Dancing in the moonlight

Currently listening to: Impromptus (4) for piano, D. 899 (Op. 90): Impromptu No. 3, Andante by Frank Schubert

I feel like someone is pulling both my eyes in the different direction. Weird? Or sick? More like horrid. No, its something more. Something more complicated and twisted. I just feel erm... well.... the current word would be morbid! Yes, morbid. I am morbid. But not in an ill way.

Have you feel so driven apart inside whereby you feel like there is another person living inside dying to burst out. I am not talking about esteem issues or "inner voices". More like dual personality. No, I am not mentally ill. It's just a hunch. A thought in my head.

Lately, I am just so driven apart inside. I just don't know who to be or how to act. And it seems like I can't choose or both sides just don't want me. And I end up being "nothing". Less than nothing. Like standing timeless in limbo. Numb. Not being able to get out. And as much as I detest so, I must confess I need help. I need you to pull me out. I need you to choose a side for me and have it accept me. For I can't accept it or neither, for I am "hollow".

Okay, now I sound like a sorrowful and emotional poet.

I am no drama queen (more of a solo backstage princess, lol). But sometimes I feel so much drama inside. Try portray a Chinese Opera performance going on endlessly in you. With all the mask, action, movement, drama and foul play. If you are a typical banana like me, then you would come to see that Chinese Opera is really complicating and hard to decifer! LOL, but I admire its art and beauty in everyway.

I can practically hear the "took took CHANG" inside my head. :P

In general reference, I am suppose to be in my "comfort zone" now. But I am far from comfort.

I need to snuggle in some strong and warm arms... Not wait, screw that.

What I need is a big teddy bear aka Santa Claus cuddle.

Too bad, santa claus doesnt exist. And there aint a giant real like teddy bear to comfort me.

So I shall hug my darling bolsters instead and dwell in its hugginess.

But now, I think I need a smooch. (LOL).

No, I need to smooch someone!

MUAHAHAHAHA!!! Hmm.....

How about a big fat and cute suckling baby with rambutan cheeks?

Yes...ehehe. But no, I might crush it. Cause I definitely will hug it too tight too.

LOL.

I think I shall just go and smooch Smoochiepup and cuddle Coriander.

And then dream of a handsome prince who would do so to me with love. :P

*Hug and be hugged!*

God bless!

The cuckoo bird is always so cacat! :P

I am sorely bored, a little ticked off with craziness and have decided that my blog needs an entry to satisfy my girly needs of wackiness and randomness. However, I seem to possess a wave of reluctance to scribble substantial and common words out here to amuse whom ever is willing to gaze upon my trash. Hence, I shall blurt out whatever fickle there is on my airy mind be it if you grasp it or not. :P

Am I making sensible and plain sense here?
Or am I just speaking delusionally to myself with no sort of understanding whatsoever to the world?

*Mentally laughs out loud to self for random lame-ness and stupidity.*

Oh well, since I am a little cuckoo and obviously prideless, I will continue on with my random and bizzare entry on how I find myself currently along with my freaking rampage on my personal view of things.

FYI, it's PMS alright. But hey, a girl's gotta get loose from her normal character sometimes. And since I am far from being accustomed to taking my top (or bra) off and waving it like a psycho (no offends to beach blondes :P), I think stating my current temperaments and ula-ula thoughts here is the best thing to do (next to mopping around the house like a freak and talking to my bolsters :P).



Let's spread some randomness along with my many "exciting" happenings of the day.

- CRAMPS SUCK TO THE MAXX!!!!!!
Yes, I so *hate* em! I had to wake up early (2pm - yes, early for me - bad right?) today because my lower abdomen was firing missiles and detonating granades in it. O_o"
Needless to day my day not only started bad but wasn't getting any better. How do I know? Cause that's how cramps work! They alarm you with pain and then later inflict you with excrutiating 'twists' non-stop of the day. And being the ignorant and blur sotong that I am, I forgot to replenish my supplies of "pink panadols". So no druggie to numb it away (not that it really work anyway). I spend the entire day wrapped in my towel like a human sushi (and the towel then was green too). Why? Because I had to keep my tummy warm to decrease (even a little) the pain. And here's the thing, I barely drink cold water lately (due to 2 weeks of illness). Besides that, everytime I go out, I order warm water (I know, I'm crazy but hey, I am 20).

