At the End of My Rainbow

Currently Listening to:

Double Concerto

by

Johann Sebastian Bach

Performed

by

Itzhak Perlman and Isaac Stern.

The Potato is going to fall in a love in a fun fair/carnival and you're invited.

So please be there....

We'll meet on the carousel and kiss on the ferris wheel. :)

The Bubbles of my Dream

Currently Listening to:

Lover, Come Back To Me!

by

Barbara Streisand

"I had a beautiful dream this morning....

.... but a horrible 'revelation' in the evening."

A Bouquet of Wild Daisies

Currently Listening to: Lahaina by The Volcanos (Lilo and Stitch: Island Favourites)


I am blogging again.... yeap. What can I say? It's gotta be PMS or that I am just so freakingly bored and lame. But who cares, sick people have all the time of the day when they not sleeping their heads off. I still can't bring myself to have the motion to blog about my 5th day in Cambodia. Maybe I am still lazy in editing and uploading the pictures but I hope I'll finish it when the 'Strawberry storm' has past.

I feel kinda emo and self concious lately. And yes, you all must know PMS is my constant shadow lately. And maybe that's why my sense of sensitivity has ascended majorly. And I can't help feeling like a pregnant woman with lotsa hormones. I start to get over upset for the tiniest things and tend to over-react inside with over thinking of problems that doesnt exist or shouldn't be. It sucks. A lot. So guys, love your girlfriends more and know you're not the only one suffering and facing the annoyance of PMS (when they throw bitch-fits). It's just the hormones and just so you know, it's what drives you crazy over them too. So all is fair.

Looks like I am going to be on problematic future girlfriend huh? Tehee.... let's hope I will be blessed with one super understanding and loving boyfriend to tolerate me then. LOL!

I despise PMS... it's a 'rotten pumpkin' and I am a constant slave to it... Can't imagine how I'll be when I'm pregnant instead. LOL! Note to self in 5 years time (5 years? who am I kidding?)... Love my husband MORE (Please let me be married then!!! - again, who am I kidding? :P)! LOL!

I am so craving for seaweed now... lotsa crispy Korean or Japanese seaweed... Hmmm mmm...!

Soup too, lotsa nice sweet seaweed soup.... like the one my granny makes. My mouth or should I be more specific, throat; is tasting like some weird stinking anti-biotic and I seriously need some ajinamoto...LOL!

I just finished watching Grey's Anatomy and Cashmere Mafia and it was great, love it. Totally superb for a PMS night and it got me all high up and preppy thinking that I might have a chance of making my life into a soap opera. But hey, all I'm lacking if a McDreamy of a boyfriend and a Cashmere coat... or maybe just some elegance in my life.

I think I kinda sound like a sour drama queen. Maybe so, but just for this moment. For once, I wanna bask in my own prima donna-ness... so sue me! But then again, I have this icky feeling that the whole world already hates me for some bitchy reason. :P PMS? You tell me...



You know what I want? What I really really want?

I want someone I can securely cuddle up to and leave all my stuffs behind. Someone who'll give me enough comfort to strip away all my insecurities and just let me be myself wholely in his arms. Someone who knows me, understands me, holds no judgement against me, accepts me and just truly loves me. And me to him. Someone like my.....

my hubby bubby pink bolster!!!!!! :D

Yeap, that's my sayang... for now.
And someday, God's gonna bless me with a real man instead. :)
And I shall wait for that beautiful day to come. :D

"....and then, her PMS just faded away for the night, in sweet thought of His promise to her."

The Nightingale Sang...

Currently Listening to:

The serenading OST of Memoirs of a Geisha

And I was wondering... just wondering.

.... just ever wondering.

Chasing Butterflies in the Meadows

Currently Listening to:

White Love Story

(OST: Coffee Prince)

Ultra Random Thought Out Loud:

"Let's go makan together. Just the two of us."

A Twinkling Smile

Currenty Listening to:

Nocturne in C Sharp Minor

by

Frederick Chopin

Performed

by

Joshua Bell.

