God Bless the Broken Road

Broken by Lifehouse.
Original Soundtrack of the motion picture movie "The Time Traveler's Wife".





The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are broken, I know a Healer who can take away your pain, mend your wounds, repair your brokenness, fill your emptiness and make you whole again. Let me know, I'll love to introduce Him to you. He is always available. :)

Are you broken today?

Under His Wings

The Potato is giving all praise and credit to the Lord God Almighty!!!
For He is worthy in everyway!!!

His faithfulness is awesome, His peace is so transending, And His grace is more than sufficient!

If you've read my previous post, you will know that I suffered a minor panic attact for a moment. Headache, urge to vomit, difficulty in breathing (more like hyperventilating), drumroll of hearbeats like mad and wanting to pass out...

It was not a nice experience. It was panic + scared to the max!

But in that dark hour, I cried out to Him. Surrendering all and just seeking Him for His grace and mercy.

And Lo' Behold!

His faithfulness became real. So real. So true.

I felt peace. Joy. And strength. All that was caging me before disolved and melted away. And suddenly I knew that it was not me, but Him.

It was an amazing moment.

The Lord was there, He was real and He showed me that it was going to be okay.

I am so blessed and thankful to have such an awesome God.

His faithfulness is beyond anything else!

Thank you Lord!!!!!!

The Light in my darkness

Currently Listening:

White Horse

by

Taylor Swift

I am so scared.

So so scared.

I feel like my lungs are tightening and choking my heart.

I can't breathe.

I want to scream.

I want to cry....

But I can't do anything.

I feel tired.

I feel sick.

I feel lost.

I feel so numb.

****

I need you Lord....

I know I am unworthy

But please take me in, do not abandon me.

Forgive me and give me peace for Your will.

Lead me to Your ways and strengthen my heart and faith in You.

To infinity and beyond~!

Currently Listening to:

The buzzing sounds of KDU Square cafetaria at 8am in the morning.

It's the first day of my finals exams. The beginning of the end.

And here I am sitting here with my Princess Coconut laptop (need it to study, all my notes are softcopy!) trying to study for my upcoming Communication & Conflict Management final exam at 9am (an hours time). But alas! I am not studying, rather blogging my morning through as my head is neither here nor there.

I have not finished studying yet *screams* and yes I know it's an hour away, yet I feel so un-needed to do so. Am I plunging myself into a serious abyss of doom? Or am I just too over-mellow to realise that my neck is on the line for this exam?

I feel peace.

But yet my conciousness is screaming "You're dead!"

I am awfully terrified and yet feeling like my soul is flying to Candyland where the Candy Clown is welcoming me like sugar and butter before devouring me whole (watch IT?)

So I am 'chilling' now while knowing later I am 'doomed'!

Btw, note to self, great analogy, gotta use it often (lame I know).

I wanna scream help but at the same time know that I was in the process of 'cari mati sendiri' cause I am not studying!

And to make matters worse, I barely slept last nite. What did I do then?

Was trying and struggling to study!!!

I gave up bout 4am something and knock myself dead on the bed and then started to realise half way through that I kept waking up non-stop cause my mind was just too worried and gila to sleep. Now ladies and gentleman, sleeping has never been a problem for me before. Even during past exams, I slept like a rock, nay, like a grizzly bear during winter!

But now, all I can think about is the exam and how to study for it (which I am still failing to do now). It's like I am so conflicted and pulled-apart! Argh! So drama! :P

Okay, I think I gtg now. Need to try to study and pray!

"Lord I submit today's paper to You. Let it be Thy will. Forgive me for my sins of laziness, procastination and disobediance. Thank you for Your forgiveness, love, grace and mercy. I am Yours. Grant me the spirit of wisdom, understanding and knowledge. Bless me with a peace of mind and an attentive spirit. Go ahead of me and may Your favour be upon me. I commit my exams unto You in Jesus's name, Amen!" :D

The Blooming Rose....

Currently Listening to:

Alive

by

Jennifer Lopez

(OST: Enough)

Father,

I acknowledge that You are the Lord of my life. The centre of my world, my creator and loving, faithful God who's grace is ever abundant. You are great in everyway and nothing is too big for you to handle.

I am so sorry for my weaknesses. For my lack of faith, for my disobedience, my weary soul, my failing heart, my selfishness, my pride, my anger, my lusts, my gluttony, my jealousy, greediness and all my sins. Change my heart and lead me to the path of repeant and forgiveness.

I thank You for everything. For Your blood, Your love, Your mercy, Your grace, Your word and Your blessings. I thank You for a loving family, for caring friends and a blessed life. Thank You for being my God.

I want to commit my friends and family, those who are far, to You. I pray that You'll continue to protect and bless them. To open their hearts to You and to lead them to Your path and will. I pray that You'll give me the disernment to be sensitive, the wisdom to know and the heart to reach out. Give me the burden to love more, to be patient, to be brave, to be faithful, long-suffering, strong and wise in You. Strengthen my faith in You that I may lead a encouraging testimony for You to others around me. Protect me from evil and unrighteousness and hold me steadfast when trials befall me that I may be still and know that You are God. Humble my heart and keep my focus on Your prize and not my own. Take Your place in my life and may I be pleasing to you. Use me Lord and take me as I am.

In Jesus's name, Amen.

