The Light of My Path....

It's gonna be a busy but fruitful week to come! I am excited yet nervous in anticipation. I've got much coming up for the week: New Media Technologies final assignment (media device diary, LMS postings and responses and 1500 essay), Gokusen Marathon, preparation for Broga Camp, facilitating Broga Camp, ENLI Leadership class, loving people more (o yeah, I'm gonna try more!) and just by being me! :D I hope and pray that by the grace of God, all goes well and if trials befall, I'll be steadfast and firm in Him. :D God is always with us, we just need to realise it more and pray continuously. Always have faith people, and you'll be amazed with what He can do for you and through you. Praise be to Him! :D

Blessings In Disguise

Currently Listening to:

The Love That You've Been Looking For Is Here

by

98 Degrees.

God is good.
(Period) :D

I had a busy week and more to come but all is fruitful and a blessing in everyway.
I wanna thank Him for everything, up and down.

*SMILES*

Blessed week people!

Hugs!

Blue Birds in Spring

Currently Listening to: She by Elvis Costello

Lotsa pics to upload and much to blog about. Don't know where to start la....hehe. Events, experiences, feelings, thoughts, trials, happiness, fun, people, friends, church and most of all, God (and His awesomeness!). There are ups and downs but through it all, God has been ever (and still is) faithful to me. I love walking in Him and putting more of my trust in His promises. He doubles my joy and lessens my sorrow in stormy times. And I wanna thank Him for everything.

"I want more of Him and less of me."

Happy Raya (and holiday) EVERYONE!! :D

p/s: will 'TRY' to upload pics when I've got em sorted out... :p

Jumping On Sunshine!

Currently Listening to:

Tocatta & Fugue in D Minor

by

Vanessa Mae.

It's Friday and I'm glad of it! Not because I'm a total lazy butt....hehehe (maybe?). But because all my assignments are complete (for now...) and I get to rest for another 2 weeks (got arr??) before having tension moments and sleepless nights, tehee. Praise God for all, Amen!

Okay, I gotta go now... really sleepy.. had a long night (or morning) completing my TVC Program Porposal. Tata people! :D God bless.

Sunshine on my window....

Currently Listening to:

You're Still You

by

Josh Groban

'Vibe' was awesome as usual!!! Love the Word, people, friends, fellowship, talks, activities, fun and Him. I'm so blessed to be there, God is amazing and I thank Him for His neverending faithfulness and blessings. :) Amen!!!!

I love it!

And tomorrow is gonna be another great day with friends, meals, a surprise birthday, lotsa karaoke and laughter. Praise be to Him!

And before you know it, it's a whole day M&M Kidszone training at ECF Puchong on Sunday! More praise be to Him and I pray His will will be unravelled more in me there.

God is amazing and faithful and yes, I've said it so many times. But I can't help it, it's because He really is! I have to tell the world and will never stop proclaiming it! Words alone are not enough, may my actions speak louder and by God's grace may the world see it too.

Glory to God for He is worthy in every way!

God bless!

The Meadows of Spring

Currently Listening to:

Rock a Hula Baby

by

Collin Raye; The Jordanaires

(Lilo & Stitch: Island Favourites)

I love Fridays.... Not because I'm a square bump who yearns for the lazy weekend (hm, maybe I do), but because I love the moments, times, activities, programs and the people with me then. Since there are no classes on Fridays, I usually have some chores stacked up... but that's no biggie. On the other hand, I love the carefree feeling I have that nothing important is in need of me (assignments, that is - the horror begins on Monday!). And the fact that 'Vibe' is only a few hours away, makes me excited and happy! And I love whatever outings or stuff there is on Saturday. Somehow, my weekends tend to be more.... fulfilling than it was before (praise God!). :D And Sunday is as always, the cherriest day to behold. With family, music training, friends and church on, who needs anything else? :)

I am grateful and very much thankful for His blessings, love and grace. I feel like the closer I'm getting to Him, the better I feel and see things in life. Peace seems to envelope me more and understanding just sweeps in. Things begin to make sense when it doesn't and I'm beginning to comprehend His will more as I surrender more faith and trust in Him. I love that feeling. The feeling of trusting Him and abiding in Him. I begin to see more of His faithfulness and grace working in me. And God is indeed amazing!

