, your company and your smiles.
I miss your "gentle touch" when you grab my hand and make fun of me.
I miss you driving me around in your cute car and "marahing" people on the road.
I miss your calls in where we just talk nonsense and gossip about boys.
I miss your "rudeness" when you disagree with me.
I miss our lesbian jokes and how sometimes you made it seem real.
I miss the hang out times at each other's homes.
I just miss you...Caroline.... *sniff sniff*
I hope South America is treating you right....
~*Emotional Moment Over*~
And yes, Daph if you are reading this...hehe.. I MISS YOU TOO! Won't leave you out wan...hehe. *Muackz and hugz*
Actually this holidays has made me a little emo over missing some friends and people. There is this nostalgic feeling around. Must keep in touch more d....hm...
Tu me manques beaucoup...
