In the Depth Within Lurks the Fire of Grim

I am so freaking pissed off!

I hate it, I hate being mad or angry. It drains me of my strength and puts me in a negative mood which just destroys my day.


Which is why I always try to find a way to be happy or just let go of grudges be it little or big. I don't mind giving in or taking the most blame or even keeping quiet like a rabbit ready for slaughter even when the sentence isnt meant for me!


Because I don't like conflict and anger! I love peace! I like it when everyone is happy!


But why is it people around me, the enviroment around me and the ones I care the most always happen to be the biggest jerks and bee-otches??!!


And no matter how much I try to stay on the bright side and endure it in the name of love and sacrifice, they always end up being "*ssholes?"


Yes, its harsh. But hey, even the sky has its limit!!!


I am so freaking pissed that it saddens me to feel so. Especially in this situation, for a moment there I thought my heart broke! Wait, can it actually break? More like cracked!!

"I hope you die!"

-Jose Jalapeno-

(No, I dont mean it but I just had to say it out!)

Vision of an Angel: A Neverending Dream

Okay, you must be wondering why haven't I blog recently. Main reason was because I found out that this post would be my 100th entry and I wanted to reserve it for a special ocassion or something nice. Actually there are many special and important things I would like to blog about for my 100th post, life altering things I have been going through lately. However, I guess it aint meant to be for now cause I'm not in the "mood" so to speak and I guess I'll just make use of some cute old icons I stored eons ago. So for my 100th entry, it'll be on the

"Perfect Boyfriend..."

".... which by the way, does not exist!"

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This is lame I know. You are probaly rolling your eyes and snickering. But hey, I don't care and its my blog! Happy 100th post and the "non existent boyfriend" rules!

So much for wishes, hopes and dreams...

Wake up girls, reality is knocking HARD!

The Hidden Soul in Love that Grows for You

Although I find February the 14th to be a very superficial and exploited day, I still can't help in taking a moment to indulge myself in this "romantic" day. I am after all a very normal and "giddy" young girl (ahem!) who yearns for some lovey dovey-ness sometimes. And since I am still *cough* single, I won't have any mushy stuff to blog about concerning my non-existent boyfriend or date.

However I want to thank those who have asked me out on this day and again I am sorry for declining (it was sweet). To those who kept asking me bout dates and plans, I am making it clear now, no plans ok (and if youre single and wanting to celebrate, call me!). And to those who wished me, I feel your love and many thanks too. *Hugs* (Daphne Lee, especially you my darling - you made my day :D)

Honestly, if I could really "celebrate" it kan bagus (As in couple-ly)?

LOL!

Mimpi la! But hey, no harm in wanting or wishing.

I am after a normal (YOUNG) girl.

But I guess its ok. I guess I don't mind being the third wheel with my mum and dad tonight. Ehehehe.... since most of my single friends of whom I am used to celebrating this day with previously are mostly taken now. LOL!

But hey, in the end (like what my dad always says), its just another day (labelled). No biggie, it'll past. I'll live. :)

Anyway, I wanna wish:

A very splendid and most loving Happy Valentines Day to all couples out there!

&

Happy S.A.D (Singles Awareness Day) to all singles out there like me!

Nothing bad, I thought it was funny and cute, lol.

And to you (points to the one reading this), be it you're single or taken, madly in love or loveless, cynical or sarcastic, lovey dovey or crazy, do have a a very blessed and happy day.

"Happy loving yourself today! From me to you." :D

This is currently my favourite song, I am specially dedicating it to you on this hearty day. Lotsa love to you.

Sending my deepest hugs to you...

Dafodils in Spring with Kisses Within

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

(Yvaine; Stardust)

Thought out loud: "....." (All is said - grins*)