Beneath the Storm

My new favourite song...




Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I
Been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know everything is alright
Everything's alright

God Bless the Broken Road

Broken by Lifehouse.
Original Soundtrack of the motion picture movie "The Time Traveler's Wife".





The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are broken, I know a Healer who can take away your pain, mend your wounds, repair your brokenness, fill your emptiness and make you whole again. Let me know, I'll love to introduce Him to you. He is always available. :)

Are you broken today?

Within the Wind

Currently Listening to:

From The Inside Out

by

Hillsong.

The Potato realises that she has a tendency to be able to blog in the wee hours of the morning before a big event or trip (refer to previous posts for evidence). Don't ask me, I don't know why. It's 3AM in the morning and I am expected to 'rise and shine' in 3 hours time (6AM!) to get ready for Eaglepoint Damansara's first church camp in Genting View Resort (Praise the Lord for it!)! But here I am again unable to catch ZZZZ and resulting to put my midnight thoughts into virtual words

If you've noticed, the Potato has rarely blogged bout anything personal or private anymore. She used to go all emo on it (boy, when I read my previous blog, I can't help but blush!) and never fails to notify the entire cyber world (those who bother) of her petty little life musings and gaga-ness. But nope, not now anymore. At least not recently or lately. This must be the reason of her lack of updates. She has been so caught up with things; up and down, that she has gotten so weary and almost nonchalant to bother anymore. It's hard enough to sort and contain them properly inside her let alone being able to lay it out straight for the world to see. She guesses that when you grow up, when you encounter another phase or stage, things just change. You try to cope with the new stuff while balancing the old or finding wisdom to know if you should keep it. Is she just being complicated? Or just too plain to be comprehended

NOTE: If you find it hard to understand the language or phrasing of sentences, do excuse the Potato, she has not compose any writings lately and is somehow retardedly unsure of her English. Just fresh off 3 months after her last semester and her brain has already started to rust. How shameful of her. :P

I wish I could put the Potato to sleep.

She needs her sleep.

I need her to sleep.

But recently she's been going through this whole 'phase' whereby she only dozes of after tossing and turning in bed for hours, thinking of the most ridiculuous things and end up having nightmares of it

It's funny really, before this, she was hibernating like a log (after the recovery from the horrible illness couple of weeks ago) all the time and now she could barely remember how to sleep.

Waking up to lingering dreams (nightmares still?) of whatever the world holds for her then just ain't the cupcake starter of her day. No wonder she's a bit sotong lately. 'Otak takde centre'.

There are good days and there are days where they ain't.

But it's okay.

She's okay.

She will be okay.

She may be far from perfect. But she has a perfect God. :)

She just needs to stop dwelling in her weaknesses and start to rely on His stength instead.

I believe in You.

In Your promises in my life.

In Your love and goodness

Forgive me for ever doubting.

Beneath My Sky

Currently Listening to:

Footprints in the Sand

by

Leona Lewis

(my current favourite song)

As most of you have know, the Potato is back in KL. Her trip to Indonesia was okay. Aside from the biggest shopping spree of her life, the Potato came back bearing sickness (not H1NI) but safely made it past the airport's quarantine. :)

It was a 7 day trip from Jakarta ->Bandung -> Yogjakarta and shopping was everywhere!

Of course the main purpose of the Potato's presence in Indo was Borobodur!! Visited lotsa ancient temple in Yogjakarta, saw a volcano, jalan2 like mad etc. The Potato is satistified, tired and thankful! I'm so blessed, thank the Lord! :)

She doesn't plan to blog much about it (wanna know more, ask me yourself) so here's a few pics and a list of her shopping inventory (yes, show off la... :P) - Note: the things were very CHEAP there.... hence:

34 TOPS:

- 17 T-shirts (purely mine and not including those I bought for my friends and family)

- 6 dresses

- 4 camisoles

- 4 blouses

- 2 batik top

- 1 poncho

6 Bottoms:

- 2 exercise pants

- 2 skirts (one formal and one jeans)

- 2 jean shorts

Accessories:

- 3 feet wear (2 pairs of slippers and a pair of sandals)

- 2 belts

- 1 hat

- 7 badges

- a whole lot of key chains


The Potato wants to thank the Lord for providing and blessing her with such loving, generous and great parents who made this possible (my dad is complaining that I have too many baju :P). Thanks mum and dad, you are the best! Thank the Lord for his blessings, favor, protection and neverending love in my life. There were ups and downs during the trip in Indo, but the Lord has been good and I proclaim His awesomeness in my life. :D

The ancient temple of Prambanan

I have the Borobudur in the palm of my hand!!

