Beneath the Storm

My new favourite song...




Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I
Been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know everything is alright
Everything's alright

Walking with Delight~!

Currently Listening to:

Trust and Obey

by

Carlene Davis

It's 4.13 AM in the morning

My alarm is going to ring at 5.30AM

The airport cab is reaching at 6.30AM

My flight is 9AM??? (gosh I don't even know)

And here I am still blogging cause I can't sleep~! :(

For those who are oblivious, the Potato will be going for a family vacation to the island of Java, Indonesia (Jakarta, Bandung and Yogjakarta) from the 27th of June till the 4th July 09.

What's there?

- Jakarta ----> SHOPPING

- Bandung ----> MORE SHOPPING

- Yogjakarta ----> Most probaly shopping again and The Ancient Temple of Borobudur!!!! :D

So do pray for safe journey and vacation. Thank you. :)

By the way, the Potato has a joyful anouncement to make:

She passed all her final subjects and is graduating officially (Convocation in Perth - 17th September 2009)!!!

BUS378 :Knowledge and Organization Learning - Credit! :)

MCC337: Cultural and Media Policy - Credit! :)

MCC345: Communication and Campaign Management - Distinction~!!! :D

PRAISE GOD!!! For He is indeed so real and GOOD! :D :D :D :D

The hardest semester (final sem) turned out to be the best, most rewarding and fruitful journey.

Hence, again, God is indeed super good.

The Potato has learned so much, fell and stood up, tears and perseverance, steadfastness, wisdom, peace, sacrifice, trials and so much more. She believes God has bless her with growth and is ready for the next level. :D

Just wanna thank Him for everything and those who supported me through rough times (my angel friends). God is AWAYS GOOD! :)

Though in the midst of trials, pain and tears I know my Lord is good and He will bless me all the days of my life. And so I will choose to surrender, submit and depend on Him so I can trust and obey. :)

Praise You Lord forever~! :)

Dancing Sunshine :)

Currently Listening to:

Here I Am

by

Leona Lewis

OKAY....

I know it's been light years since I last blogged but hey sometimes life catches up with you and you just gotta deal with it. And I've dealt with it and hence the absence. :)

But also because some loving people who keeps pestering me to clear the cobwebs in my bloggie, tehee...

So where do I start?

What life has held me recently:

- Final of final exams
- Friends
- More friends
- Vacations
- Outings
- Meetings
- Sleepovers
- Makan to the MAX sessions
- Hang outs
- Movies
- Etc

Pretty busy somehow....tehee....

But most of all, God has been good in my life. :D

I have learned that by God being good in my life does not only meant that it is seen in His blessings, my happiness etc, but also in His grace, mercy, joy, perseverance and peace during hard times. The list above may seem nice (and yes, most of them are) but through them, heartbreaks, tears, suffering and pain drove by. I have to admit, I went through the toughest time in my life this very month. But it is through this time where I experience God the most in my life. I learn to surrender and to abide in Him and He delivered me, sustained me, helped me and comforted me. I knew it was Him for I know I wouldn't have made it without Him. I would have broken to pieces but here I am because He is so real in my life. He showered me with grace, peace, joy and rest despite my thundering storm and I know that my God is real and so awesome!

I've learned 2 very important things through this hard month, which was to:

TRUST AND OBEY

To Obey in His will and know that following Him is the right and best thing to do. Even when you don't feel like it, even when it breaks your heart, even when it is against all odds for when you choose to obey, God sees your heart and honours you back (ten fold). All you have to do is obey and His will will be done in your life (And His will/plan is ultimately the BEST). :)

"His will is not for your consideration but your obedience."

(Pastor Shawn Kong)

To Trust that He has the best interest (that is yet to come) for me, that He'll take care of everything, that He is sovereign and I shall not be left lacking. To trust that He will carry my burdens, my worries, my brokenness, and my past. That He will sustain me, provide, bless and love even when I am not at my best. To trust that as long as I obey, depend and faith in Him, it's all gonna be okay and even great too (trials may befall but the joy of the Lord will sustain me). :)

Though hardships are still not over and are bound to get worse, I want to learn to trust and obey in Him. Even when I can't feel Him, even when I can't see the hope and even when I feel like falling. Because ultimately I know that He is in control and that I can still smile and be joyful in Him. :)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
(James 1:2-4)

I thank Him for His grace and mercy. I know He is prunning me now so that I can bloom.
And I will bloom for Him and His glory. :)

I shall update more soon.... hopefully. Tehee...

Have a blessed week and may the Lord shine upon you. :)

In this Path....

No turning back....

Skipping Petals...

Currently Listening to:

Keranamu Kekasih

by

Vince Chong

(OST: Puteri Gunung Ledang)

Do your man some good... :)

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A Promise of Blessings

Currently Listening to:

Lover's Tears

by

Poon Sow Keng

I feel so jiwang but at the same time kinda trying to be cheerful. It's like despite my jiwang-ness, I am still able to look at the future 'cherry blossoms' awaiting me. I guess that's a good thing, at least I won't get all jiwang-ed completely and fall into a state of depression and self pity. Hehehe, all thanks to Him of His faithfulness, the blessings (friends) he has given me and the promise that I was chosen for greatness in Him (you too)! I'm so blessed. :D

p/s: Fish, hehe... looks like I'm addicted to the 'jiwang' word....hehehe. All credits to you. Love ya babes!

