Within the Wind

Currently Listening to:

From The Inside Out

by

Hillsong.

The Potato realises that she has a tendency to be able to blog in the wee hours of the morning before a big event or trip (refer to previous posts for evidence). Don't ask me, I don't know why. It's 3AM in the morning and I am expected to 'rise and shine' in 3 hours time (6AM!) to get ready for Eaglepoint Damansara's first church camp in Genting View Resort (Praise the Lord for it!)! But here I am again unable to catch ZZZZ and resulting to put my midnight thoughts into virtual words

If you've noticed, the Potato has rarely blogged bout anything personal or private anymore. She used to go all emo on it (boy, when I read my previous blog, I can't help but blush!) and never fails to notify the entire cyber world (those who bother) of her petty little life musings and gaga-ness. But nope, not now anymore. At least not recently or lately. This must be the reason of her lack of updates. She has been so caught up with things; up and down, that she has gotten so weary and almost nonchalant to bother anymore. It's hard enough to sort and contain them properly inside her let alone being able to lay it out straight for the world to see. She guesses that when you grow up, when you encounter another phase or stage, things just change. You try to cope with the new stuff while balancing the old or finding wisdom to know if you should keep it. Is she just being complicated? Or just too plain to be comprehended

NOTE: If you find it hard to understand the language or phrasing of sentences, do excuse the Potato, she has not compose any writings lately and is somehow retardedly unsure of her English. Just fresh off 3 months after her last semester and her brain has already started to rust. How shameful of her. :P

I wish I could put the Potato to sleep.

She needs her sleep.

I need her to sleep.

But recently she's been going through this whole 'phase' whereby she only dozes of after tossing and turning in bed for hours, thinking of the most ridiculuous things and end up having nightmares of it

It's funny really, before this, she was hibernating like a log (after the recovery from the horrible illness couple of weeks ago) all the time and now she could barely remember how to sleep.

Waking up to lingering dreams (nightmares still?) of whatever the world holds for her then just ain't the cupcake starter of her day. No wonder she's a bit sotong lately. 'Otak takde centre'.

There are good days and there are days where they ain't.

But it's okay.

She's okay.

She will be okay.

She may be far from perfect. But she has a perfect God. :)

She just needs to stop dwelling in her weaknesses and start to rely on His stength instead.

I believe in You.

In Your promises in my life.

In Your love and goodness

Forgive me for ever doubting.

Believing is Seeing

Currently Listening to:

With All I Am (Jesus I Believe)

by

Hillsong

Strengthen my faith in You my Lord and let me be a testimony for Your glory. Forgive me for my transgressions (thoughts and actions) and deliver me from temptation. Hold me steadfast in You and equip me with ur armour of words. Let not my pride covet my eyes but fill me with wisdom to see Thy will. Come and changed me so that I may be pleasing to you. Use me dear Father and may my lips speak words of praise to you till the end of my days. Cast my fears aside and strengthen my foundation in You. Give me the burden in my heart to love and to seek Thy word and will. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Break my heart Lord so that I may surrender to You not myself. Amen.

I believe that my God is a good God. An awesome God. A loving God. A forgiving God. A great God and an amazing One.

I shall wait on Him for I know He is always there. Always there in my toughest storm. Always there in the silence of the darkness. Always there in every one of my tears. Always there in the sweetest of my joys... He's there.

I BELIEVE IN JESUS! I DO! I DO!!!!

and may my actions, purpose and life scream it way louder than my spoken words.

A Spark of Miracles!

Currently Listening to: One Way by Hillsong

I attended a Healing Rally by Bishop Rovert Kayanja which was recently hosted by ECF (the church I'm currently attending) at a big Chinese Pestaurant in Puchong. And it was awesome to the max!!!! It was my first time witnessing miracles with my own two eyes and how amazing God is. The deaf were healed and the blind saw light again.... right before my very eyes!

How can one witness such and not believe?

And yes, I believe, I believe and MORE! There is no doubt of it. My God is ever real, true, gracious, loving, glorious and FANTABULOUS!!! :D

It was amazing. It was miracle in the making. And it was real!

Here are some pics and videos I managed to take.... sorry if it's blur... I used my camera phone (only 1.3 megapixel). There are so much more, but I couldnt continue taking pics or videos anymore throughout the nite for I was too busy clapping, shouting, being touched, crying and giving Him praise for His awesome miracles!

He called forth the deaf (left)and blind (right)....

And we all prayed.... lifting our hands, hearts, mind, voices and all to Him

And the healing begins...

Blurry pic... This is Bishop Kayanja, the vessel of God's healing to the deaf.

