Tuesday, September 25, 2007

A little blessing....



Happy and Sweet Lantern/Mooncake Festival 2007!

But since - can't remember when - I stopped celebrating it. More like since me and my cousins have grown up, we stopped playing with lanterns and candles.


I remember me, koko, Jenny and Kelvin used to "celebrate" it at granny's. Girls playing with the lanterns and boys playing with the candles - more like fire :P


It used to be fun, pretending to walk in the dark holding the lantern and flashing it around. I used to have many of them, granny would always get us one each of our choice. And I remembered she got Jenny and me Sailor Mars (only that particular sailor) once. And since we were then very much crazy about Sailormoon then, we treasured it to the max.


And then we grew out of it. Times passes like a candle in the wind. And after several years, I don't even know when would the Lantern Festival take place. The only sign I have was the upcoming sale of mooncakes - which I didnt even like eating at all.


I sit here in my cold air-conditioned room typing along as I speak inwardly to myself. And I begin to wonder on this very day, what is it that drives me to think of it? To remember it? To acknowledge it? Why now? On this very day itself?



Was it because of the fond childhood memories with my brother and cousins along with the love of my grandmother? Maybe so? But there was something more. Something that touched my heart in the smallest but warmest way.


Then it hit me, some old and small fragments of the past. Memories that never did die.

I once remember not too long ago, back when this festival meant nothing to me (aside from the childhood memories).


A couple of years ago, I told this (lantern festival thingie) to a friend. It was nothing special or to remember in particular then, but several days later, she showed up at the parking lot of my old apartment and handed me something wrapped up in a white plastic bag.


I opened it to find this rabbit shapped lantern (with a keychain of my birth date).


I could not remember the last time I had a lantern. It was aeons ago. And somehow getting one out of the blue was just more than a pleasant surprise.


And it just blew me away then with warmth and happiness. It seemed like a small present but somehow it meant so much. I could almost feel the token of heart in it.


And the small moment, thought, present, care and heart meant so much.


It's amazing how something so simple can be a blessing to one's life.


And I guess that's what made me remember today. :)


And eventhough I have not seen or heard from her in a long time and she's far away and may have forgotten me, that small gift gave me one of the warmest and sweetest memory I have with this Lantern Festival.




That's the lantern.

The only one I've kept after all these years.


Errrr... the "SWEET LOVE" heart-shapped thingie is not of any romatic purposes, lol. My mum gaved it to me on Valentine's Day (yes, true - cause I no Valentine ma, she took pity on me, lol) and my maid just hung it there cause it kept dropping from my violin stand (where I originally hung it).


I hope you have a pleasant memory for the Lantern Festival.

God bless and *huggies*


Sunday, September 23, 2007

For you....



Do you know how it feels to LOVE people who "hate" you?!



To put up with their imperfections while they condemn yours?!



To protect them even they leave you alone?!



To smile at them when they frown at you?!



To cherish them when they forsake you?!



To lift their hearts up while they sink yours?!



To miss them when they don't bother about you?!



To stand up for them, when they betray you?!



To heal their wounds when they injure you?!



To care for their hearts when they break yours?!



But it's okay, really.



I just want them to be happy....



"Because I LOVE THEM!"



LOVE is unconditional, it requires nothing in return.



Every act is filled with joy and every care is from the heart.



Every thought is enveloped with peace and every smile without regrets.



"What comes from the heart, goes to the heart."

(even if it takes a lifetime)

Friday, September 21, 2007

FIGHT?!


Do I have what it takes????????!!!!!!
To do it all alone till the end?!

"It's now what you have, but what you believe in."

Till death then!!!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Cleanse me...

I am sorry Lord Jesus for the things I have done and the things I have not done. Cleanse me Lord of my sins and change me over to be a better vessel for you. Strengthen my heart and give me perseverance to endure hardships and temptations. Grant me a peace of mind in times of turmoil and joy in the midst of sorrow. Forgive me of my sins and help me to forgive those who have sinned against me. Relieve me of my worries and help me to concentrate on Your glory and will. Grant me the strength to stand up to injustice, the voice to speak for those who cant speak for themselves and wisdom to know who they are. Strip me of my selfishness and give me a kind and open heart for Your children. Let not my past cloud my future but cleanse me of my old guilt and give me a fresh start in You. Grant me a submissive and serving heart to You and wash me off satan's lies and deceit. Give me a heart of worship for You again and let me sing Your praises forevermore. Let not this passion for You die but let it burn like a beacon unto the lost so that I may glorify You. Supress my pride and humble my heart for Your glory. Give me courage and anointing to spread Your love and glory unto others. Let me not be man concious but God concious. Open up my heart not only to love others more but to love You more too and to make You the first in me. Help me to see the beauty of others and accept their flaws. Install patience in me that I may see and understand the pain and suffering of others. Forgive me Lord, for my imperfections and humanly sins. Grant me Lord a heart of repentance and the willingness to change for Your will. Grant me the obediance for Your will and the faith to persevere.

I believe in the God Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, His only son our Lord who was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the virgin Mary.
Suffered under Pontious Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried.
Descendened into hell and on the third day He rose again,
Ascended into heaven and sitted on the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Holy Christian Church, the Communion of sins, the Forgiveness of sins, the Ressurection of the body and the life everlasting.
Amen.
(Confession of Faith)

Most merciful God, I confess that I am in the bondage of sin and can not free myself.
I have sin against You in thought word and deed.
By what I have done and by what I have left undone.
I have not love You with my whole heart.
I have not love my neighbours as myself.
But for the sake of Your son Jesus Christ, had mercy on me, forgived me, renewed me and lead me so that I may delight in Your will and walk in Your ways to the glory of Your holy name.
Amen.
(Confession of Sins)

I am sorry Lord for my sins and I thank Thee for Your forgiveness, mercy, love and grace.