Under His Wings

The Potato is giving all praise and credit to the Lord God Almighty!!!
For He is worthy in everyway!!!

His faithfulness is awesome, His peace is so transending, And His grace is more than sufficient!

If you've read my previous post, you will know that I suffered a minor panic attact for a moment. Headache, urge to vomit, difficulty in breathing (more like hyperventilating), drumroll of hearbeats like mad and wanting to pass out...

It was not a nice experience. It was panic + scared to the max!

But in that dark hour, I cried out to Him. Surrendering all and just seeking Him for His grace and mercy.

And Lo' Behold!

His faithfulness became real. So real. So true.

I felt peace. Joy. And strength. All that was caging me before disolved and melted away. And suddenly I knew that it was not me, but Him.

It was an amazing moment.

The Lord was there, He was real and He showed me that it was going to be okay.

I am so blessed and thankful to have such an awesome God.

His faithfulness is beyond anything else!

Thank you Lord!!!!!!

The Light in my darkness

Currently Listening:

White Horse

by

Taylor Swift

I am so scared.

So so scared.

I feel like my lungs are tightening and choking my heart.

I can't breathe.

I want to scream.

I want to cry....

But I can't do anything.

I feel tired.

I feel sick.

I feel lost.

I feel so numb.

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I need you Lord....

I know I am unworthy

But please take me in, do not abandon me.

Forgive me and give me peace for Your will.

Lead me to Your ways and strengthen my heart and faith in You.

In Your Storm...

Currently Listening to:

Come What May

by

Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor

(OST: Moulin Rouge)

To YOU my dearest friend,

When you are lonely, when you are sad, when you are worried, when you are far, when you are tempted, when you are upset, when you are angry, when you are weak, when you are insecure...

know that the Lord is there for you. And so am I...

The Blooming Rose....

Currently Listening to:

Alive

by

Jennifer Lopez

(OST: Enough)

Father,

I acknowledge that You are the Lord of my life. The centre of my world, my creator and loving, faithful God who's grace is ever abundant. You are great in everyway and nothing is too big for you to handle.

I am so sorry for my weaknesses. For my lack of faith, for my disobedience, my weary soul, my failing heart, my selfishness, my pride, my anger, my lusts, my gluttony, my jealousy, greediness and all my sins. Change my heart and lead me to the path of repeant and forgiveness.

I thank You for everything. For Your blood, Your love, Your mercy, Your grace, Your word and Your blessings. I thank You for a loving family, for caring friends and a blessed life. Thank You for being my God.

I want to commit my friends and family, those who are far, to You. I pray that You'll continue to protect and bless them. To open their hearts to You and to lead them to Your path and will. I pray that You'll give me the disernment to be sensitive, the wisdom to know and the heart to reach out. Give me the burden to love more, to be patient, to be brave, to be faithful, long-suffering, strong and wise in You. Strengthen my faith in You that I may lead a encouraging testimony for You to others around me. Protect me from evil and unrighteousness and hold me steadfast when trials befall me that I may be still and know that You are God. Humble my heart and keep my focus on Your prize and not my own. Take Your place in my life and may I be pleasing to you. Use me Lord and take me as I am.

In Jesus's name, Amen.

Believing is Seeing

Currently Listening to:

With All I Am (Jesus I Believe)

by

Hillsong

Strengthen my faith in You my Lord and let me be a testimony for Your glory. Forgive me for my transgressions (thoughts and actions) and deliver me from temptation. Hold me steadfast in You and equip me with ur armour of words. Let not my pride covet my eyes but fill me with wisdom to see Thy will. Come and changed me so that I may be pleasing to you. Use me dear Father and may my lips speak words of praise to you till the end of my days. Cast my fears aside and strengthen my foundation in You. Give me the burden in my heart to love and to seek Thy word and will. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Break my heart Lord so that I may surrender to You not myself. Amen.

I believe that my God is a good God. An awesome God. A loving God. A forgiving God. A great God and an amazing One.

I shall wait on Him for I know He is always there. Always there in my toughest storm. Always there in the silence of the darkness. Always there in every one of my tears. Always there in the sweetest of my joys... He's there.

I BELIEVE IN JESUS! I DO! I DO!!!!

and may my actions, purpose and life scream it way louder than my spoken words.

In the veiling of the sun....

Currently Listening to:
'Diva Opera'
(OST: Fifth Element)

My beloved paternal granny (who practically raised me) is currently very ill and bed-ridden in HUKM (Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia) - been visiting her everyday. I pray she will heal soon by God's grace and in Jesus's name. :D Please help to pray for her too.

p/s: TVC final exam is this Monday. I pray I'll make it through.

Walking on Water....

"With my God with me, who can be against me?"

"Have faith frail soul, for He is mightier than any other."

Away with you sickness, pain, aches and fatique-ness!!

I will triumph in my NMT exam tomorrow!

Praise be to God Almighty!

An Invinsible Shadow

Currently Listening to:

One Night Only

by

Jennifer Hudson

(OST: Dream Girls)

I just send my dad off.... well not to the airport but from the house gate to the cab. Feel kinda sad and emo. I'm already missing my dad now. Hampir menangis at the gate....

