To infinity and beyond~!

Currently Listening to:

The buzzing sounds of KDU Square cafetaria at 8am in the morning.

It's the first day of my finals exams. The beginning of the end.

And here I am sitting here with my Princess Coconut laptop (need it to study, all my notes are softcopy!) trying to study for my upcoming Communication & Conflict Management final exam at 9am (an hours time). But alas! I am not studying, rather blogging my morning through as my head is neither here nor there.

I have not finished studying yet *screams* and yes I know it's an hour away, yet I feel so un-needed to do so. Am I plunging myself into a serious abyss of doom? Or am I just too over-mellow to realise that my neck is on the line for this exam?

I feel peace.

But yet my conciousness is screaming "You're dead!"

I am awfully terrified and yet feeling like my soul is flying to Candyland where the Candy Clown is welcoming me like sugar and butter before devouring me whole (watch IT?)

So I am 'chilling' now while knowing later I am 'doomed'!

Btw, note to self, great analogy, gotta use it often (lame I know).

I wanna scream help but at the same time know that I was in the process of 'cari mati sendiri' cause I am not studying!

And to make matters worse, I barely slept last nite. What did I do then?

Was trying and struggling to study!!!

I gave up bout 4am something and knock myself dead on the bed and then started to realise half way through that I kept waking up non-stop cause my mind was just too worried and gila to sleep. Now ladies and gentleman, sleeping has never been a problem for me before. Even during past exams, I slept like a rock, nay, like a grizzly bear during winter!

But now, all I can think about is the exam and how to study for it (which I am still failing to do now). It's like I am so conflicted and pulled-apart! Argh! So drama! :P

Okay, I think I gtg now. Need to try to study and pray!

"Lord I submit today's paper to You. Let it be Thy will. Forgive me for my sins of laziness, procastination and disobediance. Thank you for Your forgiveness, love, grace and mercy. I am Yours. Grant me the spirit of wisdom, understanding and knowledge. Bless me with a peace of mind and an attentive spirit. Go ahead of me and may Your favour be upon me. I commit my exams unto You in Jesus's name, Amen!" :D

A Concerto of Smiles

Currently listening to: The Essential Barbara Streisand Album - First CD, Song no. 10: Happy Days Are Here Again.

Which I just bought today at MPH! I am so happy, wheee...!!! And it's only RM29.90! A normal original one would usually cost about RM49.90! And this is so much cheaper. But what's more fantastic here is that there's two CDs in it! With an average of 20 songs in each CD. What a good bargain! The last two-CD album I bought (Barbara Streisand) cost RM80! It was her end of the century Timeless Concert album (recorded LIVE in Times Square, New York on 31st December 1999 to 1st January 2000). I have no regrets purchasing an RM80 album then and I certainly have no regrets with this one too which is RM50 cheaper! I am so happy!! And most of it are my favourite songs! I love Barbara Streisand!

RM29.90 (usually RM49.90) + 2 CDs (usually 1 CD - cost almost RM50) + 20 songs per CD (usually 17 songs average per CD) + famous/favourite songs = Philee very happy and satisfied! 30 bucks well spent!

Now currently listening to: (Same album and CD) Song no. 15: The Way We Were

*Suddenly THE POTATO doesn't know what to blog anymore. Or perhaps the inspiration and mood flew out the window. Or maybe she is just too lazy. Or busy, in a foolish way mimicking Barbara Streisand singing in concert. :P

Okay, let's be random here:

- My birthday is swinging by soon and I still don't have the *oomph* in anticipating or even thinking about it! My soul feels mundane... someone, surprise me please! This year, its only makan and more makan... dinners with family and more family, lunches with friends and more friends. Makan and more MAKAN! Great right *sarcastic*? I get pudgier for my bday present. :P But then again, I am not complaining. Feed me people, FEED ME!

- Despite my passion for food. I've gotten more self control on food intake lately. :D And in a self absorb and prasan way, I feel lighter, lol. Will exercise more too. Not only because of the appearance sake, but I need to toughen up a bit. Reason.... (read next point)?

- I TRIED cycling one night (with my dad "coaching") which by the way I am still unable to (after so long - retarded I am on wheels). I struggled through from my house to almost the end of my housing street back and forth and literally almost passed out. I was sweating, it was tiring and I still could not cycle! Let me tell you, TRYING TO CYCLE IS A SPORT (retardly)!!! I might as well exercise and work out by TRYING to cycle. Lady Cabonara (my red bicycle) must be fustrated for me too. Which also bring me to the point that I am so "taufu"! Hal kecik macam ini pun I can't tahan, if I seriously ran a lap, I don't think I can survive it. Hence I need to buck up and move more. :P

Currently listening to: 2nd CD, Song no. 3: Comin' In And Out Of Your Life.

