Beneath the Storm

My new favourite song...




Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I
Been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know everything is alright
Everything's alright

Beyond the Stormy Clouds

Lift Me Up by Kate Voegele





This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up, to pack up and leave town

Even so, I had to believe
Impossible means nothing to me, yeah

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Somewhere, every body starts there
I'm counting on a small prayer,
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here, and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears
Everything worth having, oh
Comes with trials worth withstanding

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up
Oh, Lift me up

Down and out is overrated
And I need to be elevated
Looking up is not enough
No, I would rather rise above
So can you lift me up

Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, oh, oh, just begun
Lift me up, yeah, oh, oh, oh, yeah, now
Oh, oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up

God Bless the Broken Road

Broken by Lifehouse.
Original Soundtrack of the motion picture movie "The Time Traveler's Wife".





The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are broken, I know a Healer who can take away your pain, mend your wounds, repair your brokenness, fill your emptiness and make you whole again. Let me know, I'll love to introduce Him to you. He is always available. :)

Are you broken today?

Within the Wind

Currently Listening to:

From The Inside Out

by

Hillsong.

The Potato realises that she has a tendency to be able to blog in the wee hours of the morning before a big event or trip (refer to previous posts for evidence). Don't ask me, I don't know why. It's 3AM in the morning and I am expected to 'rise and shine' in 3 hours time (6AM!) to get ready for Eaglepoint Damansara's first church camp in Genting View Resort (Praise the Lord for it!)! But here I am again unable to catch ZZZZ and resulting to put my midnight thoughts into virtual words

If you've noticed, the Potato has rarely blogged bout anything personal or private anymore. She used to go all emo on it (boy, when I read my previous blog, I can't help but blush!) and never fails to notify the entire cyber world (those who bother) of her petty little life musings and gaga-ness. But nope, not now anymore. At least not recently or lately. This must be the reason of her lack of updates. She has been so caught up with things; up and down, that she has gotten so weary and almost nonchalant to bother anymore. It's hard enough to sort and contain them properly inside her let alone being able to lay it out straight for the world to see. She guesses that when you grow up, when you encounter another phase or stage, things just change. You try to cope with the new stuff while balancing the old or finding wisdom to know if you should keep it. Is she just being complicated? Or just too plain to be comprehended

NOTE: If you find it hard to understand the language or phrasing of sentences, do excuse the Potato, she has not compose any writings lately and is somehow retardedly unsure of her English. Just fresh off 3 months after her last semester and her brain has already started to rust. How shameful of her. :P

I wish I could put the Potato to sleep.

She needs her sleep.

I need her to sleep.

But recently she's been going through this whole 'phase' whereby she only dozes of after tossing and turning in bed for hours, thinking of the most ridiculuous things and end up having nightmares of it

It's funny really, before this, she was hibernating like a log (after the recovery from the horrible illness couple of weeks ago) all the time and now she could barely remember how to sleep.

Waking up to lingering dreams (nightmares still?) of whatever the world holds for her then just ain't the cupcake starter of her day. No wonder she's a bit sotong lately. 'Otak takde centre'.

There are good days and there are days where they ain't.

But it's okay.

She's okay.

She will be okay.

She may be far from perfect. But she has a perfect God. :)

She just needs to stop dwelling in her weaknesses and start to rely on His stength instead.

I believe in You.

In Your promises in my life.

In Your love and goodness

Forgive me for ever doubting.

Dancing Sunshine :)

Currently Listening to:

Here I Am

by

Leona Lewis

OKAY....

I know it's been light years since I last blogged but hey sometimes life catches up with you and you just gotta deal with it. And I've dealt with it and hence the absence. :)

But also because some loving people who keeps pestering me to clear the cobwebs in my bloggie, tehee...

So where do I start?

What life has held me recently:

- Final of final exams
- Friends
- More friends
- Vacations
- Outings
- Meetings
- Sleepovers
- Makan to the MAX sessions
- Hang outs
- Movies
- Etc

Pretty busy somehow....tehee....

