At the end of my rainbow....

Currently Listening:

Through the Rain

by

Mariah Carey

Today, someone told me that I was positive!

I know that some of my previous post might contest that (emo times - pms la), but if you know me, I am naturaly a cherry bubble who likes to smile and talk rainbows all the time.

But sometimes I tend to 'forget' that... (especially when I'm emotional or stressed - busy week la)

But when someone commented about a moment of my so-called character today, I was reminded of who I truly was. Someone I've forgotten lately and it hit me that I was once the girl who still smiled when her tears knew no end.

So I'm gonna hold my head up high and brace through whatever it may come with a smile and a cherry thought. :)

"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."

~ Herm Albright~

Have a blessed and wonderful day people! :D

Blooming Jasmines

Currently Listening to:

Reach

by

Caleigh Peters

(OST: Ice Princess)

Sometimes when life jumbles you up and you're not sure how to pick your feet or see the street....

....just WALK.

Walk with FAITH.

Cause no one leads better than Him.

Dust and Me

Currently Listening to:

How Can You Mend A Broken Heart

by

Micheal Buble

Have you ever felt like days are just crumbling altogether on you and you're just so heavy and layden with mental anguish that breathing has just become a constant struggle? Where emotions can't be delivered coherently and you wonder if your own sanity is stalking you?

Well, sometimes I feel like that....

Non-existant matters start to jab me from every angle and I just can't seem to tell what's going on with myself. I'm not sure of my own character and nonchalant feelings are only an illusion to what my reluctant inner self tries to conceal. But what does it really harbour???

Let me tell you this, I don't really know myself nor do I really want to know.

I'm afraid to open a door and find that petty dust are all that adorns the wailing walls of it. Dust of memories, crumbling dust of thoughts, fine dust of hearty feelings and whimpering dust tears.

And I'm allergic to dust BIG TIME!

Do you know what I need? I need some quiet time - alone? I need to feel the wind on my face, the cool breeze to calm my soul and wintry scent to hide my aches. I need to cuddle with my bolsters and pretend that they were hugging me back. I need.... a hug.... :(

A big and long teddy-wuddy-grizzly-warm huggily cuddle. Preferbly from some bigger size (i need some security)-warm-comfortable-loving-caring human being.

*Self Aawwww....*

Where's my imaginary Mr.Tookie-tookie when I need him?

SMILE PEOPLE! JUST SMILE!

SMILE!!!!

Cause I need it.

Bittersweet Symphony

Currently Listening to:

I Still...

by

Backstreet Boys.

It's okay... It will be okay.

I promise...?

Everlasting Journey

"Let's take this step, walk and road of faith together...."

Take me, mold me and use me Lord.

NOW~! :D

Living Waters

Through His grace

My Lord has not forsaken me.

It is by His grace that through my weaknesses, His power can be seen.

Emotions may crumble, feelings may rumble but I am not alone.

He was there.

He is here.

He will always be here and there.

Handling my feelings

Before she fades....

You'll never find anyone as good for you as I am, to believe in you as much as I do or love you as much!

~ Katie Morosky; The Way We Were (1973)

The Heart of a Rose

Blessed Valentines Day

to

family and friends. :)

I heart you lots!

Into the blue....

Stop with the MENTAL WHIPLASH!!!

I'm cracking here!!!

Truth of the Bold

Something in me SNAPPED OUT....

I couldn't identify it at first, for it felt common but yet so foreign at an unexpected time. Am I making sense? I know I didn't then, but when it dawned me, I realised I was being something I didn't know I could be let alone something I didn't want to be.

Surprise strangled me and I was my worse nightmare.

A nightmare I didn't know existed - and it was happening to me!

And I had to KILL it 'again'....

HELP!

And I`m sorry you had to witness it. And I am even more sorry that you couldn't accept it. It's not about you and it's not your fault. It's not you. It's me.

Blue Bells in the Spring

The Potato is back, alive and certainly NOT blind yet ....

It has been more than a week since my last post and I know I said that I would take 2 weeks of absence for my recovery (sight) but since I am no longer 'blind' from the after-effect-cutting-onion-teary-sensation-situation-post-surgery, I can see better now (though the focus is not good and a bit blur) and is able to blog. Let's just say what I'm 'seeing' is as if I am having the vision of a crying person (clear but blur - tak balance). Let's pray and hope by the end of the 2nd week, the sight will be clear and full. :D

Lotsa to blog about... feelings, experiences, long check-ups, before surgery, during surgery, post surgery, 'healing' at home, ETC.... but now I malas nak blog and I can't be online for long (have to rehat mata) so next time baru I yakk about it la. :P

Thank you to all the precious people who have called, visited and cared for me in the past week. I am so very blessed by your care and presence in my life. God is indeed good and friends are just angels in disguise. I heart you people lotsa and HUGS! :D