- I am a SHOUJO MANGA MANIAC!!!
The fact that I love reading manga or Japanese comics is widely known. And since I have acquired the "secret" of viewing online manga from dear Jenny, time as not taken a stop from it. In other words, I am addicted. But hey, beats sitting in the cornerside reading browsing copies in Borders and Kinokuniya. Besides, I save A LOT of money ok (those books are expensive!).
But lately, its getting worse. I am turning into a fanatic. I don't even read my own comics (which btw are well and fully adorned on my Ikea book rack) anymore.

- Princess Coconut (my pink laptop) is always giving me problems and if you haven't guessed it already, its NEW~!
New laptop giving problems, hmmm.... fun right? It is always restarting on its own abruptly when I am using it. Its fustrating really. Aside from that, so does the Explorer browser, it does the same things too. Luckily I am not doing anything important (other than reading manga) but if this happends when I am doing my assignments then mati la! So I guess I will have to have it fixed or looked (while still on gurantee) before the semester starts.

- Let's talk about Lady Cabonara! My darling new bicycle my dad got for me for Christmas.

-_-"

I still can't cycle it normally or even at all.
Yes, I can't cycle (dumb to the max) and I tried numerous times "practising". But I just can't seem to cycle. I can sit on it and let it glide downhill with me occasionally using my feet to anchor it but thats all. I have yet to put both my feet up on the pedal and cycle! And I have to try practising in the late evenings because during the early evenings (when everyone is out cycling and playing and jogging) kids are out there with their bikes too. And guess what, they cycle way better with even bigger bikes. Now its not as embarrassing as it seems but the first few times when I was "practising", they saw and keep circling round the row of houses (mine) to observe and to snickle a little (big chea2 cant cycle - bohoo) and I just didnt like the undermining situation. I was muttering most of the time saying "Just you wait, when I can cycle, I am so going to terrorize you kids! Hah!". Besides some aunts around my street were standing at their gates looking at me and cuckling! Talk about humiliation. Come on ladies, I get the kids (They're kids!!) but do you really need to gawk?!
Talk about embarassing~!

Well.... I have to stop my wackiness here, will continue another time. Untill then have a pleasant day and God bless! Hugs!

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Currently gracing to: Nocturne No.8 In D Flat Op.27 by Federic Chopin - executed on a grand Steinway & Sons piano by Lang Lang.

I guess it would be cliche to even mention Blessed New Year! - but hey what the heck, let's be normal, so yeah lotsa wishes and delights to you this 2008. :P

I have thought of blogging a lot since my last entry, but I am either lazy or just not in the "zen". Lots have happened lately and lots of pictures to come with them. But again, my sense of pride and vanity is no where to be seen. Hence I am short of motivation to blog or upload pictures for the "monotone" world to see. :P

For this particular entry, I think I shall focus on a little but interesting outing I had with a lovely and crazy bunch of fellow friends from HLLC. I wanted to blog about it sooner but then again, as said, I was in no...er... mood. So here it is, a little tale of my first trip to a BAR (shocker! lol. nothing bad la, was just a friendly visit, nothing wild). If I was not mistaken, it was two Fridays ago in which we had this little fellowship. The itchy bunch consisted of moi of course (:D), sweet Alister, pretty Cherish, "taiko" Douglas, playful Ronnie, dashing Josiah and Mr. Nice Guy Chee Wai. :D

Our first intention was actually to visit a bar in KL called Luna Bar. But somehow we ended up at Sky Bar in Traders Hotel instead. It was a pretty nice place. With a clear pool in the middle. Wanna know something funny? When we reached the hotel, I noticed that everyone was dressed either in white or black. And of course if you know me well, you would have figured out that I was in pink la! So I felt weird, hahah. I was beginning to think if it was a dress code or something. -_- But no la, it was a sophisticated thingie (I dont know, something I lack :P) so black was "in". LOL.

Anyway, we had a bottle of wine for the table including a martini (duno what long name la) and a red duno-what-cherry drink to share and taste (as said, this is not an alcoholic outing, just taste taste and see see, lol).

So to the main and funny part of this cheeky tale. :D This is really embarrasing, lol.
I had glass of red wine (a little) and I got dizzy (at first), really dizzy. I then asked Alister if she wanted to head to the Ladies. In doing so, as I stood up from the sofa - I literally blacked out. My vision was clouded but black mist and *pooff* I fell backwards back to the sofa!