But most of all, God has been good in my life. :D

I have learned that by God being good in my life does not only meant that it is seen in His blessings, my happiness etc, but also in His grace, mercy, joy, perseverance and peace during hard times. The list above may seem nice (and yes, most of them are) but through them, heartbreaks, tears, suffering and pain drove by. I have to admit, I went through the toughest time in my life this very month. But it is through this time where I experience God the most in my life. I learn to surrender and to abide in Him and He delivered me, sustained me, helped me and comforted me. I knew it was Him for I know I wouldn't have made it without Him. I would have broken to pieces but here I am because He is so real in my life. He showered me with grace, peace, joy and rest despite my thundering storm and I know that my God is real and so awesome!

I've learned 2 very important things through this hard month, which was to:

TRUST AND OBEY

To Obey in His will and know that following Him is the right and best thing to do. Even when you don't feel like it, even when it breaks your heart, even when it is against all odds for when you choose to obey, God sees your heart and honours you back (ten fold). All you have to do is obey and His will will be done in your life (And His will/plan is ultimately the BEST). :)

"His will is not for your consideration but your obedience."

(Pastor Shawn Kong)

To Trust that He has the best interest (that is yet to come) for me, that He'll take care of everything, that He is sovereign and I shall not be left lacking. To trust that He will carry my burdens, my worries, my brokenness, and my past. That He will sustain me, provide, bless and love even when I am not at my best. To trust that as long as I obey, depend and faith in Him, it's all gonna be okay and even great too (trials may befall but the joy of the Lord will sustain me). :)

Though hardships are still not over and are bound to get worse, I want to learn to trust and obey in Him. Even when I can't feel Him, even when I can't see the hope and even when I feel like falling. Because ultimately I know that He is in control and that I can still smile and be joyful in Him. :)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
(James 1:2-4)

I thank Him for His grace and mercy. I know He is prunning me now so that I can bloom.
And I will bloom for Him and His glory. :)

I shall update more soon.... hopefully. Tehee...

Have a blessed week and may the Lord shine upon you. :)

Under His Wings

The Potato is giving all praise and credit to the Lord God Almighty!!!
For He is worthy in everyway!!!

His faithfulness is awesome, His peace is so transending, And His grace is more than sufficient!

If you've read my previous post, you will know that I suffered a minor panic attact for a moment. Headache, urge to vomit, difficulty in breathing (more like hyperventilating), drumroll of hearbeats like mad and wanting to pass out...

It was not a nice experience. It was panic + scared to the max!

But in that dark hour, I cried out to Him. Surrendering all and just seeking Him for His grace and mercy.

And Lo' Behold!

His faithfulness became real. So real. So true.

I felt peace. Joy. And strength. All that was caging me before disolved and melted away. And suddenly I knew that it was not me, but Him.

It was an amazing moment.

The Lord was there, He was real and He showed me that it was going to be okay.

I am so blessed and thankful to have such an awesome God.

His faithfulness is beyond anything else!

Thank you Lord!!!!!!

The Light in my darkness

Currently Listening:

White Horse

by

Taylor Swift

I am so scared.

So so scared.

I feel like my lungs are tightening and choking my heart.

I can't breathe.

I want to scream.

I want to cry....

But I can't do anything.

I feel tired.

I feel sick.

I feel lost.

I feel so numb.

****

I need you Lord....

I know I am unworthy

But please take me in, do not abandon me.

Forgive me and give me peace for Your will.

Lead me to Your ways and strengthen my heart and faith in You.

I still love you....

Currently Listening to: Soon - OST: Tumbelina

The Potato just had her first physical fight today~ ! :D

It was not a cat fight... but a rabbit fight.

Yes, it was a gruesome battle between 'two bunnies' with harsh consequences.

The Potato is now left with many battle scars.

And those scars came with a price.

A painful price....

