God Bless the Broken Road

Broken by Lifehouse.
Original Soundtrack of the motion picture movie "The Time Traveler's Wife".





The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are broken, I know a Healer who can take away your pain, mend your wounds, repair your brokenness, fill your emptiness and make you whole again. Let me know, I'll love to introduce Him to you. He is always available. :)

Are you broken today?

Bittersweet Symphony

Currently Listening to:

I Still...

by

Backstreet Boys.

It's okay... It will be okay.

I promise...?

Whatever!

How rotten can you get???!

Life's a ball of butter!

Have you ever experienced those days where you have a zillion feelings, emotions, words and desires caught up inside of you but can't do anything to express it? Where it all just clusters and jumbles in and out of your head and storms the pit of your stomach like a hurricane in a balister? And all you can do is stay numbly stagnant where ever you are and fight the battle silently inside?

Have you?

I bet you have... in a manner of speaking.

We all have.

Sometimes, we pretend it's all okay and try to fix it and sometimes we RIP it all out to the world.

But sometimes, we just stay there and let it make the worse out of us. And we become something else.

Something entirely different....

Miao me up and Purr me away!

I GOT BULLIED BY A FREAKING-FAT-YET-CUTE-AND-HIGHLY-ADORABLE-PLUS-REGAL-BUSHY-TAILED-PERSIAN-CAT TODAY!!!

I find it to be very interesting but at the same time embarassing and stupid!

The story begins in this evening when I was trying to put my hunny bunnies back into their cages. On alternate days, I would release them unto the porch to exercise and to play around (cant confine them all the time) and by night, I would place them back. When I was getting ready and opening the cages, I noticed a certain dark and interesting shadow on my left (I didnt on the porch light then, I was pretty dark). I looked closer and lo, behold: It was a big dark brown and very fat persian cat laying on the porch's corner with it's yellow collar bell twinkling, eyeing on my babies. Oh yes.... You can practically smell the grim-ness in the dark night.

I grin-ed! The thing is, I love cats, especially big fat ones who happen to be really bushy and being a persian in a double plus! If you guys have not read an old post, I once said I stalked a domestic cat in my neighbouhood and that particular kitty happends to be sitting on me porch this very night.... "bonding" with my babies!

I hope it was not having any ill feelings towards my bunnies, but then again, if it did, it would have attacked long ago. So anyway, it was just starring at them and I too did the same except I was starring at it. My fingers got itchy and I wanted to pet it so badly. I love cats but my mum never did, so hence I never got much exposure to it in my life. I tried approaching it, but it moved a few inches away, indicating I was not a comfort party.

NVM!

I then quietly sat there... the the middle of the porch (the light was on then..) at night and tried to blend in.... I started to talk to my bunnies and petted them all the time while they were running around me. Hoping that I "got into the picture", I started scooting closer to the kitty and behold.... I PETTED IT!!!

And for a moment there I thought I was doing a pretty good job... It was responding and cats after all do love much affection and attention. So as I was happily petting it and thinking "hey, this is good.... my bunnies are such a good liaison...teheee.....", The kitty suddenly turn its head and.......

BIT MY HAND!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ouch!!!

The up-side of it was it didn't hurt much but it left a red long scar on my wrist!

-_-"

I was a little pissed off and wanted to hector the bl**dy cat!

Internal thought then: ?*&^%$#@!?*&^%$#@!

Internal thought then 2: You come to my house un-invited, got rude and bit me when I tried to be nice to you???!!!!

Internal thought then 3: If you didn't like it then just walk away!

And then... after bitting me... the kitty made no intention of moving... it expected me to scoot off.....

I was like: "What the....!!!"

Act bossy some more....!!

But then again cats are arrogant, it's what gives them "grace" and pride.

But screw it for a moment... I was ricked off....it BIT ME! And I think I didn't do anything wrong and as a matter of fact, I treated it nice, I adored it!

Anyway... here comes the stupid part of me. Instead of shoo-ing it away or be mean, I succumbed to its "royal-ness" and blah away to my bunnies. My mum said I should just halau it and worse, use the broom.... cause it was not my fault and I have a right to do so... it masuk rumah orang some gigit orang wo....

Anyway, I took my bunnies back into their cages and guess what.... ??

Mr.Cool the Fatty Pump (my nickname to him) started to walk and take a "stroll" on my porch like he owned it! Most cats would usually run or scoot when people come to view (in my neighbourhood that is) but it totally ignored me! Okay, I admit... I LOST the battle in the beginning... I should have shoo-ed it when it bit me but I retreated. I guess I was too engrossed in having to come into contact or proximity with such a lovely cat (my dream cat!) that all I did then was just admire it despite my anger and pain. Bodoh I know (it was just very cute la).