- I am so blur la... lazy too. I am worried bout my undone assignments but yet I do nothing about it. Case Study and presentation? What am I suppose to do again? *Bah!* Soon, they'll start piling up and I'll freak out. Besides, they're all due near my midterms too. Study soon??? *Please don't crack me up*

- I sleep like a vampire pig! Figure that out!

Currently listening to: (Same CD), Song no. 5: Papa Can You Hear Me?

- I am suppose to call many people up with many different reasons but yet I am procastinating like a "busy person" while I am kicking up my toes like a bee with no honey. It's sad when "takde hati" while other wait for you with theirs. I bore myself out. Heck, I even practise the piano a couple of times lately! I don't know what I am waiting for...

- I am so mundane.... So normal, so mediocre and so human. Special and unique I am. But in a normal way. Just like you, her, him and it. So fragile in life and so nonchalant. Like a by stander in the background of a movie. My movie. Now thats sad. I so need to wake up and pay attention!

Currently listening to: Song no. 7: Putting It Together

"If you can't get the rainbow, make your own rainbow!" - P

YouTube of the Day: StarWars according to a three year old :)

~Large and warm huggies to you!~

The cuckoo bird is always so cacat! :P

I am sorely bored, a little ticked off with craziness and have decided that my blog needs an entry to satisfy my girly needs of wackiness and randomness. However, I seem to possess a wave of reluctance to scribble substantial and common words out here to amuse whom ever is willing to gaze upon my trash. Hence, I shall blurt out whatever fickle there is on my airy mind be it if you grasp it or not. :P

Am I making sensible and plain sense here?
Or am I just speaking delusionally to myself with no sort of understanding whatsoever to the world?

*Mentally laughs out loud to self for random lame-ness and stupidity.*

Oh well, since I am a little cuckoo and obviously prideless, I will continue on with my random and bizzare entry on how I find myself currently along with my freaking rampage on my personal view of things.

FYI, it's PMS alright. But hey, a girl's gotta get loose from her normal character sometimes. And since I am far from being accustomed to taking my top (or bra) off and waving it like a psycho (no offends to beach blondes :P), I think stating my current temperaments and ula-ula thoughts here is the best thing to do (next to mopping around the house like a freak and talking to my bolsters :P).



Let's spread some randomness along with my many "exciting" happenings of the day.

- CRAMPS SUCK TO THE MAXX!!!!!!
Yes, I so *hate* em! I had to wake up early (2pm - yes, early for me - bad right?) today because my lower abdomen was firing missiles and detonating granades in it. O_o"
Needless to day my day not only started bad but wasn't getting any better. How do I know? Cause that's how cramps work! They alarm you with pain and then later inflict you with excrutiating 'twists' non-stop of the day. And being the ignorant and blur sotong that I am, I forgot to replenish my supplies of "pink panadols". So no druggie to numb it away (not that it really work anyway). I spend the entire day wrapped in my towel like a human sushi (and the towel then was green too). Why? Because I had to keep my tummy warm to decrease (even a little) the pain. And here's the thing, I barely drink cold water lately (due to 2 weeks of illness). Besides that, everytime I go out, I order warm water (I know, I'm crazy but hey, I am 20).

- I am a SHOUJO MANGA MANIAC!!!
The fact that I love reading manga or Japanese comics is widely known. And since I have acquired the "secret" of viewing online manga from dear Jenny, time as not taken a stop from it. In other words, I am addicted. But hey, beats sitting in the cornerside reading browsing copies in Borders and Kinokuniya. Besides, I save A LOT of money ok (those books are expensive!).
But lately, its getting worse. I am turning into a fanatic. I don't even read my own comics (which btw are well and fully adorned on my Ikea book rack) anymore.

- Princess Coconut (my pink laptop) is always giving me problems and if you haven't guessed it already, its NEW~!
New laptop giving problems, hmmm.... fun right? It is always restarting on its own abruptly when I am using it. Its fustrating really. Aside from that, so does the Explorer browser, it does the same things too. Luckily I am not doing anything important (other than reading manga) but if this happends when I am doing my assignments then mati la! So I guess I will have to have it fixed or looked (while still on gurantee) before the semester starts.