It was very painful. VERY. Period.

Never has she felt such pain in a long time.

Never underestimate rabbit's 'nails'....

Gosh....

*****

Can you believe that this adorable little bunny....

Who grew into this fat, manja and cute bunny... (below)

Manages to inflict such injury:

Three strikes onto the upper arm... two of it got swollen....

After the wound got 'dried' up from the bengkak-ness, it turned into bloody dark red lines

(no pic for that)....

Going on....

The neck suffered too.... A big lash there.... :P

Lower arm.... note the red marks and slashes... the mosquito bite looking mark is not from a mosquito...lol. It was inflicted by a bunny! :P

Arm... upper lash

Arm...lower lash

Left thigh

Right thigh

*****

But just so you know...

the Potato won the fight!

BOO YAH~!!!!

Walking Through Light

Currently Listening to:

ARISE!

by

Brendon and Cathie Clancy

Have faith: Hebrew 11-12 :)

"If I believe it, I can receive it!" :D

In trouble times, in suffering times, in tearing times, in sorrowful times, in hard times, have FAITH. Have faith that you are not alone. That God is watching over you, speaking to you and understands your pain. Have faith that through Him, no storm will last forever. That through Him, your sufferings will past. And through Him, you will find peace in moving on.

Have faith.

Have faith that God is way bigger than any problem.

Have faith that whatever you are going through, the Lord will bless you, comfort you and love you. You are never alone.

All things are possible with God.

It may seem surreal.
But once you've tasted His faithfulness, you'll know you will never be the same again!

You just need to have FAITH.

*******

This is for you my beloved friend(s) who's heart, mind and body is burdened (you know who you are). God can change that - just have faith. :)

****

Faith is just not merely proclaiming in believing something, but the act in believing.

When you ask God for patience, do you think He would just give you patience itself? Or would He give you the opportunity to be patient?

the same goes to:

When you ask God for strength to fight temptation, do you think He will give you the strength suddenly by itself? Or the opportunity to be strong and resist when temptation comes?

You may not be strong enough, but God certainly is. You just need to have faith and abide. Don't only have faith only in your lips but in your heart, mind, actions, works and in your life. So when trying times arrive, through God, you will be strong.

God is fair and just. He does not force. He gave us human a CHOICE. A choice to believe, a choice to receive and a choice for a better life in Him.

You can ask God to help you in your addiction, but you have to want to get rid of the addiction yourself. Make a step to change and God will strengthen that step (and the rest to come).

Two farmers are waiting for rain from God for their. One farmer prepares His crops and waits while the other decides only to do so when God rains on them.

Now which farmer do you think will be the one most likely to be blessed with rain? :)

God will work in You when you start working in yourself!

Have FAITH that God is HERE and that He wants to save you, to prosper you and to love you unconditionally.

He is ever here waiting. Just have faith.

God is not a mere idol sitting on top of a praying table. He is so much more than that. He does not need joysticks or food to bless you. God is a loving God, He wants to know you and for you to know Him and have a relationship to bless you.

It is through the decision we make in the hard times that determines who we are. What you decide can either break you or make you.

Which are you?

Honour God and He will honour you.

LIVE in Faith

Rest in the buds of May....

Currently Listening to:

At the Cross

by

Hillsong

only You....

Believing is Seeing

Currently Listening to:

With All I Am (Jesus I Believe)

by

Hillsong

Strengthen my faith in You my Lord and let me be a testimony for Your glory. Forgive me for my transgressions (thoughts and actions) and deliver me from temptation. Hold me steadfast in You and equip me with ur armour of words. Let not my pride covet my eyes but fill me with wisdom to see Thy will. Come and changed me so that I may be pleasing to you. Use me dear Father and may my lips speak words of praise to you till the end of my days. Cast my fears aside and strengthen my foundation in You. Give me the burden in my heart to love and to seek Thy word and will. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Break my heart Lord so that I may surrender to You not myself. Amen.

