Dancing Sunshine :)

Currently Listening to:

Here I Am

by

Leona Lewis

OKAY....

I know it's been light years since I last blogged but hey sometimes life catches up with you and you just gotta deal with it. And I've dealt with it and hence the absence. :)

But also because some loving people who keeps pestering me to clear the cobwebs in my bloggie, tehee...

So where do I start?

What life has held me recently:

- Final of final exams
- Friends
- More friends
- Vacations
- Outings
- Meetings
- Sleepovers
- Makan to the MAX sessions
- Hang outs
- Movies
- Etc

Pretty busy somehow....tehee....

But most of all, God has been good in my life. :D

I have learned that by God being good in my life does not only meant that it is seen in His blessings, my happiness etc, but also in His grace, mercy, joy, perseverance and peace during hard times. The list above may seem nice (and yes, most of them are) but through them, heartbreaks, tears, suffering and pain drove by. I have to admit, I went through the toughest time in my life this very month. But it is through this time where I experience God the most in my life. I learn to surrender and to abide in Him and He delivered me, sustained me, helped me and comforted me. I knew it was Him for I know I wouldn't have made it without Him. I would have broken to pieces but here I am because He is so real in my life. He showered me with grace, peace, joy and rest despite my thundering storm and I know that my God is real and so awesome!

I've learned 2 very important things through this hard month, which was to:

TRUST AND OBEY

To Obey in His will and know that following Him is the right and best thing to do. Even when you don't feel like it, even when it breaks your heart, even when it is against all odds for when you choose to obey, God sees your heart and honours you back (ten fold). All you have to do is obey and His will will be done in your life (And His will/plan is ultimately the BEST). :)

"His will is not for your consideration but your obedience."

(Pastor Shawn Kong)

To Trust that He has the best interest (that is yet to come) for me, that He'll take care of everything, that He is sovereign and I shall not be left lacking. To trust that He will carry my burdens, my worries, my brokenness, and my past. That He will sustain me, provide, bless and love even when I am not at my best. To trust that as long as I obey, depend and faith in Him, it's all gonna be okay and even great too (trials may befall but the joy of the Lord will sustain me). :)

Though hardships are still not over and are bound to get worse, I want to learn to trust and obey in Him. Even when I can't feel Him, even when I can't see the hope and even when I feel like falling. Because ultimately I know that He is in control and that I can still smile and be joyful in Him. :)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
(James 1:2-4)

I thank Him for His grace and mercy. I know He is prunning me now so that I can bloom.
And I will bloom for Him and His glory. :)

I shall update more soon.... hopefully. Tehee...

Have a blessed week and may the Lord shine upon you. :)

Under His Wings

The Potato is giving all praise and credit to the Lord God Almighty!!!
For He is worthy in everyway!!!

His faithfulness is awesome, His peace is so transending, And His grace is more than sufficient!

If you've read my previous post, you will know that I suffered a minor panic attact for a moment. Headache, urge to vomit, difficulty in breathing (more like hyperventilating), drumroll of hearbeats like mad and wanting to pass out...

It was not a nice experience. It was panic + scared to the max!

But in that dark hour, I cried out to Him. Surrendering all and just seeking Him for His grace and mercy.

And Lo' Behold!

His faithfulness became real. So real. So true.

I felt peace. Joy. And strength. All that was caging me before disolved and melted away. And suddenly I knew that it was not me, but Him.

It was an amazing moment.

The Lord was there, He was real and He showed me that it was going to be okay.

I am so blessed and thankful to have such an awesome God.

His faithfulness is beyond anything else!

Thank you Lord!!!!!!

The Light in my darkness

Currently Listening:

White Horse

by

Taylor Swift

I am so scared.

So so scared.

I feel like my lungs are tightening and choking my heart.

I can't breathe.

I want to scream.

I want to cry....

But I can't do anything.

I feel tired.

I feel sick.

I feel lost.

I feel so numb.

****

I need you Lord....

I know I am unworthy

But please take me in, do not abandon me.

Forgive me and give me peace for Your will.