The Buds of Spring~!

Currently Listening to:

Beyond the Sea

by

Robbie Williams

He chose me (and you)....!

The Light of My Path....

It's gonna be a busy but fruitful week to come! I am excited yet nervous in anticipation. I've got much coming up for the week: New Media Technologies final assignment (media device diary, LMS postings and responses and 1500 essay), Gokusen Marathon, preparation for Broga Camp, facilitating Broga Camp, ENLI Leadership class, loving people more (o yeah, I'm gonna try more!) and just by being me! :D I hope and pray that by the grace of God, all goes well and if trials befall, I'll be steadfast and firm in Him. :D God is always with us, we just need to realise it more and pray continuously. Always have faith people, and you'll be amazed with what He can do for you and through you. Praise be to Him! :D

Blessings In Disguise

Currently Listening to:

The Love That You've Been Looking For Is Here

by

98 Degrees.

God is good.
(Period) :D

I had a busy week and more to come but all is fruitful and a blessing in everyway.
I wanna thank Him for everything, up and down.

*SMILES*

Blessed week people!

Hugs!

A Bouquet of Wild Daisies

Currently Listening to: Lahaina by The Volcanos (Lilo and Stitch: Island Favourites)


I am blogging again.... yeap. What can I say? It's gotta be PMS or that I am just so freakingly bored and lame. But who cares, sick people have all the time of the day when they not sleeping their heads off. I still can't bring myself to have the motion to blog about my 5th day in Cambodia. Maybe I am still lazy in editing and uploading the pictures but I hope I'll finish it when the 'Strawberry storm' has past.

I feel kinda emo and self concious lately. And yes, you all must know PMS is my constant shadow lately. And maybe that's why my sense of sensitivity has ascended majorly. And I can't help feeling like a pregnant woman with lotsa hormones. I start to get over upset for the tiniest things and tend to over-react inside with over thinking of problems that doesnt exist or shouldn't be. It sucks. A lot. So guys, love your girlfriends more and know you're not the only one suffering and facing the annoyance of PMS (when they throw bitch-fits). It's just the hormones and just so you know, it's what drives you crazy over them too. So all is fair.

Looks like I am going to be on problematic future girlfriend huh? Tehee.... let's hope I will be blessed with one super understanding and loving boyfriend to tolerate me then. LOL!

I despise PMS... it's a 'rotten pumpkin' and I am a constant slave to it... Can't imagine how I'll be when I'm pregnant instead. LOL! Note to self in 5 years time (5 years? who am I kidding?)... Love my husband MORE (Please let me be married then!!! - again, who am I kidding? :P)! LOL!

I am so craving for seaweed now... lotsa crispy Korean or Japanese seaweed... Hmmm mmm...!

Soup too, lotsa nice sweet seaweed soup.... like the one my granny makes. My mouth or should I be more specific, throat; is tasting like some weird stinking anti-biotic and I seriously need some ajinamoto...LOL!

I just finished watching Grey's Anatomy and Cashmere Mafia and it was great, love it. Totally superb for a PMS night and it got me all high up and preppy thinking that I might have a chance of making my life into a soap opera. But hey, all I'm lacking if a McDreamy of a boyfriend and a Cashmere coat... or maybe just some elegance in my life.

I think I kinda sound like a sour drama queen. Maybe so, but just for this moment. For once, I wanna bask in my own prima donna-ness... so sue me! But then again, I have this icky feeling that the whole world already hates me for some bitchy reason. :P PMS? You tell me...



You know what I want? What I really really want?

I want someone I can securely cuddle up to and leave all my stuffs behind. Someone who'll give me enough comfort to strip away all my insecurities and just let me be myself wholely in his arms. Someone who knows me, understands me, holds no judgement against me, accepts me and just truly loves me. And me to him. Someone like my.....

my hubby bubby pink bolster!!!!!! :D

Yeap, that's my sayang... for now.
And someday, God's gonna bless me with a real man instead. :)
And I shall wait for that beautiful day to come. :D

"....and then, her PMS just faded away for the night, in sweet thought of His promise to her."

The Blood of a Butterfly....

Currently Listening to:

Navras

(ending theme of Matrix Revolution)

by

Juno Reactor Vs Don Davis

I woke up feeling like a tuna fish that was about to be canned!

I felt horrible and the lingering of my previous night dream or should I say 'nightmare' still grasped me right to my bones. Yes, I had a 'nightmare'. A horrid and somewhat similiar nightmare that I constantly have. But nay, today's was far worst and I could still taste the bitterness of my dreams even in my awakening. I hate the feeling. I hate this feeling. This feeling which others may perceive to be 'sadness' but to me something much more. Something I can't put words into but only feel and suffer it in me. It's been a very long time since I felt like this and to be honest I hated it. I hate this feeling. I knew life would bring me back here again to experience this but I didn't know that time was so hasty.

It sucks! Big time. I feel as if my insides were infected with depression parasites and my heart numb from all that it took in fighting it. I want to block it all away. I want to fight it and eliminate it. But at the same time I just want to stand by there and watch it ALL DIE (along with her) !

Let His will be done...

Blue bells of a song to strum it all away....

Memories are just memories

and the past will always just be the past.

"The future harbours no dreams of the past, only unexpected visions of His love." ~ P