Currently Listening to:
Navras
(ending theme of Matrix Revolution)
by
Juno Reactor Vs Don Davis
I woke up feeling like a tuna fish that was about to be canned!
I felt horrible and the lingering of my previous night dream or should I say 'nightmare' still grasped me right to my bones. Yes, I had a 'nightmare'. A horrid and somewhat similiar nightmare that I constantly have. But nay, today's was far worst and I could still taste the bitterness of my dreams even in my awakening. I hate the feeling. I hate this feeling. This feeling which others may perceive to be 'sadness' but to me something much more. Something I can't put words into but only feel and suffer it in me. It's been a very long time since I felt like this and to be honest I hated it. I hate this feeling. I knew life would bring me back here again to experience this but I didn't know that time was so hasty.
It sucks! Big time. I feel as if my insides were infected with depression parasites and my heart numb from all that it took in fighting it. I want to block it all away. I want to fight it and eliminate it. But at the same time I just want to stand by there and watch it ALL DIE (along with her) !
Let His will be done...
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