I believe that my God is a good God. An awesome God. A loving God. A forgiving God. A great God and an amazing One.

I shall wait on Him for I know He is always there. Always there in my toughest storm. Always there in the silence of the darkness. Always there in every one of my tears. Always there in the sweetest of my joys... He's there.

I BELIEVE IN JESUS! I DO! I DO!!!!

and may my actions, purpose and life scream it way louder than my spoken words.

Please don't blow the summer wind away....

Currently Listening to:

Won't Let You Fall

by

Fergie

(OST: Poseidon)

I don't mean to be a MELODRAMATIC princess here but I mean every detail when I say that I am really having a tough week. More like tough month! But then again, this week is the worst.


Sick - have been for more than a week! (sore throat, flu, cough, phlegm, headaches) + endless stress + tiredness + group assignment meetings + campaign management major end project + TVC final assignment (CAN'T focus now!) + upcoming TVC final exam (YET to study!)+ very dried up = I NEED SOME SERIOUS LOVE!!!!




I don't really know how to handle stress well cause naturally I am not a stressful person nor do I get stressed easily (and usually I don't let it get to me). If you know me well, I'm basically a mellow person who does not take herself too seriously (in other words, I'm not a critical person - which is why I am always so smiley and cherry). Hence.... if I say I'm stressed, means its a big deal (for me at least) and I'm really cracking out!


Lord I need You!!! I needs Your peace, wisdom, understanding, knowledge, strength and joy. Take all that is ill and sick away from my body in Jesus name and grant me a clear mind to think for my studies.



p/s: To dearie Alexis Lim Ying Hui.... thank you for being such a blessing to me. Your care, encouragement and support sustained me through my trying moments. I'm so blessed to have you in my life. Heart ya lots!

The Seeds of Faith, Love & Perseverance

Currently Listenng to:

Burning Love

by

Elvis Presley

God is truly faithful and good. :D

O the Awesome-ness of Him!

For those yang tak tahu, I've been a little ill (plus Miss Strawberry had to visit at such an unfair time with its harsh symptoms) for the past 2 days and my NMT finals was today. I had a hard time concentrating on anything (pain was unbearable) let alone study. But God is good, He sustained me through the wee hours in the morning (studied till 5:30am) - when my pain was decreasing slowly then and gave me a peace of mind to partake my NMT paper later on. And guess what? Praise be to the Lord!! I actually knew all the answers to the questions I was doing (which was rare, haha)! I was pretty merry as I confidently start scribbling my answers down (it was one of the happiest and easiest paper I had). :D :D :D Glory to Him!!!

But today is only the beginning of a long, hard and possibly stressful month (November just ain't my baby). There's more to come and it's all stretched out... :(

New Media Technologies final exam - 5th Nov (DONE!)

Campaign Management Group Project - NGO Proposal - 11th Nov

Television, Video and Culture final assignment - 14th Nov

Campaign Management Group Presentation - 18th Nov

Television, Video and Culture final exam - 24th Nov

But I pray God will give me the perseverance and joy to go through tough times. All is possible through Him! :)

Thanks so all the sweet (and God sent) friends (and family) who prayed and encouraged me in facebook. Really touched and gembira, hehe. Thank you. :)

p/s: argh! now my back is aching!!

Walking on Water....

"With my God with me, who can be against me?"

"Have faith frail soul, for He is mightier than any other."

Away with you sickness, pain, aches and fatique-ness!!

I will triumph in my NMT exam tomorrow!

Praise be to God Almighty!

Your heart knows that for a moment, it'll never be alone....

Currently Listening to:

Keranamu Kekasih

by

Vince Chong

(OST: Puteri Gunung Ledang)

"Sometimes, all we need is just someone to silently hold our hand as we brave through the storms alone...."

No cookies in my jar...