Lead me to Your ways and strengthen my heart and faith in You.

To infinity and beyond~!

Currently Listening to:

The buzzing sounds of KDU Square cafetaria at 8am in the morning.

It's the first day of my finals exams. The beginning of the end.

And here I am sitting here with my Princess Coconut laptop (need it to study, all my notes are softcopy!) trying to study for my upcoming Communication & Conflict Management final exam at 9am (an hours time). But alas! I am not studying, rather blogging my morning through as my head is neither here nor there.

I have not finished studying yet *screams* and yes I know it's an hour away, yet I feel so un-needed to do so. Am I plunging myself into a serious abyss of doom? Or am I just too over-mellow to realise that my neck is on the line for this exam?

I feel peace.

But yet my conciousness is screaming "You're dead!"

I am awfully terrified and yet feeling like my soul is flying to Candyland where the Candy Clown is welcoming me like sugar and butter before devouring me whole (watch IT?)

So I am 'chilling' now while knowing later I am 'doomed'!

Btw, note to self, great analogy, gotta use it often (lame I know).

I wanna scream help but at the same time know that I was in the process of 'cari mati sendiri' cause I am not studying!

And to make matters worse, I barely slept last nite. What did I do then?

Was trying and struggling to study!!!

I gave up bout 4am something and knock myself dead on the bed and then started to realise half way through that I kept waking up non-stop cause my mind was just too worried and gila to sleep. Now ladies and gentleman, sleeping has never been a problem for me before. Even during past exams, I slept like a rock, nay, like a grizzly bear during winter!

But now, all I can think about is the exam and how to study for it (which I am still failing to do now). It's like I am so conflicted and pulled-apart! Argh! So drama! :P

Okay, I think I gtg now. Need to try to study and pray!

"Lord I submit today's paper to You. Let it be Thy will. Forgive me for my sins of laziness, procastination and disobediance. Thank you for Your forgiveness, love, grace and mercy. I am Yours. Grant me the spirit of wisdom, understanding and knowledge. Bless me with a peace of mind and an attentive spirit. Go ahead of me and may Your favour be upon me. I commit my exams unto You in Jesus's name, Amen!" :D

Over my silver lining...

Currently Listening to:

Tomorrow

by

Annie

(OST: Annie)

I love lazy afternoons. Taking my time with house chores (still have yet to clean my babies's cages), spending my afternoon emailing friends, keeping in touch with them despite long distance and studies, hugging my bolsters all day long and just spending my time to myself at my own pace.

But apparently, this is as good as it's gonna get before my full-fledge storm of studies start swarming in next week. Yes, the month of May harbours many hidden agendas of dissapointments, stress, worries and hardship. Its the time of FINAL assignments, presentations and exams. Something I am fearful to face and definitely unprepared for now to encounter.

Last semester, I never want to see you again, so make sure you bugger off properly~!

I have to be serious, put in more effort and STUDY~!!! Period~!

Please pray for me k... Thank you.

The Moonlight's Shadow....

Currently Listening to:

Double Concerto (1)

by

Sebastian Bach.

Performed by

Itzhak Perlman and Isaac Stern

Never worry about anything. Instead, in every situation let your petitions be made known to God through prayers and requests, with thanksgiving. Then God's peace, which goes far beyond anything we can imagine, will guard your hearts and minds in union with the Messiah Jesus.

~Philippians 4:6-7~

Torns in my head!

Currently Listening to: Because I'm A Girl by Kiss

Squeeze me please!!!

End my agony....

Dreams to Dreams....

Currently Listening to:

You'll Be In My Heart

by

Phil Collins

(OST: Disney Original Movie: Tarzan)

"What'cha gotta say??"

For whom does the wind cry for?

A little depressed....

.... just a little.

Dancing With Fire and Twirling in Darkness

Currently Listening to:

Terlalu Istimewa
by

Adibah Noor

"Some say, the safest place is where the most dangerous is."

"Yes, and there is where I feel the safest....."

"....avec vous."

Life's No Cupcake!

Currently Listening To: I'll Be by Edwin McCain.