"Walk by faith and faith will walk you through... " ~P

I pray you'll have a faithful weekend....

Praise God.

God bless!

*HUGS*

An Invinsible Shadow

Currently Listening to:

One Night Only

by

Jennifer Hudson

(OST: Dream Girls)

I just send my dad off.... well not to the airport but from the house gate to the cab. Feel kinda sad and emo. I'm already missing my dad now. Hampir menangis at the gate....

For those yang tak tahu, my dad is going off to Columbia Theological Seminary (CTS), Decatur, Georgia, USA for some seminary research thingie on AIDS/HIV (on theological studies) for 3 months (3 minggu also i rindu gila d). Actually before that, he is going to the UK first to visit some people and family, then to the United Nations Development Fund (UNFPA) Forum on Faith Based Organisations in Latin America at Bueno Aires (South America) before flying back to the UK and then only to the Atlanta, US. And then after that, he'll be flying off to Istanbul, Turkey for the UNFPA World Forum before going back to Georgia, US to complete his course. (THEN BALIK M'SIA!!!)

Yes, banyak tempat dia pergi and lama... and I will super miss him!!! :(

Sekarang also I rindu d... maybe cause seeing my dad off is kinda emo-ing (mum and bro at work today, only me at home seeing dad off).

Anyway... taps on the shoulder for me, I managed to finish my NMT 7 week internet diary today along with my LMS posting and response (Yiang, I reponded to your post!). I'm TRYING to start my 1500 word essay today, now or tonight... but I'm having some probs in starting or understanding what is needed to be writtten. I'm also having a blur moment in trying to read and 'study' all my pdf notes from LMS so that I won't write vacuous words in it (in other words crap too much). But reading week 1's notes is already susah and mind bottling... Let alone 4 more... haish... Macam susah je... :(

I really hope I can start (and hopefully finish) it tonight or at least till tomorrow's early morning...haha. If so then it will be a new surprise as it is not common for me to complete an assignment a day before the dateline (as said, I am usually super last minute-burning midnight oil-adrenaline kicking person). Anyway... all the best to me...haha.. and to those in my shoes.

Thank you Lord for everything, for Your faithfulness, grace, love and promises. I pray You'll bless and protect my dad overseas and be with Him always. Strengthen me in You to abide in Your word and will. Grant me the spirit of wisdom, knowledge and understanding as I grow more in You. I commit all into Your hands, Amen.

God bless everyone and peace!!!

HUGS!

Empty Buttons on my Shirt...

Currently Listening to:

O Praise Him (All This For A King)

by

David Crowder (Band)


I am PROCASTINATING like a SLUG.....

(O how I detest assignments - and my laziness....)

I am super lazy and I admit it. But admitting is not helping me.

'Gua' tak boleh gerak la... releks semacam je....
(Inner Philee speaking)

O the teruk-ness of me!

Maybe it's because I am still a pretty last minute person despite trying not to. I can't seem to do it till it's late (and then I get more worried) and the adrenalin starts kicking me to do it. The assignment is due next Wed (orang dah mula tapi senangnya aku - ada hati nak blog lagi) but it comes in many sections (if I dont complete 1, I can't do 2), hence more to do. Since it's only Thursday... I still have less than 6 days to do. And for the normal Philee... masa ni, aku masih lagi 'on vacation' (usually start 2 days before dateline). But this time it is a little different since there are a few parts of assignments to do and my weekend schedule is full. I thought that if I didn't start now, then I can gonna have some major worries by Monday. But still despite my own reasoning to tell myself to start now, I can't seem to "bother" to do so!

"No Panic, no work!" (new quote from philee)
LOL!

Still, I wanna thank Neik Xiang Yu for being such a sweet friend. Your email of info is such a nice help (though I belum guna). Your kind action and concern is deeply appreciated. Thank you.

Enemies to defeat by next Wednesday...
New Media Tech Assignment 1:
a) 7 day Internet diary
b) LMS summary posting (and response??)
c) 1000 word essay of both.