So much for PMS on my headache... Mum thinks it's over heaty... Panadols and Aspirins did not work and hence the doc issued Paracetamols instead. Yes, I had to see a doc, and apparently according to her, the cause was due to pressure (????) which no one in my family agress to it. Hahaha.... maklum la, the sleeping pig of the house mana la boleh pressure. Not that I'm that mellow but hey, I have my share of carefree moments. But anyway, I didn't merely visit the doc for my jelly-like head problem. It was because I woke up this morning with conjunctivitis and sore throat which then lead to a minor fever. And all my mum said was "YIT HEI" which means internal body heaty-ness and in this case, too heaty sampai kena jumpa doctor. Me mum blames it on the mamak sup kambing I had the night before.... but well... it was worth it...hahaha! The down part of it is that I am missing the barbeque that's happening right this moment downstairs. My bro and his friends are having a blast "burning sausages in the front porch and I can't touch the food due to my 'heaty-ness'. And here I am blogging because I am freaking bored stuck in my room with bread and soup. And because PMS is around the corner, my tummy has begun to ache a little... I wonder if I should wipe down some Panadols for it while I'm heavy on Paracetamols and other medications??? p/s: 5 pills... okay and 3 of it aregigantic... I almost choked!

Anyway... do leave a little footprint at the (new) CBOX and tell me if the colour is too over or not. As a 'colourful' person, sometimes I cant tell if it's just too much....teheee.

Okay, can't blog for long... vision lacking already.

Have a nice weekend and day God bless!

Blur Sotongs In My Tank!

Argh!!!

I hate headaches!!!

I hate PMS!!!

Bohohohohohooo...!!!

I've had, am having and will be having one sucky day!

I can't do anything right or for long.

My headache is bugging me like red ants to a rambutan tree!

I can't watch TV for long nor even go online for more than half an hour. I can't even read a decent chapter of online manga without smoothering myself to my bolster for mental comfort.

OMGosh... it feels terrible.

I didn't even go for "Vibe" tonight because of my headache! :P

Is it really PMS??? Or am I just plain sick? Me mum and aunt said I felt hot (like fever) but I feel fine, I think. Sometimes I feel kinda nauseous and my back neck aches too.

I took a Panadol yesterday and a Bayer Aspirin today... still no effect. :(

Okay, I gotta stop now... headache taking its toll...

A 'bugger' told me that maybe there's a midget in my head bugging me...

O the Strawberry-ness of Me!

Currently Listening to: Let Me Lie by Hayley Westenra.

The Potato seems rather reluctant to start blogging and posting pictures of her 5th day in Cambodia. Perhaps, it's her laziness to edit the sizes of the photos? The nonchalant manner in trying to upload them? The divided views in whether to put them in parts? The little dizziness that has lingered in her left temple since yesterday? Or just PMS???

Don't mess with the 'kitty'!

I know PMS is a very common trade among girls and women and expecially me as it never seem to ever leave me alone every month. Emo-ness, cramps, back aches, lethargicness...etc. It seems to be a bl**dy annoying cycle.... wait, it's more than a cycle! It's an evolving cycle that gets worst. I recall the first PMS I had to go through when I first started to "age biologically".

First was cramps... VERY BAD cramps, in my early teens. Then 'heaviness' (lack of energy) came in... making me feel like a slug in school then whenever 'strawberry' came. In mid teen, emotions ran wild and that's when life is suddenly a big soap opera. And before I knew it... after the teen phrase (when the big 2-0 age comes to the picture), back aches start to attack as if osteoperosis jacked my spine. And now... in this very month, I've just discovered a new symptom...a very annoying one at that... headaches!!! Plus them altogether and you'll get a circus of disasters ni ya!

I never knew that headaches were a form of PMS cause I never had it nor knew anyone who did. Most girls I know commonly and usually only have cramps and emo-ess but on my case... it just keeps piling up. I have an annoying case of dizziness and head roller-coaster yesteryday noon and thought that maybe it was due to my contact lenses of something else. The fact that it was PMS never crossed my mind till Mdm Yiang told me. Hmmm.... I couldn't think about it much then for as I returned home, I immediatly dropped 'dead' on the bed and zero-ed out for the next 5 hours. Actually, it didn't really zzzz for real but just half concious lying on the bed as the headache did not permit me to doze off. It was wrecky!