"Somehow deep inside I see a smile. A small, weak but hopeful smile. A tiny, teeny-weeny bit of smile that was more than enough. More than enough to light a dim and weary shadow, hidden long and deep in solace and away from the world." ~ P

"Miracle can appear in the smallest of ways. Like a star, it may be dim and little. But it's faint light is what guides and saves in the darkest skies." ~ P

Gliding on Rainbows and Skipping on Clouds

Currently Listening To: Signal Fire by Snow Patrol (OST Spiderman 3), So Close by John McLaughlin (OST Enchanted) & When You Look Me In The Eyes by The Jonah Brothers.

Despite requests, tonnes of pics, informations, experiences, feelings and thought out louds, I couldn't bring myself to blog or upload any of it (maybe a little something later). Instead my random twisted character seems to take the wheel into blogging on something...well, random ! Just fragments of of me....

Some random nonsensical thought out louds / quotes from Philee:

"My life is made out of musical lyrics...sheets and sheets of them. It strums on and on till the notes are engraved in me. But somehow, I am missing a treble clef, two semi-quavers and a dotted crotchet. Did I mention the semi briefs are not long enough? Oh by the way, I've got all the fingerings wrong! No wonder my Sarabande became an Andante!"

OMG~! It has been more than 5 years since I studied music theory, I can barely remember the spelling terms... if it is cacat, do know I am very rusty. Now that was Philee's random-life-music-philosophy of the day. Unless you know music theory, you'll be reading gibberish. And if you do and still don't get it, it's okay - you aren't meant to. :P

"I walked a lonely mile in my head today. It was long, empty and lineared. It beared nothing, just rocks adorning the pavement sides. The wind chiseled my pale face and tingled my soul. My legs were weary, my heart heavy; but I kept walking, pulling myself forward to the thin horizon. I had no where to go but pray that you were there waiting for me in the end of the road."

Some image I had in my shrimpy head today...

"A touch can mean a thousand words. A scent can churn a million smiles. A smile can warm a legion of frozen hearts. A presence can comfort a lonely soul."

Thought of feelings out loud...

"Lain di hati, lain do mulut."

Enough said!

"We all wear masks, despite us claiming otherwise. It is our faces. Because if we didn't, none of us would be really true."

It is twisted, but real in a way.

"Your heart is the embodiment of who you truly are. I signifies you, it is you. The real you. By denying it means denying oneself. Your heart is mirror to yor soul. To your very essence. If you heart wants all the wrong things, be wrong. For it may be wrong but at least it makes you happy. Mind you, lust does not reside in the heart, hence temporary desires are not accounted for."

There you go!

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Side by Side, Heart to heart....

.... We can finish what we start.

Currently Listening to: Far Longer Than Forever by Jeffrey Osborne and Regina Belle (OST The Swan Princess)

Step by step...

I am so tired...

It's going to be a very very long road.

But I know I'll make it through...

I will, I must, I have to.

"Prenez ma main et ne laissez jamais aller".

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A Symphony of Dreams

Currently Listening to: Dreams to Dream by Cathy Cavadini.

Original Sountrack of An American Tail III.

What if you slept?

And what if, in your sleep, you dreamed?

And what if, in your dream, you went to heaven

And there plucked an strange and beautiful flower?

And what if, when you awoke, you had the flower in your hand?

Ah, what then?

~Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"Once I dreamed I was a butterfly, and now I no longer know whether I am Philee, who dreamed I was a butterfly, or whether I am a butterfly dreaming that I am Philee."

~ Adapted from Chuang Tzu

A chosen tomorrow...

The promise of a withered dream

I lie down embracing a dream that may never come true but still, come what may...

Dancing on angel's wings!

Allo little cranky jelly beans (random :P) !!!

I am posting again on the same day...hehehe. It's boring staying at home sick, so blogging is a good option. And I have had more than enough sleep to rest my eyes now (for the moment).