So then after stroutching it's way around my porch, it settle underneath the porch's wooden stool, once again staring at my bunnies (in the cage). I gave it a minute or two before sprinkling drops of water on it which totally set it out in a bounce and leaped away.

And then I told me mum the whole story in which she concluded that I was "BODOH" for letting it "climb all over me". She said she would have halau-ed it with the broom...

Yup, I felt a little dumb la..... Should have bagi it some colour...ahem... if you know what I mean.

But anyway, it was a "fun" experience... Adoring beautiful cats certainly have beautiful prices to pay ey... Hahaha....

What a night....

Despite tonight, I still love cats, let's hope I don't get bitten again... :(

I serve an AWESOME GOD!!!!

Currently Listening to: Awesome God by Hillsong

I serve an awesome God!
He is ever amazing and faithful.

Love Him lots!

I was in rage and my heart could only dwell in it to satisfy my worldly nerves. It was torturing and tiring. I was stuffed with so much anger and almost hate inside of me. Nothing seemed sweet then and nothing was right in my mind. But God was and is always gracious. He took me into His love and grace, granted me peace of mind and subdued my flame. By embracing Him instead of my wordly feelings, I attained a peace of mind and a more joyful heart. I find it ever so amazing on how God works in our lives. He manages to form little miracles and change us in many fascinating ways. I am so glad, so happy and so grateful that I didn't follow on with my selfish and angry feelings (which would still made me sucky now if I did) but turned to Him then. Sure the temptation to stay angry to satisfy myself was very "sweet" and alluring but I knew my Lord had a better plan to install in me. A better heart, a better feeling and a better life free from anger and hate. God is so amazing. He can work wonders and so much more in your life only if you let Him. I did it tonight, I managed to let my worldly feelings go and turn to Him, to trust Him, to obey Him and to follow Him. And I am completely happy that I did so! The peace and joy I'm experiencing now is just beautiful! I wish you could feel it too....

"So trust in Him, depend in Him and obey His ways... For He'll lay your path straight!"

All praise and glory goes to the Lord God Almighty!

~Jesus rules, reigns and rocks!~

Over the Rainbow and into Your arms

Calm my heart O Lord,
Let it be filled with love, patience and understanding.

Let not my heart be clouded with anger and judgement,
But overflowing with joy and grace.

Teach me Lord to control my temper,
And to watch my words and actions.

Grant me a clear conscience,
And a stready mindset to act according to Your ways.

Help me to set a good example to those around me,
And to be a useful vessel unto Thy glorious name.

Show me Thy ways,
So that I may follow them.

Guard my heart Lord,
And let it be strengthened with obedience.

~ Amen~

Dancing Flames In My Heart!

It says:

Cruelty is the absence of kindness.

They say:

Being kind can be a form of cruelty.

Some say:

You have to be cruel to be kind.

Others say:

Cruelty and kindness come hand in hand.

I say:

Cruelty and kindness are pretty much the same!

Don't Rain On My Parade!

I am freaking fustrated, dissapointed, sad and cranky!!

Shaun Boey, I am so so SORRY!!!! Same goes to Meng and Nick!

Really thought I could make it but I guess it was God's will that I didn't.

Still.... it's killing me inside! I REALLY wanna go!

*Sniff* This is gonna haunt me for a long time...

I haven't been this "argh" in a long time. Why o why??? Bohohohoo...!!!

Bite Me!

In the Depth Within Lurks the Fire of Grim

I am so freaking pissed off!

I hate it, I hate being mad or angry. It drains me of my strength and puts me in a negative mood which just destroys my day.


Which is why I always try to find a way to be happy or just let go of grudges be it little or big. I don't mind giving in or taking the most blame or even keeping quiet like a rabbit ready for slaughter even when the sentence isnt meant for me!


Because I don't like conflict and anger! I love peace! I like it when everyone is happy!


But why is it people around me, the enviroment around me and the ones I care the most always happen to be the biggest jerks and bee-otches??!!


And no matter how much I try to stay on the bright side and endure it in the name of love and sacrifice, they always end up being "*ssholes?"


Yes, its harsh. But hey, even the sky has its limit!!!


I am so freaking pissed that it saddens me to feel so. Especially in this situation, for a moment there I thought my heart broke! Wait, can it actually break? More like cracked!!

"I hope you die!"

-Jose Jalapeno-

(No, I dont mean it but I just had to say it out!)