It was scary, cause it feels like you're completely helpless and defendless. I couldn't move much and had to take a break sitting there half dead (lol). Later on we balik la (after the drink and all) and Alister had to "papah" me or guide me to the car. And boy, most of the time, I couldnt see what was in front. It was worse then not having my contacts on, it was super blurry. But thankfully my legs were fine (just my vision compromised then), so I walked "blindly" with Alister holding on to my hand. LOL. Classic orang buta then.

In the car, I had good old Lunny to take care of me (thank you so much!). Hahaha, he stroked my back a lot when I felt ill and had the warmest neck to tuck my head in. :) He was really caring and attentive then.

But the "fun" was not over, we head over to CentrePoint's McDonalds (Amen to that) for supper and a second fellowship. Of course after McD, I was ok d! Muahaha, the wonder of McD. :D

So anyway, we balik after that and being a daddy's dramatic girl (meaning I like to yak and bark a lot to my dad - its a bonding thing :D) I spilled the whole I-got-punched-out story to my parents. I thought it was funny la since it was embarrasing then. But my dad wasn't too happy about it. LOL, so I got repriminded a little la - not for going to a bar (:P), my dad knew that. But for getting "ticked off". Can't drink then don't drink! LOL.

It was harmless (I think) cause I was with trusted and loving friends and it doesn't happen often. I mean how often do I drink anyway? And if I do, its either with family or good/close friends.

But whao, it is so not a good feeling after tasting alchohol. And I absolutely freaked out (inside). I don't drink much, and I barely do. Not because I am trying to be oh-so-good person ke apa but I just don't fancy it. To me, alchohol will always taste bitter and....errr.. not nice (haha) so I never liked it nor will I ever (I think la).

I could still remember the last time I felt like this (or should I saw got "drunk"?) was with my aunt and cousin - Gary. We were in La Bodega in Bangsar and my aunt ordered a Cosmopolitan for me (it was pink in colour surprisingly). I only had 1/3 of the small glass and chaos strikes. LOL. My body felt hot and my heart pumped like there was no tomorrow. I thought I was having a fever! My heart was heavier than ever and I knew I was not in a good state. At first I thought I was just ill at the moment, but Gary just smile and said that the "pink" I had was just too much. And so, my aunt had to dragged me to the car then (lol) cause I was getting way woozieee....hahaha. When we got back home, I slammed right unto the sofa and passed out for a moment. :P

How funny is that? LOL!

Lesson of life: Philee and alchohol don't mix well!

But the trip to Sky Bar was a nice and interesting experience. I don't mind going again or anything like it. Just have to have a mocktail instead. :)

Okay pictures time.... FYI, some of the pics were taken by me but since most of us had cameras, I didn't bother taking much. Besides we had Chee Wai! Our Mr. photographer, hehe. In other words, if the picture is nice, ita taken by him la! Otherwise, its by me. LOL.

The deejay apa la.. with the turn tables.

From where we sat... the pool in the middle.

Bad for health!! :P

Duno what drink is this...hahaha. We all had a try.

A duno what martini... which btw according to my dad, it burns the throat and thats why I ended ill (for two weeks). Yes, fyi I was ill for two weeks after that (actually I wasnt feeling well in the first place then but I think this gave a kick in it :P).

Empty glasses... nice glasses :P

This stunning shot is of course shot by Mr. Chee Wai la...hahaha.

What you see is what you get!

Random shot... Josh, Lunny, Che and Doug.

Doug looking all serious...haha.

My good buddy.... looking all cute :P

Peace and Cheese!!!

Cheers~!

FYI, the view from Sky Bar is magnificent. Its beautiful. It has been a long time since I last saw the view of Kuala Lumpur at night from such a high place. This was where we sat (nice seats, but a little warm). This pic was taken by Doug with my camera.

The Petronas Twin Towers... beautiful!

This is another view from our seat, more to where I sat. Taken by me. Gleeming ain't it? :D

My empty glass... wrong move... lol :P

So in the end, great and scary experience.

All in all, *grins* I love you guys !

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Okay, I gotta read a new online manga now (Don't you love the internet? I no longer sit in Borders for hours reading browsing copies :P).

Lotsa cheerios and love to you out there and God bless!

*Hugs*