Love my parents!

Got sick halfway in Indo. Had to cover up in the streets of Bandung during shopping as it was very dusty.

Jakarta! The big city!


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Praise the Lord for His grace, mercy, love, faithfulness, blessings, protection, favor and providence. He is awesome and good.

Have a blessed week jolly people.

Hugs. :)

Dancing Sunshine :)

Currently Listening to:

Here I Am

by

Leona Lewis

OKAY....

I know it's been light years since I last blogged but hey sometimes life catches up with you and you just gotta deal with it. And I've dealt with it and hence the absence. :)

But also because some loving people who keeps pestering me to clear the cobwebs in my bloggie, tehee...

So where do I start?

What life has held me recently:

- Final of final exams
- Friends
- More friends
- Vacations
- Outings
- Meetings
- Sleepovers
- Makan to the MAX sessions
- Hang outs
- Movies
- Etc

Pretty busy somehow....tehee....

But most of all, God has been good in my life. :D

I have learned that by God being good in my life does not only meant that it is seen in His blessings, my happiness etc, but also in His grace, mercy, joy, perseverance and peace during hard times. The list above may seem nice (and yes, most of them are) but through them, heartbreaks, tears, suffering and pain drove by. I have to admit, I went through the toughest time in my life this very month. But it is through this time where I experience God the most in my life. I learn to surrender and to abide in Him and He delivered me, sustained me, helped me and comforted me. I knew it was Him for I know I wouldn't have made it without Him. I would have broken to pieces but here I am because He is so real in my life. He showered me with grace, peace, joy and rest despite my thundering storm and I know that my God is real and so awesome!

I've learned 2 very important things through this hard month, which was to:

TRUST AND OBEY

To Obey in His will and know that following Him is the right and best thing to do. Even when you don't feel like it, even when it breaks your heart, even when it is against all odds for when you choose to obey, God sees your heart and honours you back (ten fold). All you have to do is obey and His will will be done in your life (And His will/plan is ultimately the BEST). :)

"His will is not for your consideration but your obedience."

(Pastor Shawn Kong)

To Trust that He has the best interest (that is yet to come) for me, that He'll take care of everything, that He is sovereign and I shall not be left lacking. To trust that He will carry my burdens, my worries, my brokenness, and my past. That He will sustain me, provide, bless and love even when I am not at my best. To trust that as long as I obey, depend and faith in Him, it's all gonna be okay and even great too (trials may befall but the joy of the Lord will sustain me). :)

Though hardships are still not over and are bound to get worse, I want to learn to trust and obey in Him. Even when I can't feel Him, even when I can't see the hope and even when I feel like falling. Because ultimately I know that He is in control and that I can still smile and be joyful in Him. :)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
(James 1:2-4)

I thank Him for His grace and mercy. I know He is prunning me now so that I can bloom.
And I will bloom for Him and His glory. :)

I shall update more soon.... hopefully. Tehee...

Have a blessed week and may the Lord shine upon you. :)

The Blood of the Lamb in My Life...

Firstly before I say anything else, I wanna say all praise be to Him! For His love, grace, mercy and glory! It is undisputable! He is so awesome and I am truly honoured to serve an amazing God! :D

Thank you Lord for dying on the cross for our sins. Thank you for loving us so much. May I live a life honourable to you and continue to shine for you according to Your word. :)

Okay, next line of words is....

Sorry I have not been updating for the past couple of weeks! LOL!

It's been a really busy and hectic 2 weeks for me with 3 major assignments due one after another long with practises and preparation for Easter. But all is worth it! God is good!