P/S: I don't think I'll start tonight la... -_-" (lol)

Raining Butterflies!

Had a great week and awesome weekend...

Happy Merdeka btw...!!!

Been to 1 Utama 5 days in a row

Shopped

Watched 3 movies

Hung out with lotsa friends and family non stop

Pasar Malam

Klang Bak Kut Teh

Church

Big family dinner (Tan)

Lovely, hearty and friendly-laughing meals (friends and family)

Bonding moments *smiles*

Sweet conversations

Wall E obsession

Smiled too much till it hurt

Meeting 'old' friends

Meetng 'new' friends

None-stop girly chattering in the car...hehe.

Merdeka day outing :)

Friends

More friends

People

Uncle Hang's birthday

Jenny mei mei darling's birthday :D

Seeing more and more of God's faithfulness and blessings in me

Out 18 hours a day

Tired, but having fun! :D

Come rain, come shine!

God bless and HUGS!

Cherry Blossoms in My Day

Currently Listening to: Bunga-bunga Cinta by Misha Omar

Okay... I am so trying to blog about my trip to Cambodia and since it's gonna be super long with tons of pics, I think I'll do it by day and parts (taking my own sweet time). Another reason is because until the camera/memory card is properly fixed, I can't post a lot of pics (since half of the pics file can't be open and viewed!). The pics from day one are safe but half of the pics from day two have gone MIA. Which is the worst of all, since day two is the critically important one because it was the a whole day filled with pics of our ancient temple tour!!! Blessedly the pics of of our tour in Angkor Wat is ok but the other many pics of the other temples especially BAYON temple has gone "kaput". -_-" Sad I know... hopefully can be fixed! Pics from day 3 have also gone MIA as well as some pics from day 4 (half of it ok). Day 5 and 6 got la...here and there.... Haish.... so what la... :( :( Hence I shall take my time in blogging on the first day (put them in parts) and hopefully before I get to the second day, the pics will be fixed.

So here goes....

Day 1 in Cambodia (Part 1): Arrival in Siem Reap (Checking in and shopping)

Our TUK TUK ride... Throughout our stay in Cambodia... we travel through Tuk Tuk aje... It was a new and exciting experience. I actually prefer it compared to a car!

FYI, traffic there is...errrr really "FUYOH"!!! Hahaha... I didn't take a pic of it to show you now (Maybe later, still have lots of pics to sort out), but just to let you know, helmets are not compulsary! And only our Tuk tuk driver pakai je (and less than 10% of the motorcyle drivers that I've seen wear them). The traffic is 'easy going', meaning, you can cut like nobody's business and no proper left and right. If you think Malaysia's traffic is bad... you should so go there. You can have a heart attack driving there. LOL! You can hear people honking ALL THE TIME! It's like a norm to just masuk any lane. Most roads don't even have the middle line in the road to separate then jalan. So no real rules... can masuk or jalan, just go....hahah.

I love to do this... dangle my feet out of the Tuk Tuk. As dangerous as it seems, it is fun!

Our Guest House/ Hotel... It's nice and cozy...

The reception gave us this.... for a simple reference in our stay there. :)

The makan place.... nice food!

Khmer specialty... It's called Amok!! NICE!


Lunch there was great... we practically ate a lot at the hotel cause it wasn't advisable for tourist to eat outside. Bear in mind... the food outside are 'potent' ahem.... Each plate or order usually cost 3 USD. And a family meal usually go up to 10USD. So it's like 30 over Ringgit per meal. Hahaha... FYI, USD currency is an norm there and we used it more (as tourist) compared to the local currency (Riel). So hence as cheap as things can be... remember... it is in USD...so have to darab 3....haha.

Next... We headed over to go for SHOPPING at the local Central Market (for tourists). There are no malls Siem Reap (only in Phnom Penh and itu pun kecik btw)...hahaha.





And here we have my mum who was just enjoying herself shopping and haggling all the way... First day aje dah banyak beli barang...hahah.

Jewelry there is REALLY cheap (rubies, sapphires). My mum was happy gila....hahahaha... Bought a lot....LOL!