And today... my head is giving me the same knocking on my temples. So get it all straight, I went online to search for the answers. And guess what, it is a PMS symptom. And I learned more... that PMS does 'evolve' and adds on more symptoms in life as you grow/age. Which freaking explains, why each phase of my life seems to be getting worse during 'strawberry'. So much for cramps, emo-ness, back aches, and a sluggy body... now I have to as headaches to the list!!! Darn! But at least I'm not that bad.... errr.. am I? I found out there are a lot more PMS symptoms and thankfully I'm not having them (YET????)... but as it states, it does pile up as you age. A few of them are acne (walau), bloating and tender breasts... which errr.. I don't think I have (nor want to have - sekarang also pening d every month).

Girl's rules and rocks but it isn't easy being one...

For reference and more:

http://health.yahoo.com/women-overview/premenstrual-syndrome-pms-topic-overview/healthwise--hw139442.html

The Souls of Butterflies

Jellos and bellos. A little annoying report here... a minute ago, 'someone' tak tahu siapa la called me (no name) and when I answered, 'it' (the person) didn't answer nor said anything and then later on hung up. I thought "whatever la" and didn't bother. And then the same annoying number smsed and started talking like kawan. And immediatly, I knew 'it' was some random person with no life who decides to find a 'friend' through random number calling. -_- I despise those kind of people! This is so not the first time. The first time however was worst (and also because I apa pun tak tahu that I layan je). It was during Diploma time when Mdm Yiang and I was shopping at 1 Utama. I had this random phone call from dunno what marketting person yada yada. "It" started asking me questions and blindly I answered (how stupdily 'professional' can I be??) - and before I noticed, macam giving out my personal details (of course not everything la - and I only gave vague answers). When I noticed how pointless the conversation was (at that point I didnt know I was being fooled), I politely decline whatever it was yada yada and tried to get off the phone. That person refused to 'let go' and me being the soft and pushover beancurd then, could only keep politely declining like an idiot (later on only did I know that being polite is what people usually take advantage off). So anyway (back to the story), the person in the end managed to get off the phone (at that time I was still so stupid and gutless to hang up rudely) and you know what 'it' said? "I'll call you tonight"( -_-") At that time, I knew it was no business/survey thingie call (slow right me?) and got pissed at myself for 'entertaining' someone so gila. Anyway, I didn't bother la till that very night about 11pm something that that same number called. Of course my stupidity then wasn't really that bad so hence I obviously didn't bother picking it up. I told my parents about it ended up getting 'lashed' fir being so 'dumb'. Hahahaha.... and all the while I thought I was being a polite and nice person. But I guess the rest of the world isn't.

Gosh, I've whinned and crapped so much bout the random phone call thingie that I forgot that I'm suppose to blog bout part 2 of day 4. :P Hehehe, before that, I would like to apologise if some of you are disturbed by the morbit-ness of the torture pics (got several nudges on it). I noticed some do not have the stomach for it and it's ok and very natural as well. The reason why I took and posted those pics wasn't for any simple reason. Yes, every other tourists then were taking photo of the pics, but what compelled me to do so was because I realised that it wasn't just cruel and horrible but it was something more. If you're in my generation (which I presume most of you are), I am pretty sure you've not seen war, tremendous physical pain, abuse, torture and tragedy. Maybe you've had bad times but I am sure nothing of the sort that happened in Cambodia (not even during the Japanese Occupation). What I saw there made me realised that we are freaking blessed to live here in Malaysia with peace and freedom. Sure, Malaysia is not perfect but it's way better than many countries and a beautiful one at it (it's just that our politic sucks, that's all). And by realising, I think we've yet to see what's really out there and how bad it could be. 9 out of 10 people, do not know or have any knowledge of the mass genocide in Cambodia. Yes, because we are so priviledge and blessed (and there's nothing wrong with that). I confess that I didn't know a thing till I went there and since I do now, I think it is a right thing to spread the word and tell people that such tyranny and malicious time had once past. And that millions of innocent Cambodians were tortured and murdered (and should not go unnoticed). Posting severe pictures serves to show and remind people that such incident once too place. To let the people and world know that this genocide should never repeat again (which is why the museum took no hesitation is posting up so many morbit pictures). For if the museum and pictures did not exist, 50 or more years from now (when the older has gone) when the new has come and have no knowledge of it and may just repeat such. It serves to remind others of the victim's suffering and that mankind should never neglect compassion and cruelty can not and shall not prevail. So people, be grateful with your life and always be kind of others! :)