For those yang tak tahu, my dad is going off to Columbia Theological Seminary (CTS), Decatur, Georgia, USA for some seminary research thingie on AIDS/HIV (on theological studies) for 3 months (3 minggu also i rindu gila d). Actually before that, he is going to the UK first to visit some people and family, then to the United Nations Development Fund (UNFPA) Forum on Faith Based Organisations in Latin America at Bueno Aires (South America) before flying back to the UK and then only to the Atlanta, US. And then after that, he'll be flying off to Istanbul, Turkey for the UNFPA World Forum before going back to Georgia, US to complete his course. (THEN BALIK M'SIA!!!)

Yes, banyak tempat dia pergi and lama... and I will super miss him!!! :(

Sekarang also I rindu d... maybe cause seeing my dad off is kinda emo-ing (mum and bro at work today, only me at home seeing dad off).

Anyway... taps on the shoulder for me, I managed to finish my NMT 7 week internet diary today along with my LMS posting and response (Yiang, I reponded to your post!). I'm TRYING to start my 1500 word essay today, now or tonight... but I'm having some probs in starting or understanding what is needed to be writtten. I'm also having a blur moment in trying to read and 'study' all my pdf notes from LMS so that I won't write vacuous words in it (in other words crap too much). But reading week 1's notes is already susah and mind bottling... Let alone 4 more... haish... Macam susah je... :(

I really hope I can start (and hopefully finish) it tonight or at least till tomorrow's early morning...haha. If so then it will be a new surprise as it is not common for me to complete an assignment a day before the dateline (as said, I am usually super last minute-burning midnight oil-adrenaline kicking person). Anyway... all the best to me...haha.. and to those in my shoes.

Thank you Lord for everything, for Your faithfulness, grace, love and promises. I pray You'll bless and protect my dad overseas and be with Him always. Strengthen me in You to abide in Your word and will. Grant me the spirit of wisdom, knowledge and understanding as I grow more in You. I commit all into Your hands, Amen.

God bless everyone and peace!!!

HUGS!

Gliding on Rainbows

Currently Listening to: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

Second post of the day... I'm just freaking bored.

Things to do: CUT NAILS!

They aren't that long... but I am not used to 'long' nails (always had em short) and despite trying to grow em and paint them bloody red, I can't seem to tahan the consequences of having long nails! It's mahfan... feel's sharpy, uncomfortable in typing (like now), playing the piano and violin (believe it or not, I actually played the both of em today... see my boredom?! LOL!) and it pokes my eyes when I try to take my contact lenses off. Plus, with my skin condition, my mum would chop my fingers off if she saw even a 'slice' of white enamel on my fingers.

Things to do 2: Read the Bible more!

I am very free. Totally free and somewhat to the point where boredom comes into my life's picture like white to a paper. And I think this is a perfect time to meditate, pray and read the Bible, spend some quality time with God. Or should I say, MORE time with Him. And I have a few good book unread about my journey with Him. I should read more... yes I should! And I am not saying that I only spend time with God when I am free. Trust me, if I didn't pray those prayers all day in my end of semester (tension time), I would have not gotten through the pressure, stress and hardships or final assignments and exams. I give all the credit and glory to Him! I am not smart nor am I a study person but by His grace I managed to pull through.

No, you can't pray to pass but you can pray that God will give you the spirit of wisdom, knowledge and understanding. The peaceful and alert mind to remember and a hardworking heart to study well and pass you exams. :)

p/s: A follower of Christ should always put Him first, even in your busy days. Don't let Him be second priority or anything less than the first. He deserves the best. So don't leave Him for only your spare time or when you're bored. When you're really free, that's when you need to spend MORE time and even when you're not free... Do it too. And believe it or not, when you put Him first in your busy times, He actually helps unload the burden to concentrate more on Him. God is amazing~ ! :)

Time with God VS man made work = *you know who wins* :D

Obvious tips: Even when you're going through a hurricane of stress and hardship be it work or studies... just apply God's word in your life. Depend in Him, trust in Him (PRAY) and know that "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all else shall be added unto You."

Amen!

And suddenly, from a blog entry on boredom, it turned out to be me telling myself (and hopefully others reading this) that in Him I can never be bored (unless you choose to be and then you're not in Him lo :P). God is always waiting for us to talk to Him. He deserves our very best and time. So pray and spend time with Him, busy or free. You'll notice that the reward is priceless!

Have a happy day in Him and God bless!

*Hugs*

Over the Rainbow and into Your arms

Calm my heart O Lord,
Let it be filled with love, patience and understanding.

Let not my heart be clouded with anger and judgement,
But overflowing with joy and grace.

Teach me Lord to control my temper,
And to watch my words and actions.

Grant me a clear conscience,
And a stready mindset to act according to Your ways.

Help me to set a good example to those around me,
And to be a useful vessel unto Thy glorious name.

Show me Thy ways,
So that I may follow them.

Guard my heart Lord,
And let it be strengthened with obedience.

~ Amen~