- Let's talk about Lady Cabonara! My darling new bicycle my dad got for me for Christmas.

-_-"

I still can't cycle it normally or even at all.
Yes, I can't cycle (dumb to the max) and I tried numerous times "practising". But I just can't seem to cycle. I can sit on it and let it glide downhill with me occasionally using my feet to anchor it but thats all. I have yet to put both my feet up on the pedal and cycle! And I have to try practising in the late evenings because during the early evenings (when everyone is out cycling and playing and jogging) kids are out there with their bikes too. And guess what, they cycle way better with even bigger bikes. Now its not as embarrassing as it seems but the first few times when I was "practising", they saw and keep circling round the row of houses (mine) to observe and to snickle a little (big chea2 cant cycle - bohoo) and I just didnt like the undermining situation. I was muttering most of the time saying "Just you wait, when I can cycle, I am so going to terrorize you kids! Hah!". Besides some aunts around my street were standing at their gates looking at me and cuckling! Talk about humiliation. Come on ladies, I get the kids (They're kids!!) but do you really need to gawk?!
Talk about embarassing~!

Well.... I have to stop my wackiness here, will continue another time. Untill then have a pleasant day and God bless! Hugs!

Freaky and Scary dream!

I had this ultra-freaky dream today! And it sure was freaky....Bbbrrr*... I am still "shivering" from the freakiness!

Here is how it was:
I was forced to marry one of my friends (guy la) in my dream who happened to be "gaga" over me (but not mutual la). I don't know how it happened but before I know it... my family was pushing me into the wedding with him and eventually we got married suddenly! 0_o"
Since it was a dream, funny things took place. Like there was not actual wedding ceremony. No church, no congreation, no registration, not even Chinese custom stuff. It all just happened on a lunch thing. Something like a lunch wedding, thats all.
I was fairly concious in the dream, so of course I rebel la... kahwin with someone I dont love. But somehow couldnt la. I remember having this fight with my mum in the dream during the "wedding lunch". I was telling her off bout the wedding when she suddenly RAISED her voice aloud and said NO! (meaning I have to kahwin la)
Than this guy friend of mine (who I was "marrying" - gulp) was just so happy there and I ACTUALLY FELT BAD FOR NOT WANTING TO MARRY HIM! I was trying to let him down by being mean, but my natural nature-of-being-a-nice-girl (yeah right!) made my guilt bladder to start working furiously. Which ends up making me feel very much guilty in my entire dream!
So then...don't-know-what-happened-la, but I end up marrying him (not on my free will) in a weird way. LOL!!!!
Then there was the wedding night....(NOTE: Nothing bad happened!!!).
The bridal room was my grandmother's room! LOL!!! But it was slightly different as the end of the room was placed with this really big red curtain that kind of makes it look like a castle room - except the interior was my granny's room...again, lol.
So anyway, I got paranoid la... Then I went to MY OWN ROOM in which just miraculously happened to be NEXT DOOR to get three of my bolster to put inbetween us! LOL. So yea... then after that.. I cant remember d.... I think I woke up. In which I was pretty freaked out wit the dream.
I left out many details cause its just too long and freaky (again, nothing bad happened la). But bottomline is.. I don't think I can look at this friend of mine the same way again...lol. At least after some time of cooling it off!
So this is a small preview of how it feels to have to marry a friend who is 'gaga" over you but you don't feel the same. Just freaky!!! A mix of disgust (that I was put in such position) and guilt (cause I still care for that person).... terrible la. LOL!

Anyway, I am glad it is only a dream...hehe.

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I miss a good old friend so much!
I miss your roar of laughter, your stupid and lame jokes, your company and your smiles.
I miss your "gentle touch" when you grab my hand and make fun of me.
I miss you driving me around in your cute car and "marahing" people on the road.
I miss your calls in where we just talk nonsense and gossip about boys.
I miss your "rudeness" when you disagree with me.
I miss our lesbian jokes and how sometimes you made it seem real.
I miss the hang out times at each other's homes.
I just miss you...Caroline.... *sniff sniff*
I hope South America is treating you right....

~*Emotional Moment Over*~

And yes, Daph if you are reading this...hehe.. I MISS YOU TOO! Won't leave you out wan...hehe. *Muackz and hugz*

Actually this holidays has made me a little emo over missing some friends and people. There is this nostalgic feeling around. Must keep in touch more d....hm...

Tu me manques beaucoup...