Okay, you must be wondering why haven't I blog recently. Main reason was because I found out that this post would be my 100th entry and I wanted to reserve it for a special ocassion or something nice. Actually there are many special and important things I would like to blog about for my 100th post, life altering things I have been going through lately. However, I guess it aint meant to be for now cause I'm not in the "mood" so to speak and I guess I'll just make use of some cute old icons I stored eons ago. So for my 100th entry, it'll be on the
"Perfect Boyfriend..."
".... which by the way, does not exist!"
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This is lame I know. You are probaly rolling your eyes and snickering. But hey, I don't care and its my blog! Happy 100th post and the "non existent boyfriend" rules!
Although I find February the 14th to be a very superficial and exploited day, I still can't help in taking a moment to indulge myself in this "romantic" day. I am after all a very normal and "giddy" young girl (ahem!) who yearns for some lovey dovey-ness sometimes. And since I am still *cough* single, I won't have any mushy stuff to blog about concerning my non-existent boyfriend or date.
However I want to thank those who have asked me out on this day and again I am sorry for declining (it was sweet). To those who kept asking me bout dates and plans, I am making it clear now, no plans ok (and if youre single and wanting to celebrate, call me!). And to those who wished me, I feel your love and many thanks too. *Hugs* (Daphne Lee, especially you my darling - you made my day :D)
Honestly, if I could really "celebrate" it kan bagus (As in couple-ly)?
LOL!
Mimpi la! But hey, no harm in wanting or wishing.
I am after a normal (YOUNG) girl.
But I guess its ok. I guess I don't mind being the third wheel with my mum and dad tonight. Ehehehe.... since most of my single friends of whom I am used to celebrating this day with previously are mostly taken now. LOL!
But hey, in the end (like what my dad always says), its just another day (labelled). No biggie, it'll past. I'll live. :)
Anyway, I wanna wish:
A very splendid and most lovingHappy Valentines Dayto all couples out there!
&
Happy S.A.D (Singles Awareness Day)to all singles out there like me!
Nothing bad, I thought it was funny and cute, lol.
And to you (points to the one reading this), be it you're single or taken, madly in love or loveless, cynical or sarcastic, lovey dovey or crazy, do have a a very blessed and happy day.
"Happy loving yourself today! From me to you." :D
This is currently my favourite song, I am specially dedicating it to you on this hearty day. Lotsa love to you.
"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves...You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."
Like a lark seeking inspiration from the soul, yearning its fire to blow. Blow, ever so rapidly to burn all the nothingness away. To bring forth the desires and dreams of its inner self. To reveal whats hidden deep inside and live that song openly without shame or judgement.
And so I wonder. I wonder with all my heart, will it ever come true? Will it ever come to past? Will I ever see it in its true splendour in reality?
I wonder again. And again. And again. And again...
It played, it strummed like a harp in my soul. Repeatedly going on and on like a never ending song. Begging to be sung out loud.
And everynight before my sleep take me far away, I wonder again. So deeply that my eyes bear dew to my pillow and my heart twitches along with it.
And it happends, on and on again like a never ending cycle. I see it so vividly as though my dreams had no barrier with reality. And yet with a blink of a lid, it all slips away into nothingness.
So yet again, I wonder; In all its splendor if it would ever come true....
