Beneath the Storm

My new favourite song...




Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I
Been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know everything is alright
Everything's alright

Beyond the Stormy Clouds

Lift Me Up by Kate Voegele





This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up, to pack up and leave town

Even so, I had to believe
Impossible means nothing to me, yeah

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Somewhere, every body starts there
I'm counting on a small prayer,
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here, and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears
Everything worth having, oh
Comes with trials worth withstanding

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up
Oh, Lift me up

Down and out is overrated
And I need to be elevated
Looking up is not enough
No, I would rather rise above
So can you lift me up

Turn the ashes into flames‘
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, oh, oh, just begun
Lift me up, yeah, oh, oh, oh, yeah, now
Oh, oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up

God Bless the Broken Road

Broken by Lifehouse.
Original Soundtrack of the motion picture movie "The Time Traveler's Wife".





The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are broken, I know a Healer who can take away your pain, mend your wounds, repair your brokenness, fill your emptiness and make you whole again. Let me know, I'll love to introduce Him to you. He is always available. :)

Are you broken today?

Within the Wind

Currently Listening to:

From The Inside Out

by

Hillsong.

The Potato realises that she has a tendency to be able to blog in the wee hours of the morning before a big event or trip (refer to previous posts for evidence). Don't ask me, I don't know why. It's 3AM in the morning and I am expected to 'rise and shine' in 3 hours time (6AM!) to get ready for Eaglepoint Damansara's first church camp in Genting View Resort (Praise the Lord for it!)! But here I am again unable to catch ZZZZ and resulting to put my midnight thoughts into virtual words

If you've noticed, the Potato has rarely blogged bout anything personal or private anymore. She used to go all emo on it (boy, when I read my previous blog, I can't help but blush!) and never fails to notify the entire cyber world (those who bother) of her petty little life musings and gaga-ness. But nope, not now anymore. At least not recently or lately. This must be the reason of her lack of updates. She has been so caught up with things; up and down, that she has gotten so weary and almost nonchalant to bother anymore. It's hard enough to sort and contain them properly inside her let alone being able to lay it out straight for the world to see. She guesses that when you grow up, when you encounter another phase or stage, things just change. You try to cope with the new stuff while balancing the old or finding wisdom to know if you should keep it. Is she just being complicated? Or just too plain to be comprehended

NOTE: If you find it hard to understand the language or phrasing of sentences, do excuse the Potato, she has not compose any writings lately and is somehow retardedly unsure of her English. Just fresh off 3 months after her last semester and her brain has already started to rust. How shameful of her. :P

I wish I could put the Potato to sleep.

She needs her sleep.

I need her to sleep.

But recently she's been going through this whole 'phase' whereby she only dozes of after tossing and turning in bed for hours, thinking of the most ridiculuous things and end up having nightmares of it

It's funny really, before this, she was hibernating like a log (after the recovery from the horrible illness couple of weeks ago) all the time and now she could barely remember how to sleep.

Waking up to lingering dreams (nightmares still?) of whatever the world holds for her then just ain't the cupcake starter of her day. No wonder she's a bit sotong lately. 'Otak takde centre'.

There are good days and there are days where they ain't.

But it's okay.

She's okay.

She will be okay.

She may be far from perfect. But she has a perfect God. :)

She just needs to stop dwelling in her weaknesses and start to rely on His stength instead.

I believe in You.

In Your promises in my life.

In Your love and goodness

Forgive me for ever doubting.

Dancing Sunshine :)

Currently Listening to:

Here I Am

by

Leona Lewis

OKAY....

I know it's been light years since I last blogged but hey sometimes life catches up with you and you just gotta deal with it. And I've dealt with it and hence the absence. :)

But also because some loving people who keeps pestering me to clear the cobwebs in my bloggie, tehee...

So where do I start?

What life has held me recently:

- Final of final exams
- Friends
- More friends
- Vacations
- Outings
- Meetings
- Sleepovers
- Makan to the MAX sessions
- Hang outs
- Movies
- Etc

Pretty busy somehow....tehee....