Okies, I dah a bit penat....hahaha. Will continue part 2 of Day 1 another time. This whole post baru only sampai the afternoon of day 1. There are still more activities to blog about on day one which is the lovely experience of our first SUNSET at the top of PHNOM BAKHENG temple (overseeing everything) and the first view of Angkot Wat!!

Wanted to post one last picture to show a glimpse of what is to come for Part 2 of Day 1, but I'm, having trouble in dragging the picture down so can't post it up here to show you what's installed next. It's a picture of me on top of the Phnom Bakheng temple before sunset... :P

Aniways....heheh. Have a nice day and God bless! HUGS!

The Breath of Sunshine on My Window...

I hope it's PMS. I think it's PMS. I need it to be PMS.



Cause it sucks to the max and I feel all wobbly and heavy.

"I just wanna cuddle wuddle with a polar bear in the remotes of Antarctica and just hibernate there till the world reaches an apocalypse."

-_-"

Needless to say, I am spiked with everyone and everything.... And I think I am spiking them too!

"Touchy!~"

I wish I was some cute cuddly 3 year old who gets to scream like mad and gets scooped up and dunked in lotsa love and huggies till I feel satisfied.



And since I am *ahem* far from being 3 again, I kept thinking how nice if there would be if I could get some some cute cuddly, fat, chubby and cute toddler/baby to be smoothered in my arms and I get to give it lotsa kisses and just "Eeeeeeee....!!!!!~squeeze???" (Geram aku, haha!)

Or maybe a kitty. A big, fat, and bushy kitty... Actually I was thinking more of a baby kitten but then again, I might crush it if I squeeze too hard. LOL!

Eeeeee......!!!!! Gelora -lah aku!

Masa ni lah aku perlukan boyfriend aku untuk mengenangkan aku, peluk aku, sayang aku and everything will be alright again....

Eh! Tapi aku takde boyfriend la!!! :P

Too bad!! Hence aku tenangkan diri aku sendiri la...

Wait a minute, why am I speaking BM and Eng together?

Must be the influence of watching Gol and Gincu while blogging, tehee...

Lately I have been too critical on almost everything, especially myself and how I see others. It's like I am made out of a lighting rod in the midst of a storm. Things that annoy me, sadden me and things that tick me off just suddenly got more persistent. And I know it's no one's fault but mine. Actually, I like to blame it on PMS~!




Or maybe cause kebelakangan ini aku dah gemuk ke??? -_-"

Or the last two weeks of assignments, presentations and mid-term exams have finally got to me?



Or I am just touchy!?

Or I am hug deprieved?

Or aku rindukan orang ke?

Or aku dissapointed ke?

Or I am lazy?

Or I need exercise?

Or emo?

Or PMS je la!

*Merajuk dan manja* (tu la kemahiran aku!)

Baby la aku ini! PMS je aku dah rasa nak nangis and break out!



Hahaha! At least I let it out in the blog. I hope I didn't get too *ahem* else where. I think I did pretty good in college - was normal (I hope!) despite recent exams and assignments going on.

At home pulak I sulk a lot kat bunnies I. Bully la tu. Yes, I am mean but I sayang you baru mean tau? Hahahaha....

Just a cranky kid la... sabar kejap ya. Lepas "Miss Strawberry" datang and hilang then I'll be ok. :D

"Iiiissshh.... manja la! Oh mr. polar bear, where art thou??!!"



Currently Listening to: Bagaikan Sakti by Siti Nurhaliza and M. Nasir (OST of Puteri Gunung Ledang).

Thought out Loud:

"Despite everything, you hold a special place in my heart. Aku sayangkan kau and will always care. My mr. googly polar bear!"

Boulevard of broken dreams

ACTUALLY....

I have A LOT of of pictures to upload and blog about. But currently I am in no mood to do so.

So, the apologies goes out if words are a bore to you, but words are the only thing I am capable of producing right now.

Maybe PMS is smearing its way in. Or maybe due to some unstate-able reasons I am just feeling rather emotional and in a sullen contemplative state.