About Easter, it was awesome~! Again, credit goes to Him first! Easter Vibe was great, Sunday Easter service was amazing and the skit performed not only touched hearts but mine too (was acting in it)... It is indeed wonderful to minister to others and be ministered as well. :D

For more details, pictures and fun, do check out here bout Easter Vibe Celebration. And lotsa love and well wishes to the lovely people who make it happen!!! You guys are awesome!

As for now...

I am so relieved now after submitting my last assignment (for now) and guess what? It's officially Easter break (one week) now!!! Wohooo...!!!

I am planning to spend it with myself, pretty much. Yes I know it's kinda anti-social and selfish, but I've been so busy lately that I'm kinda tired physically (lotsa aches too) that I just wanna see myself through these holidays by resting, sleeping, doing my own things and catching up with myself (lol).

Not to mention I wanna devote this time with Him too.... :)

I need my quiet time. To speak and to be spoken to.

I've currently taken a new habit of wanting to healthy (dont' know konon or not for now)...

Wakaka, I know... me healthy??? Unbelievable right?

Here's the thing, I've been noticing that I've been consuming a lot of oily and fried food lately and pimple are just screaming out (stress added to that too) along with a thicker waistline (gasp). And after doing my Conflict Management assignment on issues management where my research topic was about managing obesity in Malaysia, many things start to sink in. Believe me, when you go through so much reading on obesity and knowing the heavy facts... things change a little. For example, with my current eating habits and favourite choice of food consumption, I am on a high percentage of 50% or more to be obsese later....OH NO!!! And also... on the highway to an early funeral! *gasp*

So I've taken a some condsideration into moderating my eating habits and start exercising (don't pop your eyes people! lol). Of course I'm not going to be anti-fast food (after all, McD and I have a contract, lol) or be a vegetarian. I am still going to eat the things I like (maybe NOT so much....konon) but balance it up with lotsa veggies and fruits (I know.. unbelievable right?)...

And of course exercise.. which I have still yet to do... hmmm....

Anyways, I'll try to update my bloggie more, hehe. And do keep coming. If anyone of you are free or in need of company to eat Ikea Swedish meatballs with, I'm here. Tehee.. :)

Have a blessed week people and may God's love shine on you! HUGS! :D

p/s: oh, and here is a big cheers to all my friends especially the angels of my life who have encouraged, supported and loved me for who I am. I am so blessed to have you girl! *hugs*

The Rainbow has nothing to hide....

Currently Listening to

Love Story

by

Taylor Swift

Life is a constant filling of sunshine and rain. :)

I like the sunshine but I also love the rain....

It's been a busy week, a busy month and a busy year (so far).

And I am happy that throughout every tear and joy, He was with me.

And always will be.

God is good and He is good all the time. :D

The pink potato smiles at you and prays for many days of rainbows ahead of you. :)

Believing is Seeing

Currently Listening to:

With All I Am (Jesus I Believe)

by

Hillsong

Strengthen my faith in You my Lord and let me be a testimony for Your glory. Forgive me for my transgressions (thoughts and actions) and deliver me from temptation. Hold me steadfast in You and equip me with ur armour of words. Let not my pride covet my eyes but fill me with wisdom to see Thy will. Come and changed me so that I may be pleasing to you. Use me dear Father and may my lips speak words of praise to you till the end of my days. Cast my fears aside and strengthen my foundation in You. Give me the burden in my heart to love and to seek Thy word and will. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Break my heart Lord so that I may surrender to You not myself. Amen.

I believe that my God is a good God. An awesome God. A loving God. A forgiving God. A great God and an amazing One.

I shall wait on Him for I know He is always there. Always there in my toughest storm. Always there in the silence of the darkness. Always there in every one of my tears. Always there in the sweetest of my joys... He's there.

I BELIEVE IN JESUS! I DO! I DO!!!!

and may my actions, purpose and life scream it way louder than my spoken words.

"You Were There...."

Currently Listening to:

Rule the World

by

Take That

(OST: Stardust)

Glory to the Lord God Almighty for everything! Every tear, joy, laugh, smile, trial, hardship, stress, happiness and ounce of life! Indeed He is good. :)

This November has been a hard one for me (yet durable and a blessing in many ways):

- My uni assignments, group project, presentation and final exams really took a toll on me. My stress level have never ascended so much in my life and I learned that life had so much more for me.