And we all clap, shout and give praise to Him... for the deaf was could now hear again!!

You have no idea, how amazed, touched and happy I was.... Witnessing his grace and awesomeness was amazing!

Praise be to Him!!!! :D

And God touched more people that night... not only the deaf but also the blind. Lives were changed and by witnessing such, I knew I serve a great, almighty and awesome God! Amen!

And that, is undeniable -ever!!!

Here are some videos I managed to take...

This second video is amazing because I managed to capture moments where God (through Bishop Kayanja) healed a deaf (from birth) girl... It's a little draggy and long in the beginning but it's worth it when you witness the miracle and hear the roars of praise to Him. God is awesome (yes, I've said it many times but I won't ever stop for He is so much more then that)!!




Amazing ain't it.... PRAISE BE TO HIM!!!!

That night was only the first night. The second night however was even more awesome (according to all who went). But unfortunately, I couldn't go. :( :( :(

I would really like you to continue reading more about His glory, grace and AWESOMENESS here
It's a post composed by a dear friend (Carissa!!!!) who attended the second night of the Healing Rally. Her testimony is so beautiful (of His glory) that I had to pass the word and share (hope that's okay honey!). Please read and be more awed by Him! :D

Thank you for reading people and I hope it touched you and made you see how amazing and real God is!

Blessed be His name!

Life's a ball of butter!

Have you ever experienced those days where you have a zillion feelings, emotions, words and desires caught up inside of you but can't do anything to express it? Where it all just clusters and jumbles in and out of your head and storms the pit of your stomach like a hurricane in a balister? And all you can do is stay numbly stagnant where ever you are and fight the battle silently inside?

Have you?

I bet you have... in a manner of speaking.

We all have.

Sometimes, we pretend it's all okay and try to fix it and sometimes we RIP it all out to the world.

But sometimes, we just stay there and let it make the worse out of us. And we become something else.

Something entirely different....

Over the Rainbow and into Your arms

Calm my heart O Lord,
Let it be filled with love, patience and understanding.

Let not my heart be clouded with anger and judgement,
But overflowing with joy and grace.

Teach me Lord to control my temper,
And to watch my words and actions.

Grant me a clear conscience,
And a stready mindset to act according to Your ways.

Help me to set a good example to those around me,
And to be a useful vessel unto Thy glorious name.

Show me Thy ways,
So that I may follow them.

Guard my heart Lord,
And let it be strengthened with obedience.

~ Amen~

Cleanse me...

I am sorry Lord Jesus for the things I have done and the things I have not done. Cleanse me Lord of my sins and change me over to be a better vessel for you. Strengthen my heart and give me perseverance to endure hardships and temptations. Grant me a peace of mind in times of turmoil and joy in the midst of sorrow. Forgive me of my sins and help me to forgive those who have sinned against me. Relieve me of my worries and help me to concentrate on Your glory and will. Grant me the strength to stand up to injustice, the voice to speak for those who cant speak for themselves and wisdom to know who they are. Strip me of my selfishness and give me a kind and open heart for Your children. Let not my past cloud my future but cleanse me of my old guilt and give me a fresh start in You. Grant me a submissive and serving heart to You and wash me off satan's lies and deceit. Give me a heart of worship for You again and let me sing Your praises forevermore. Let not this passion for You die but let it burn like a beacon unto the lost so that I may glorify You. Supress my pride and humble my heart for Your glory. Give me courage and anointing to spread Your love and glory unto others. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Open up my heart not only to love others more but to love You more too and to make You the first in me. Help me to see the beauty of others and accept their flaws. Install patience in me that I may see and understand the pain and suffering of others. Forgive me Lord, for my imperfections and humanly sins. Grant me Lord a heart of repentance and the willingness to change for Your will. Grant me the obediance for Your will and the faith to persevere.

I believe in the God Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, His only son our Lord who was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the virgin Mary.
Suffered under Pontious Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried.
Descendened into hell and on the third day He rose again,
Ascended into heaven and sitted on the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Holy Christian Church, the Communion of sins, the Forgiveness of sins, the Ressurection of the body and the life everlasting.
Amen.
(Confession of Faith)

Most merciful God, I confess that I am in the bondage of sin and can not free myself.
I have sin against You in thought word and deed.
By what I have done and by what I have left undone.
I have not love You with my whole heart.
I have not love my neighbours as myself.
But for the sake of Your son Jesus Christ, had mercy on me, forgived me, renewed me and lead me so that I may delight in Your will and walk in Your ways to the glory of Your holy name.
Amen.
(Confession of Sins)

I am sorry Lord for my sins and I thank Thee for Your forgiveness, mercy, love and grace.