Believing is Seeing

Currently Listening to:

With All I Am (Jesus I Believe)

by

Hillsong

Strengthen my faith in You my Lord and let me be a testimony for Your glory. Forgive me for my transgressions (thoughts and actions) and deliver me from temptation. Hold me steadfast in You and equip me with ur armour of words. Let not my pride covet my eyes but fill me with wisdom to see Thy will. Come and changed me so that I may be pleasing to you. Use me dear Father and may my lips speak words of praise to you till the end of my days. Cast my fears aside and strengthen my foundation in You. Give me the burden in my heart to love and to seek Thy word and will. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Break my heart Lord so that I may surrender to You not myself. Amen.

I believe that my God is a good God. An awesome God. A loving God. A forgiving God. A great God and an amazing One.

I shall wait on Him for I know He is always there. Always there in my toughest storm. Always there in the silence of the darkness. Always there in every one of my tears. Always there in the sweetest of my joys... He's there.

I BELIEVE IN JESUS! I DO! I DO!!!!

and may my actions, purpose and life scream it way louder than my spoken words.

Whatever!

How rotten can you get???!

A Puzzle of Thoughts....

Currently Listening to:

Amazing Grace (My Chains Have Gone)

by

Chris Tomlin

(OST: Amazing Grace the movie).

Currently Doing:

- Downloading manga... (titled: Birthday Songs 4/1)

- Browsing through mangafox.com for new manga to read...

- Reading Maimiko Touko no Jikenbo manga...

- Thinking if I'm getting really addicted to manga and if I'll survive on... :P

- Having a minor brain tension which should be cured with some peace and slumber...

- Mentally jumble-ed up and needs a good old teddy bear hug...

- Contemplating randomly in an insane way on whether I should shave my head bald to 'balance myself'...

- Wondering what a hocus pocus-ly horrible person I am and needs to be send to a locked up tower in a convent high up a mountain for some life reflection with God. I'm feeling like a guilty rat now against crimes to myself and Him....

- Need to depend on Him more!!! PRAY!!

- Sulking in my own way and realising I need to think and wonder less in life... I need action and determination!

Have a blessed weekend people!

Break Me Into Pieces....

Currently Listening to: I Think I Love You

(OST: Full House)

Life can be a turbulent ride even when all seems fine.

Ain't it peculiar?

How a normal boring and mundane day can churn so many things inside you?

How those many things can affect you ever so heavily eventhough it may be small in measurements?

Maybe it's because you're free and somewhat empty inside that even a drop of pin is audible?

Is this all just a plain.... *can't find the right word for this feeling*?

*BREATHES IN AND OUT!!!!*

I don't like it. I don't like this sucky feeling. This "argh" motion in me.



Maybe some things are just catching up.... Don't you hate it when you're not perfect?

I need my Saviour...!!!!

Over the Rainbow and into Your arms

Calm my heart O Lord,
Let it be filled with love, patience and understanding.

Let not my heart be clouded with anger and judgement,
But overflowing with joy and grace.

Teach me Lord to control my temper,
And to watch my words and actions.

Grant me a clear conscience,
And a stready mindset to act according to Your ways.

Help me to set a good example to those around me,
And to be a useful vessel unto Thy glorious name.

Show me Thy ways,
So that I may follow them.

Guard my heart Lord,
And let it be strengthened with obedience.

~ Amen~

Cleanse me...

I am sorry Lord Jesus for the things I have done and the things I have not done. Cleanse me Lord of my sins and change me over to be a better vessel for you. Strengthen my heart and give me perseverance to endure hardships and temptations. Grant me a peace of mind in times of turmoil and joy in the midst of sorrow. Forgive me of my sins and help me to forgive those who have sinned against me. Relieve me of my worries and help me to concentrate on Your glory and will. Grant me the strength to stand up to injustice, the voice to speak for those who cant speak for themselves and wisdom to know who they are. Strip me of my selfishness and give me a kind and open heart for Your children. Let not my past cloud my future but cleanse me of my old guilt and give me a fresh start in You. Grant me a submissive and serving heart to You and wash me off satan's lies and deceit. Give me a heart of worship for You again and let me sing Your praises forevermore. Let not this passion for You die but let it burn like a beacon unto the lost so that I may glorify You. Supress my pride and humble my heart for Your glory. Give me courage and anointing to spread Your love and glory unto others. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Open up my heart not only to love others more but to love You more too and to make You the first in me. Help me to see the beauty of others and accept their flaws. Install patience in me that I may see and understand the pain and suffering of others. Forgive me Lord, for my imperfections and humanly sins. Grant me Lord a heart of repentance and the willingness to change for Your will. Grant me the obediance for Your will and the faith to persevere.

I believe in the God Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, His only son our Lord who was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the virgin Mary.
Suffered under Pontious Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried.
Descendened into hell and on the third day He rose again,
Ascended into heaven and sitted on the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Holy Christian Church, the Communion of sins, the Forgiveness of sins, the Ressurection of the body and the life everlasting.
Amen.
(Confession of Faith)

Most merciful God, I confess that I am in the bondage of sin and can not free myself.
I have sin against You in thought word and deed.
By what I have done and by what I have left undone.
I have not love You with my whole heart.
I have not love my neighbours as myself.
But for the sake of Your son Jesus Christ, had mercy on me, forgived me, renewed me and lead me so that I may delight in Your will and walk in Your ways to the glory of Your holy name.
Amen.
(Confession of Sins)

I am sorry Lord for my sins and I thank Thee for Your forgiveness, mercy, love and grace.