-My health went down and up repeatedly throughout the month. Was sick on and off (and this week was ON!) and certaily did not help me in my stress and work. :P

- To put matters worse, my granny got admitted to the hospital! Was there everyday for a week on long hours...

BUT... through it all:

- I've learned that God has blessed me so much with ever encouraging, supporting and caring angels by my side *winks* They really made my month! Love ya people and thank you so much! :D

- Got to hang out more with my family more especially grandma and grandpa...and Jenny-kins too! :)

- God is ever amazing! Faifthful is He!

News! News! News! (Before and more....)

- My granny has finally been discharged!!! Praise the Lord!!!! Thank you to those who have prayed for her. :D

- Daddy is coming home tonight from US after 3 months! I miss him lots! KLIA here I come! :D

God is good all the time!

"Taste and see that the Lord is good!"

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I have something to announce....hehe.

I have decided to marry

Edward Cullen!!!

The Smell of Sunshine

Currently Listening to:

When The Stars Go Blue

by

Venke Knutson and Kurt Knilsen

I praise God for He is ever GOOD and FAITHFUL!!! He has blessed me with joy, peace, wonder, love, friends, family, amazing people and so much more. Though my week was terrible and ever tiring, He was there for me all the way; never leaving me, sustaining me and I would not have made it through as well as I am now without Him. Praise be to God Almighty!!! All glory to Him! :D

Thank you to sweet people (friends) in my life for encouraging and blessing me through my trying days. I heart you guys. :D

Real Flowers, yes we are~!

Currently Listening to:

I Love To Sing About My God

by

Brendon and Cathy Clancy

Broga Leadership Camp was awesome~! Had so much fun, enrichment and joy. God was and is (and will always be) gracious and faithful. The participants were cooperative, facilitators were helpful/supportive, activities were exciting and live was good. It was very tiring (came back with lotsa muscle aches, hehe) but fruitful none the less. I wanna give Him all the praise and glory, Amen!

Pictures will come later (if im not too lazy to post it, hehe - either way, it'll be in facebook) after I get them from Carissa dear (our beloved chair facilitar). Thanks to our lovely photographer - Joyce!

I have never felt so dirty, wet and icky in my life...Hahaha... drenched in rain, mud and dirt for the whole day. But the bath for worth it, hehe. Had high ropes, obtacle courses, pond rafting and flying fox! I love the 3 hour jungle-trekking! It was super tiring - I pulled a muscle. But fun none the less. The company was good and help was everyway.

God is indeed awesome. Leaders are everywhere (they just need to be cultivated), stepping up and growing ever so amazingly. I believe we are all destined for greatness (and we all leaders), we just need to ask Him to open the doors.

So much to share but so little words. Hehehe.... let's just say... it was a good. Learned a lot, experienced lotsa new things and shared much wisdom with one another.

All credit goes to my lovely commitee team (Carissa, Fish, Ying Hui, Tabitha, Nabeelah, Brandon, Alex and Jonathan)! We make a great team. It was awesome leading together and learning from you guys.

What's more exciting is, there'll be another Broga Leadership Camp in November (since this one was so good, we were ask to organise another one) and I was asked to facilitate again (thanks for believing in me Carissa dearie). Let's hope it won't clash with my exams. I pray God will contiue to work and more leaders will be raised. :D


Here's a pic which I got from Alex's blog....

This is during our Leadership Session (with our invited guest speaker) - note, the girl in blue (top) and pink (bottom) walking in the 'crowd' is moi. Hehe....