Because I am heading to a family trip in Fraser's Hill on Thursday, I have no choice but to finish my Documentary assignment by Wednesday (instead of Friday). I have to make an early head start but somehow despite my so called "omphness", my pink slobbish brain has failed to function. It is "awake" but fails to generate anything other than... well, NOTHING!

And in the midst of "nothingness", I feel so clustered. Will I finish it in time? With lotsa bunny and house chores, the thought of Media Audiences presentation meetings, the re-print-submission of my Analysis for my case study, the midnight movie of Ironman etc. Plus on Wed, there is gonna be another added assignment! Aside from rushing Documentary's essay then, I have to start and finish Pro Comm's forum postings on Wed too (no Fri dateline for me)!

Despite all "worries", my laziness triumph over it! Or maybe my brain is just plain lumpy now. Morever, as said earlier, my otak just cant function! It has failed to comprehend the assignment question let alone have the initiative to "treasure-search" the reader for answers. At first glance, I thought I could do it - almost and maybe a piece of cake! But first impressions are always deceiving. When you actually study the question, it will eventually sink into you that it ain't that simple. Cause if it was, then I would either be brilliant (which I am so not!) or we're paying Murdoch University too much money that they've decided to just "pass" us (with easy questions). LOL! And since it isn't either of them, then I suppose its just plain tough and I need to study! GAG!

Item 3: Film Criticism Essay 1,500 words Value 30%
Due Date: Friday, Week 7

With reference to the first six weekly screenings and lectures, discuss the following five modes of documentary film: expository, interactive, performative, self-reflexive and observational. Present reasons for what you think are the most effective and pervasive(influence/spread out) strategies employed in communicating through film.

The aim of this essay is to test your familiarity with the five modes of documentary film and your analytic skills in critical application. We suggest that you divide your essay into two parts, each addressing one part of the question. In the first part, you should briefly define the five modes of documentary films, illustrating your understanding of the five modes with reference to the six films screened in class. The focus of the second part is on how well you have thought about these modes in terms of effectiveness and pervasiveness in screen communication.

You will be rewarded for original thinking and good examples; precision (preciseness/accuracy) in expression; accurate referencing; and well-developed and organised arguments within the required word limit. Not an easy task, if you are aiming for an HD (High Distinction)!

GARGH!!!!!!!!!

LOL! See la later now....

Lord, please grant me a hardworking spirit, Amen!

Dew Drops In My Tea

Currently Listening to: Someday My Prince Will Come by Barbara Streisand (OST: Cinderella)

Worries of the week:

- Response for assignment 6 postings in the forum (Professional Communication).

- Resubmission of Discussion/Analysis for Case Study - Dove Campaign for Real Beauty (Media Audiences and the Public).

- Meet up discussion for Media Audiences Presentation next week!

- Documentary assignment no. 2! I still have no idea! (have to do an early start - Fraser's Hill on Fri!)

All should be done by Wednesday next week! Then Fraser's Hill here I come!

Despite all worries, I must still give praise and thanks to the Lord for being faithful and abunding in grace. Without Him, I am nothing and through Him, I can do more. Praise to Him with all glory!

Sometimes, I notice the little things in life can just make your day. It does! Try experiencing it more and you'll be more grateful in life. On the other hand, sometimes you can actually feel the 'little things" talking back to you. Telling you little stories or so.

I know it seems crazy... but I guess you need to feel it to know.

"Sometimes a certain presence or gesture makes a difference. A simple smile can stir a heart and a small gentle act of kindness can calm even the furiest of fires. Rainbows aren't that far away... you just need to notice the dainty dews around before witnessing it's little miracles. Behind every drop is a spectrum of wonders waiting to be grasp." ~ P

Angry Little Girl Comic Strip of the Day:

Okay, this is a short entry brought to you by Miss Potato. Have a pleasant day people and God bless! Hug and be hugged. Be a blessing and be blessed! No harm in smiling today! You can make a difference.

"Life's a candy and the sun's a ball of butter!"

~Barbara Streisand~