But most of all, God has been good in my life. :D

I have learned that by God being good in my life does not only meant that it is seen in His blessings, my happiness etc, but also in His grace, mercy, joy, perseverance and peace during hard times. The list above may seem nice (and yes, most of them are) but through them, heartbreaks, tears, suffering and pain drove by. I have to admit, I went through the toughest time in my life this very month. But it is through this time where I experience God the most in my life. I learn to surrender and to abide in Him and He delivered me, sustained me, helped me and comforted me. I knew it was Him for I know I wouldn't have made it without Him. I would have broken to pieces but here I am because He is so real in my life. He showered me with grace, peace, joy and rest despite my thundering storm and I know that my God is real and so awesome!

I've learned 2 very important things through this hard month, which was to:

TRUST AND OBEY

To Obey in His will and know that following Him is the right and best thing to do. Even when you don't feel like it, even when it breaks your heart, even when it is against all odds for when you choose to obey, God sees your heart and honours you back (ten fold). All you have to do is obey and His will will be done in your life (And His will/plan is ultimately the BEST). :)

"His will is not for your consideration but your obedience."

(Pastor Shawn Kong)

To Trust that He has the best interest (that is yet to come) for me, that He'll take care of everything, that He is sovereign and I shall not be left lacking. To trust that He will carry my burdens, my worries, my brokenness, and my past. That He will sustain me, provide, bless and love even when I am not at my best. To trust that as long as I obey, depend and faith in Him, it's all gonna be okay and even great too (trials may befall but the joy of the Lord will sustain me). :)

Though hardships are still not over and are bound to get worse, I want to learn to trust and obey in Him. Even when I can't feel Him, even when I can't see the hope and even when I feel like falling. Because ultimately I know that He is in control and that I can still smile and be joyful in Him. :)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
(James 1:2-4)

I thank Him for His grace and mercy. I know He is prunning me now so that I can bloom.
And I will bloom for Him and His glory. :)

I shall update more soon.... hopefully. Tehee...

Have a blessed week and may the Lord shine upon you. :)

At the End of My Rainbow

Currently Listening to:

Double Concerto

by

Johann Sebastian Bach

Performed

by

Itzhak Perlman and Isaac Stern.

The Potato is going to fall in a love in a fun fair/carnival and you're invited.

So please be there....

We'll meet on the carousel and kiss on the ferris wheel. :)

The Light in my darkness

Currently Listening:

White Horse

by

Taylor Swift

I am so scared.

So so scared.

I feel like my lungs are tightening and choking my heart.

I can't breathe.

I want to scream.

I want to cry....

But I can't do anything.

I feel tired.

I feel sick.

I feel lost.

I feel so numb.

****

I need you Lord....

I know I am unworthy

But please take me in, do not abandon me.

Forgive me and give me peace for Your will.

Lead me to Your ways and strengthen my heart and faith in You.

Spinning Glances

Having a terrible headache or migrain for the past couple of days. And my eyes are literally aching. It's as if I took them off and rub them on sand paper. Ish, lol.

I think it must be the weird sleeping patterns? stress or tension on studies? Not taking care of my eyes enough (beginning to put medication consistently) or the terrible heat of the weather.

Either way, I am too stubborn to rest (can't get enough of Princess Coconut - my laptop) and I've taken back again the fondness of reading for hours long. No wonder my eyes are popping out!

Either way, I need to learn to rest (wait, ain't that my speciality? lol) and be more mindful of my priorities. Mata kena jaga - important and the same goes to my head!

Which means I should stop blogging soon and SLEEP....hehehehe.

I wanna wish you all darlings a lovely, loving and blessed week ahead. May peace and love be with you always and God bless! :D

p/s: thank you to my dearest Ying Hui. :)

I appreciate and cherish you lots. your wise and humble spirit never fails to encourage and lift me up. thank you for always seeing me when i'm invisible. you are so awesome in Him. love you lots and God bless. :D

A Blink of Miracles....