The week has been pretty busy (even after Broga Camp). Busy, but very fuitful. Hehe, as said, God is gracious and amazing. Had ENLI (Every Nation Leadership Institute) Leadership class after coming back from Broga Camp (Carissa and I were so tired that we slept during the 10 minute break - out of our 3 hour class) that very same day. Then it was a great time of music/vocals training and worship practise on Sunday before heading off to Yuen's Steamboat (after service) to celebrate Carissa's 20th Birthday! Later on, it was (and still is) week days filled with assignment meetings, classes, dance practices, friends, outings, and fun! :D

P/S: To Fish (Caring and darling friend - my camp partner in crime and more), Ying Hui (sweet and understanding companion) and Carissa (the sunshine of my life), thank you so much for being a blessing in my life. You girls are seriously precious to me and God's gift to me to help me grow. I am ever grateful to you and love you sweethearts to bits.

Last but NEVER least, my Lord God Almighty. You are ever awesome!!!!!! I owe it all to You! Praise be to You forever and ever!

Sunshine on my window....

Currently Listening to:

You're Still You

by

Josh Groban

'Vibe' was awesome as usual!!! Love the Word, people, friends, fellowship, talks, activities, fun and Him. I'm so blessed to be there, God is amazing and I thank Him for His neverending faithfulness and blessings. :) Amen!!!!

I love it!

And tomorrow is gonna be another great day with friends, meals, a surprise birthday, lotsa karaoke and laughter. Praise be to Him!

And before you know it, it's a whole day M&M Kidszone training at ECF Puchong on Sunday! More praise be to Him and I pray His will will be unravelled more in me there.

God is amazing and faithful and yes, I've said it so many times. But I can't help it, it's because He really is! I have to tell the world and will never stop proclaiming it! Words alone are not enough, may my actions speak louder and by God's grace may the world see it too.

Glory to God for He is worthy in every way!

God bless!

Your heart knows that for a moment, it'll never be alone....

Currently Listening to:

Keranamu Kekasih

by

Vince Chong

(OST: Puteri Gunung Ledang)

"Sometimes, all we need is just someone to silently hold our hand as we brave through the storms alone...."

She smiled in me...

Currently Listening to: Awesome God by Hillsongs

It's been a week since I've updated? Internet has been a little draggy lately and the pics of my second post (day 1 part 2) on Cambodia has yet to come back from the shop (who is repairing my camera and memory card - hope the all pics will be saved!) Hence, it'll have to wait a bit...

Anyway, to carry on with life... a new semester is starting this week and I pray that all goes well by the grace of God. May lecturers be nice and assignments be gentle. May I be more hardworking and more attentive to my work. I hope this new semester will bring lots more of joyous memories to my life with my dear friends. And to those away in Perth, you have my love and care! All the best!

Just to scream a little here.... :

Passion World Tour Concert was awesome!!!!!

Oh yeah!!! God is truly amazing! His grace is ever so abundant and I am ever thankful for Him. 'Miracles' took place tonight in the concert and I couldn't smile wider in my heart nor weep enough to re-pay Him of his grace and faithfulness! The unexpected became real and 'Passion' was the indeed the suited word for what I experienced tonight. Indeed.... He is awesome and ever amazing.

I met many people that I haven't seen in aeons and I am glad people in my life be it past, present or future, share the same and wonderous God whom bind us together in Christ. And hence, no matter how far or how long we are apart, we will always re-join back together in Him. I meet friends from HLLC, very OLD friends from HLLC, college people, schoolmates from seconday school, childhood friends and even made a new friend - Teri!!

And this is the first time in a very long time where I saw lots of cute guys (in ONE place in ONE time)...hahah :P Indeed, there were a lot of good looking hunks and that is rare to behold. LOL! Usually, you can't event find one if you spend an entire day walking in the mall. But today, I saw at least 10 and more in one night. Okay...haha, FYI, it is just a statement, nothing more. I am not interested la, just found it interesting to behold (wasn't common to behold such sight ok..lol).

But of course the main reason and focus there was J-E-S-U-S!!! And indeed He was the main event for more than 4000 Campus students! He rocks!!! :D

"I was made by Him for His glory."

"With all that I am now and all that I can do, use me Lord and let me shine for You.

I am Yours."

And I thank You for all that You are and for Your faithfulness that has touched me so much tonight. Jesus, you're amazing! :)

Eternally Yours....

"God is good, all the time.

And all the time, God is good!"

God is always so gracious and faithful. He is ever amazing and awesome. I am so thankful that I have Him in my life! Glory be to God Almighty for He is greatly worthy to be praised!