Most of these days, I just sit here. Here, on my red study chair gazing upon the laptop with an online manga page opened. Various emotions rise to the ocassion. Some due to the moments fashed by the mangas and some by my own lonesome thoughts.

Perhaps some may be tingled by the very serenade of music. I have been constantly enveloping myself with the sountrack of the Disney movie Enchanted. It is addictive and I must confess I have taken a very deep sense of fondness for the song So Close by Jon Mcloughlin.

And there I was as always, acting like a dreamy fool, dancing around my pink floral coloured room pretending I was waltzing with a "prince" who was more than ready to sweep me off my feet to Neverland. But then again, a dream is a wish your heart makes. And my heart just needed some "company" even if it was just an imaginary "prince".

I just want to dance with you...

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Lately....

Hello...

I kinda agree with this now...

Lately, I am just more than a little reluctant to blog.

Firstly, because the camera cable has been "sot" for some reason. Hence, I can't post up pictures in which of all times, I just have to have a load of them lining up to be "paraded" for my sweet readers to wash their eyes on...tehee... :)

Second, a little PMS has cause my blogging emotions to swiftly change from time to time. This results in me writing a "book" of my entire day's thoughts in my head but unable to leave them on the laptop keyboard. Bummer... I even had it all lined up in me mind... like a narration in Ally Mcbeal. :P

Anyway.... just catch up on recent events:

- My relatives from Belgium are (back) here in Malaysia for 2 months (after coming back 4 years ago) and things have been a little hectic around the house. My cousin bro has turned out to be a HUNK but we only said less than a paragraph of words since the first day, lol - aside from the compulsary hug and kiss (cheek) at the arrival terminal at KLIA. There are tonnes of European candy and chocolate at my house now and it is not helping with my PMS!

- I came in serious contact with a baby! After so long!!! Lots of hugs and kisses to little "Ka Chun" - the baby my aunt was babysitting (I totally "booked" him)!!! But I think I smoothered him with too much attention that he didn't really like me, lol. But since he was a baby, I was in charge, LOL! I love babies!

- Serious biological abdomen PMS (not emo) that causes the consumption of 8 Panadols for the last two days!! ~Better to overdose than to overpain~ Philee's principle

Gosh... it WAS REALLY BAD this month!!!

- Happy 21st (belated) Birthday to Jonathan Lai Tien Chi !!! I am glad I got you that cow! I first saw it sitting at shop quite sometime ago and when I first laid eyes on it, I knew that I was SO gonna get that for your birthday! Of course the main reason was because it was a cow, a cute cow - I knew you like cows! LOL, but I didnt purchase it then, for it was still early and something better might just pop up. But I guess somehow subconciously I just made up my mind to get that. Cause everytime I went into that shop, I would check the cow out, to see if it was still there or the condition of it. So a week or less before your birthday, I finally bought it - after stalking it for....errr...hehehe (better not say). Initially, I wanted to get you a nice and funny cow cup I saw at MPH, but to send it by mail would be....uhhh...not glass safe, so the plushie was the best in mind. :)

- Adults or middle age - to be exact, women are SO..... *speechless* I so don't want to grow up! It's ok Philee, you can take it! Let it go.... chill... I'm cool.....*shows moody and pouty face*

- I still have NO WORD of my application for degree in Murdoch University!!! I know Yiang.... haha, harap-harap we start together NEXT MONDAY! Let's hope things will go right! I put it in His hands, let His will be done! AMEN!

- I need to do better things during my holidays - or to be exact, the last week of my holidays - or to be more exact, the MAYBE last week of my holidays (If I get accepted into Murdoch by then la!!). I feel like going for rock climbing, but with "strawbery" following me now, I just cant move much. I wanna go out, have fun! I wanna dance like a wild crazy party girl and still be a decent person - which is very possible. FYI, I don't go clubbing!

~ Have faith in the Lord and let Him take control~

Something random....

Key word: "COULD"

Slash the "a" and replace it with "the"

As said, it's just random. So don't ask me mushy stuff, for I ain't got anything mushy to tell.
So have a pleasant day ahead and I bid you CHEERIOS!
God bless and lotsa smiles to you!
xoxo