Let's talk about the movie I recently watched with Yiang at 1 Utama. :D

It is called Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporioum!!! (Warning, this entry contains spoilers)


Okay, if you have watched it or yet to, you would probaly find it to be an okay or average movie. And yes to a certain degree I admit that it is. But I am somehow highly attracted to it (after watching it) because of personal reasons.

Synopsis:
Molly Mahoney (Portman) is the awkward and insecure manager of Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, the strangest, most fantastic, most wonderful toy store in the world. But when Mr. Magorium, the 243 year-old eccentric who owns the store (Hoffman), bequeaths the store to her, a dark and ominous change begins to take over the once remarkable Emporium. (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0457419/)

Reason why I like and enjoy it SO MUCH....
- It was magical, filled with fantasy and colourful surroundings.
I totally love toy shops and real unique ones too. And this one has its beauty in so many charming ways. It was one of a kind features and totally speaks to me. While watching the movie, I couldnt help wishing I was Molly Mahoney. I didnt mind being a "normal" store manager of a small and pretty magical toy shop, I think it would be totally enchanting and special. You should see the beginning of the movie whereby the "started" the emporium up, it was amazing. Must be great working there. I don't mind working part-time in such a shop or even fulltime! (Not really in the movie but for real if such unique shop is found - I dont mean the magic but in real life)

- It was unique and charming to my soul (makes sense?) :P
Have you ever watched "You've Got mail?" Starring Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks? It is one of my favourite movies. It is just again a simple movie, but it speaks to the heart and bears much of life's answer there. I love that the the female protagonist (Meg Ryan) owned a small and unique little book shop around the corner. That's the point, a nice small book shop, did I mention it was a children's book shop? Even better! If you noticed, both of the movies, evolves around children - catering to their needs and desires. It must be really lovely. To have the smiles and laughter of innocent and happy kids in your store. Not to mention all the brightness of colours and joy surrounding you in your everyday work. But I am not talking bout something superficial or biasa like Toys R Us or MPH, but your own theme designed shop with your own signature features. Like a boutique, one of a kind. Okay, am I blabbering too much? LOL.


Here is a view of what the shop or emprium looks like. Wonderful right? And I wanna be her, Molly Mahoney (right) wearing a cute apron and running such a delighting shop. :D

For me, the movie was SWEET!It is magical, fantastic, mysterious and totally enchanting. I like it, I like fantasy movies. :D It's just me! :D
Like taking a journey beyond life.... breaking free of the norm and just being yourself.

I find "peace" and a big grin on my face when I watch such movies, kinda just lifts me up. Other fantasy movies too... such as:
*Lord of the Rings
*Chronicles of Narnia
*Stardust
*PeterPan
*Bridge to Therabithia (correct?)
and many more... (cant think much now)

Of course I know magic is not real and none of it will come true, but no harm in dreaming a little? Hehehe... I guess I am just a sucker for fairy tales. :)

So yeah, I like the movie. It may not be your type, but it is definitely my type (like StarDust!).

This is Eric, he is cute :P "Cool" right the toys? :P

Maybe, just maybe someday I get to own my cute little shop around the corner, be it selling toys or children books or even cute colourful handy crafts (since I love them). Or maybe a children art centre! I'll have it painted in rainbow colours with plushies everywhere along with cute ornaments adorning every corner! Something personal and just speaks out: this is me! With a unique theme of my own where smiles blossom and memories are enchanted. (Hey, this could be my shop's tagline!Copyright k!!!)

Here are some interesting quites from Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium:

Mr. Edward Magorium: Your life is an occasion, rise to it. (I like this one!)

Molly Mahoney: Are you dying?
Mr. Edward Magorium: Light bulbs die, my dear. I am departing.

Henry Weston: When you say magical, do you mean special?
Molly Mahoney: Magical.
Henry Weston: What about... really really cool?
Molly Mahoney: MAGICAL!