Over the Rainbow and into Your arms

Calm my heart O Lord,
Let it be filled with love, patience and understanding.

Let not my heart be clouded with anger and judgement,
But overflowing with joy and grace.

Teach me Lord to control my temper,
And to watch my words and actions.

Grant me a clear conscience,
And a stready mindset to act according to Your ways.

Help me to set a good example to those around me,
And to be a useful vessel unto Thy glorious name.

Show me Thy ways,
So that I may follow them.

Guard my heart Lord,
And let it be strengthened with obedience.

~ Amen~

In the arms of an angel....

To see the world in a grain of sand,

And heaven in a wild flower.

To hold infinity in the palm of your hand,

An eternity in an hour.

~William Blake~

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"I'll be okay when I'm safe in Your arms and the thoughts of this world fade away."

Let His will be done

Okay.... this is a trial from God and maybe this is His will.
I will NOT question this time and moment.


I accept it as it is beyond my reach.


I will MOVE ON and live my life in a better way.


Everything happends for a reason.


Aunty Yee Li once said that if you are having a comfortable life, means you have to start evaluating everything especially your spiritual life.


So I reckon I should be glad that I can't seem to sit well most of the time now.


I am not blaming anyone especially God. If this is His will, eventhough I am most reluctant, I will see it through by His grace!


And even now in a "low" time of my life, I will give Him thanks and praise for His love is ever so real and there for me.


For I know He will never put me through something I can't handle.


Sure, there will be oceans of tears and weeping, anger and pain, suffering and sorrow, resentment and heartaches. But that is life. We grow through experience and trials.


And if somethings are meant to be, then by the Lord's will... it will come to past and future.


For to take a step ahead is to leave the step before. As hard as it is to lift my feet up, I will do it - even if I have to chop it off! * I am scaring myself here*


I guess by putting in all in the Lord's hands we receive patience to wait what really lies ahead of us, peace in times of turmoil and grace in times of depression.


We all know (at least we Christians) that we are to put the Lord first in our lives. Many have confessed it, said it, and "lived" by it. But how many of us have really done it?


Many of us think we are doing it, and many of the same people are actually not really doing it.


Get my point?


I can tell you not many of us have really done it in our lives. Especially in this world, this superficial, greedy and artificial world.


I can honestly tell you I haven't done that, and once before, I was more than reluctant to even think of it. For I was thinking...."Everytime we dedicate our lives to God, we falter all over again..." And it is common.


But we should slowly start to do that... to put Him more in our lives and eventually make Him apart of it permanently!


And then we will see that life in times of hurricanes can still be joyful and bearable (and more!) for He lives in us and hence, when we have Him with us, nothing can be against us!!! Amen!


I just dont know how to put it in words. It is all jumbled up inside of me! Lets just say... the main point here is:


This is a hard time for me and as much as I am hurt, angry, upset and sad.... I can't change what is happening. I can only rely on the "Big Daddy" up there. And pray that he will give me joy in the midst of sorrow, hope in the midst of despair and peace of mind when all seems to go haywire!


Two days ago, I couldn't seemed to even pray properly. I was too upset and refused to let the Lord take control. I just wanted to whallow in my own tears and "hoped" the Lord would have pity on me and set things right.


But He works in mysterious ways and I can only trust in Him....trust and have faith that there will be a rainbow of promise after this dreadful storm.


But now it is time to let go....


To give Him my tears, my heartaches, my false hopes, my anger, my sorrow, my pain and my heart.


And have it exchanged, for the better fruits of life. To prepare myself for His plan for me in the future.


Sometimes the times we rely in Him the most is when we are naked in tears and He is our only reliable shelter. And thats why we go through storms, but after that, with Him, we see a brighter side of the rainbow and live a better life.


After saying so much, I am still rather and very much reluctant to let go. I can tell you honestly I am as stubborn as a donkey! I know what I must do but my flesh is just too heavy. But in the end, each creation will have to meet its Maker again. To be broken out of the past, mould with new hope and made whole by His love.



No matter what the trial is, joy comes with Him in your heart....