Currently Listening to:

The piano playing (in the beginning - opening credits) from the movie The Notebook

The Potato has just finished watching The Notebook and is crying her eyes out and flooding her cheeks with salty tears. They are swollen, puffy and bloody red now. She has not cried like this for quite sometime (bawling her eyes out for joy and sadness) and I guess she has to give the movie credit for really touching her inside out.

It was so beautiful....

It made her realised what she really wanted in life....

And it dawned her that it might not be as she might have it to be..... at least for now...?

The Blood of the Lamb in My Life...

Firstly before I say anything else, I wanna say all praise be to Him! For His love, grace, mercy and glory! It is undisputable! He is so awesome and I am truly honoured to serve an amazing God! :D

Thank you Lord for dying on the cross for our sins. Thank you for loving us so much. May I live a life honourable to you and continue to shine for you according to Your word. :)

Okay, next line of words is....

Sorry I have not been updating for the past couple of weeks! LOL!

It's been a really busy and hectic 2 weeks for me with 3 major assignments due one after another long with practises and preparation for Easter. But all is worth it! God is good!

About Easter, it was awesome~! Again, credit goes to Him first! Easter Vibe was great, Sunday Easter service was amazing and the skit performed not only touched hearts but mine too (was acting in it)... It is indeed wonderful to minister to others and be ministered as well. :D

For more details, pictures and fun, do check out here bout Easter Vibe Celebration. And lotsa love and well wishes to the lovely people who make it happen!!! You guys are awesome!

As for now...

I am so relieved now after submitting my last assignment (for now) and guess what? It's officially Easter break (one week) now!!! Wohooo...!!!

I am planning to spend it with myself, pretty much. Yes I know it's kinda anti-social and selfish, but I've been so busy lately that I'm kinda tired physically (lotsa aches too) that I just wanna see myself through these holidays by resting, sleeping, doing my own things and catching up with myself (lol).

Not to mention I wanna devote this time with Him too.... :)

I need my quiet time. To speak and to be spoken to.

I've currently taken a new habit of wanting to healthy (dont' know konon or not for now)...

Wakaka, I know... me healthy??? Unbelievable right?

Here's the thing, I've been noticing that I've been consuming a lot of oily and fried food lately and pimple are just screaming out (stress added to that too) along with a thicker waistline (gasp). And after doing my Conflict Management assignment on issues management where my research topic was about managing obesity in Malaysia, many things start to sink in. Believe me, when you go through so much reading on obesity and knowing the heavy facts... things change a little. For example, with my current eating habits and favourite choice of food consumption, I am on a high percentage of 50% or more to be obsese later....OH NO!!! And also... on the highway to an early funeral! *gasp*

So I've taken a some condsideration into moderating my eating habits and start exercising (don't pop your eyes people! lol). Of course I'm not going to be anti-fast food (after all, McD and I have a contract, lol) or be a vegetarian. I am still going to eat the things I like (maybe NOT so much....konon) but balance it up with lotsa veggies and fruits (I know.. unbelievable right?)...

And of course exercise.. which I have still yet to do... hmmm....

Anyways, I'll try to update my bloggie more, hehe. And do keep coming. If anyone of you are free or in need of company to eat Ikea Swedish meatballs with, I'm here. Tehee.. :)

Have a blessed week people and may God's love shine on you! HUGS! :D

p/s: oh, and here is a big cheers to all my friends especially the angels of my life who have encouraged, supported and loved me for who I am. I am so blessed to have you girl! *hugs*

In the absence of the moon....

Currently Listening to:

Winner Takes It All

by

Il Divo

I feel like a ROTTEN POTATO....

Because

The POTATO feels ROTTEN....

Forgive me.

Please forgive me....

A Light of Love

Note to the public:

the Potato's phone is officially dead after taking a turn in the washing machine

(never put the handphone in the pocket, use the hand bag!!!)

but blessedly,

the SIM card survived.