This is the "mutant"... lol. You gotts watch the movie to know why.... aint all the toys just so "pretty" and lovely? I want my "future" store to be like that! :P

There are many more quotes, but IMBD is not fully updated yet (since the movie is new). If you are ever going to watch it, I hope you'll like it. One thing for sure, it spoke to my heart and made me realise something else "magical" I want in my life.

If you are going to watch the movie, I hope you'll have a "magical" and sweet experience (that is if you have a dreamy head like me :P lol). Till next time, I bid you au revoir and God bless!

Huggies and smoochies, tata! :D

Beautiful....

I had a BIG-smiley-fantastic-sweet and lovely dream today....
One of the best.... errr... lets just consider it the best! :)
It seemed so real, so vivid. It even tasted real :D
It was beautiful, so beautiful...
It gave made my day from the moment I opened my eyes this morning.

"A dream is a wish your heart makes...."

Freaky and Scary dream!

I had this ultra-freaky dream today! And it sure was freaky....Bbbrrr*... I am still "shivering" from the freakiness!

Here is how it was:
I was forced to marry one of my friends (guy la) in my dream who happened to be "gaga" over me (but not mutual la). I don't know how it happened but before I know it... my family was pushing me into the wedding with him and eventually we got married suddenly! 0_o"
Since it was a dream, funny things took place. Like there was not actual wedding ceremony. No church, no congreation, no registration, not even Chinese custom stuff. It all just happened on a lunch thing. Something like a lunch wedding, thats all.
I was fairly concious in the dream, so of course I rebel la... kahwin with someone I dont love. But somehow couldnt la. I remember having this fight with my mum in the dream during the "wedding lunch". I was telling her off bout the wedding when she suddenly RAISED her voice aloud and said NO! (meaning I have to kahwin la)
Than this guy friend of mine (who I was "marrying" - gulp) was just so happy there and I ACTUALLY FELT BAD FOR NOT WANTING TO MARRY HIM! I was trying to let him down by being mean, but my natural nature-of-being-a-nice-girl (yeah right!) made my guilt bladder to start working furiously. Which ends up making me feel very much guilty in my entire dream!
So then...don't-know-what-happened-la, but I end up marrying him (not on my free will) in a weird way. LOL!!!!
Then there was the wedding night....(NOTE: Nothing bad happened!!!).
The bridal room was my grandmother's room! LOL!!! But it was slightly different as the end of the room was placed with this really big red curtain that kind of makes it look like a castle room - except the interior was my granny's room...again, lol.
So anyway, I got paranoid la... Then I went to MY OWN ROOM in which just miraculously happened to be NEXT DOOR to get three of my bolster to put inbetween us! LOL. So yea... then after that.. I cant remember d.... I think I woke up. In which I was pretty freaked out wit the dream.
I left out many details cause its just too long and freaky (again, nothing bad happened la). But bottomline is.. I don't think I can look at this friend of mine the same way again...lol. At least after some time of cooling it off!
So this is a small preview of how it feels to have to marry a friend who is 'gaga" over you but you don't feel the same. Just freaky!!! A mix of disgust (that I was put in such position) and guilt (cause I still care for that person).... terrible la. LOL!

Anyway, I am glad it is only a dream...hehe.

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I miss a good old friend so much!
I miss your roar of laughter, your stupid and lame jokes, your company and your smiles.
I miss your "gentle touch" when you grab my hand and make fun of me.
I miss you driving me around in your cute car and "marahing" people on the road.
I miss your calls in where we just talk nonsense and gossip about boys.
I miss your "rudeness" when you disagree with me.
I miss our lesbian jokes and how sometimes you made it seem real.
I miss the hang out times at each other's homes.
I just miss you...Caroline.... *sniff sniff*
I hope South America is treating you right....

~*Emotional Moment Over*~

And yes, Daph if you are reading this...hehe.. I MISS YOU TOO! Won't leave you out wan...hehe. *Muackz and hugz*

Actually this holidays has made me a little emo over missing some friends and people. There is this nostalgic feeling around. Must keep in touch more d....hm...

Tu me manques beaucoup...