I'm suppose to blog about Choeungek Genocidal Centre today... but then I realised that I left a few pictures out (different section) and forgot to post them up previously on Toulseng Genocide Museum. So hence, I shall continue it and then only go on with the Choeungek Centre later in this entry. This post will not be as morbit as the previous one (no worries, no disturbing pictures) but still sad none the less. So please take time browsing, enlarging and reading the 'pics'... :)

Day 4 in Cambodia (Part 2): Continuation of Toulseng Genocide Museum Tour and visit to Choeungek Genocide Centre (Kiling Fields).


The next building in the school.... Note, if you look properly (and if you can't, click to enlarge), this building is 'enveloped' with spikey wires. This is because this particular building is a temporary jail and the wires are used to prevent victims from escaping and jumping off.

Their tiny cells... Looks easy and simple... but then again, the victims would be too severely injured to even 'breakthrough'.
The brick jail section...

The wooden jail section..

At last a pic of me then... (in the cell):P Because it was a 'sad' place, I barely took any pics of us inside....
The skull exhibition... This is a very small display of the victim's skulls (compared to Choeungek Centre).

It shows that the skull depicts signs of severe injuries....

And then later on we took a half an hour ride of tuk tuk to Choeungek Genocide Centre which is widely known as 'Killing Fields'. This is the place where the tortured victims at the Toulseng was taken and brutally killed before mass burried.

This whole building here was built to contain thousands of skulls of the victims from the graveyard excavation...

The sign outside the monument...
The skulls of victims.... And these are only a fraction of the millions of victims murdered.

After that, we walked around the place to see the mass graveyards.... It was sad as the victims were killed, they were just dumped in a big hole and burried together...

The sign here says...

"Mass Grave of 450 Victims"

Click to read and view more intamately.
If not the sign there says...
"Mass Grave of 166 Victims Without Heads"
And the grave here really nudged my heart... It says:
"Mass Grave of more than 100 victims children and women whose majority were naked"
I suppose those women were most likely raped before killed and burried... And it was horrible.
It says "Killing tree against which executioners beat chilren"
How it was done is that the cruel executioner would hold the leg of the infant and slam or whack the child unto the tree to kill it. It was terrible and this tree was next to that grave (previously shown). So after beating dead each child, they would just throw it into the grave hole next to it... When I heard about it, disgust ran through my veins just by looking at the tree.
This is a different tree. Please click to enlarge and read... (kinda malas to type it down) :P

Also please read...

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After that, we continued with our program and went shopping at the famous 'Dome' Central Market. Yes, it's a little untasteful to go shopping after witnessing all that, but it was part of the tour so just ikut... and errr... buy lotsa stuff??? :P

Inside the Dome Market... lotsa jewelries...

How it is outside...

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Okay, I'm done with day 4...Yeah! Thank you for taking you precious time in reading and viewing this entry. I hope the posts of day 4 has made a difference and gave you a clearer view on life and that we should always install love where ever we are and be grateful for each blessings and smiles.

God bless!

Hugs!