Currently using my mum's phone now.

However,

my SIM card is empty, so I don't have any contacts or info.

Hence when you sms me, please identify yourself.

Thank you.

And sorry if I did not reply, I'm out of credit too.

****

Wishing a blessed birthday to Lim Shen Ling and Nicholas Eu. :)

God bless and lotsa love! :D

Oh, and the same goes to me, tehee...

Thank you to all the sweet and loving people who remembered and wished me. Your messages, calls and smses are deeply appreciated.

And those with the pressies, thank you so much too, I love them lots, ! :D

****

Blessedly, God provides and all is in His timing and plan.

For....

My birthday ang paus are just in the nick of time to get myself a new handphone.

Though I'm rather 'kiam-siap'.... but still, it made me learn to let go and know that it's nothing to hold on too long. Worldly and monetry things come and go, so no sweat~! :)

(Thanks to Him and to my beloved family for the support)

All is good. :D

I dedicate this birthday and year to the Lord... :)

And so the wise said....

Do not curse or swear.... :)

You are what you speak

(*Click above*)

Inside a Heart that Blooms

Currently Listening to:

Vide Cor Meum

by

Patrick Cassidy

from

Dante's La Vita Nuova's 3rd chapter's sonnet on A ciascun'alma presa .

Performed by

Danielle de Niese and Bruno Lazzaretti

(OST: Hannibal)

E pensando di lei

Mi sopragiunse uno soave sonno

Ego dominus tuus

Vide cor tuum

E d'esto core ardendo

Cor tuum

Lei paventosa

Umilmente pascea.

Appresso gir lo ne vedea piangendo.

La letizia si convertia

In amarissimo pianto

Io sono in pace

Cor meum

Io sono in pace

Vide cor meum

*******

And thinking of him,

A sweet sleep overcame me...

I am your master

See your heart

And of this burning heart?

Your... heart... your heart

Obediently eats

Weeping, I saw him then depart from me

Happiest joy turns to bitterest tears

I am in peace

My heart?

I am in peace

See... my... heart...

~Dante's "La Vita Nuova", specifically on the sonnet "A ciascun'alma presa", in chapter 3 of the Vita Nuova.~

The Rainbow has nothing to hide....

Currently Listening to

Love Story

by

Taylor Swift

Life is a constant filling of sunshine and rain. :)

I like the sunshine but I also love the rain....

It's been a busy week, a busy month and a busy year (so far).

And I am happy that throughout every tear and joy, He was with me.

And always will be.

God is good and He is good all the time. :D

The pink potato smiles at you and prays for many days of rainbows ahead of you. :)

When Doves Cry....

Currently Listening to:

Kissing You

by

Des'ree

Love theme of Romeo and Juliet (1996).

My current favourite song - jiwangness to the max! :P

Available on my blog's music playlist (first song).

I watched Romeo and Juliet (1996) today (for the gazilion-th time).

And for a moment, I felt 'magic' stirring in my heart again (after so long).

And before I knew it, she started tingling inside of me, beaconing me....

As if she had something to tell me.

That's when the wheel of dreams started churning within me.

And I began to remember what it felt like to want again....

Never An Absolution....

Currently Listening to:

And I Kiss Him

from

Pearl Harbour

(OST)

Suddenly, her heart felt so lost....

As if the winds of change have begun to churn, stripping all that was there....

Beautiful Soul

Currently Listening to:

Here In My Life

by

Hillsong United

"I miss my daddy...."

O the Jiwang-ness of Me!

Currently Listening to:

I Want To Spend My Life Time Loving You

by

Marc Anthony and Tina Arena

(OST: Zorro)

Idiot! Idiot! Idiot! (period!)

Dah la macam ni, nak jiwang lagi!?

(Freaking PMS!)

Silence is golden....

Currently Listening to:

Prayer

by

Haley Westenra

"................."