A Teardrop Away...

Currently Listening (current craze too): White Love Story - Coffee Prince OST

I guess the strike of PMS is inevitable! Emotions run wild and tears are only a blink away. Sometimes I don't know if I like it or it's just plain troublemsome. But I very much fancy the feeling, the feeling of having emotions and being able to channel it more outwardly. I guess in a way it makes me human and vunerable to others at times. And sometimes I don't mind that, cause it's not really easy stuffing everything inside a smile and making it work.

Sometimes I "rain" like a storm (mostly at night), sometimes I bite the head of others, sometimes I yakk like a goat (about nothing and everything), sometimes I hug and kiss people (family la) like embracing a big fat cute infant with "rambutan" cheeks and sometimes I become a little cuckoo and start acting weird (making faces to myself in the mirror).

And sometimes I am thankful. For real, for being able to shed tears again from time to time. Sometimes, life seems so dry. My eyes seem so dry. They used to be the broken tap of a water tank and I must confess, the title "cry baby" was always or somehow incorporated into my image. But since "then and there", my eyes became the pits of sand and the "tank of water" dried out and I could not find a reason to fill it anymore.

But PMS gives me the rare rain in "my drought", an oasis in my desert and comfort in being "fleshy". It returns emotion and unleashes the "wild" side. The side in where I am able to shout out loud in my room and confess out loud if I love or hate you (applicable to anyone)! :)

And sometimes it can get a little depressing. Or sometimes a lot. And that's when that happends,

*Bohohohohohoho....!!!*

And that's not just the conventional crying but the ones where you "rain" like a very upset baby.

:P

Like this:

LOL....
And actually, as sad as it seems. It feels good. It feels good to just rain it out. On the other hand, at that moment, I actually felt happy to be miserable at that moment. The rush of emotions and tears just flood inspiration and joy in. :P It makes me happy knowing I am sane, alive and human. It makes me happy that I can feel. That I can feel myself and you.

Thought out Loud:

"....nothing." =D

The Twinkling of a Smile =D

Currently Listening to: Just One Dream - Walt Disney Records




D'know what I need?

I need a beautiful memory. Something that I'll think or look back with an idiotic smile.

Yeah, I need that.

Not that I don't have any fancy or fond memories but I need something more relevant now. Something I can relate with and live in. Something new and fresh!

Suddenly it dawns me.... my 21st birthday!

NO, just for record: No party!

Many asked me to throw one and even my dad insisted on it (he loves parties and people - according to my grandmother, my dad was always the party thrower - leaving her with all the work last time :P).... And actually I thought why not? My last birthday party was when I was 7!! But then again, no. Yeah, Im not a party person or at least not the one usually throwing one - attending is nicer.

I guess I am too lazy for it. Calling so many peeps, food, cleaning, work (no more maid and I can leave my mum to do it all) and I would hate to work on my on birthday. :(

Initially, I was always afraid of having a party cause I always had this gut feeling that no one would turn up (bad fantasy :P) but many assure me that I was just plain crazy. Hahaha, and I have this thing.... that if I invite one, I have to invite all. When I tried counting down the amount of people I wanted to invite.. family, pre-school, primary, secondary (2), college, music, church, work etc.... it all sums up that even both my house and aunt's place wont be able to contain half of em. :( Hahahaha.....

Besides... I am just not in the moond this year despite the number 21 falling on me.

The good thing is, lots of other friends would be having their 21st parties all year long, so I am in no short of a "21st birthday party".

:)

I've had several birthday invitations to hang out on my birthday (thank you to thoughtful friends) - in the absence of a party. But currently the "plan" is to "hang out" with college buddies. Cause dear Shennie also happen to share the same joyous day as me! And we are both "free" so to speak (no party ma) so we decided to celebrate together la with some other friends (Yiang and Meng mesti confirm come ya!) :P

We havent really planned out anything concrete yet. But we wanted to do something more than the ordinary. There's the "NICE" lunch at fancy place suggestion, Kuala Selangor trip (monkeys, seafood), drive up to Genting, Lagoon??? etc...

Hmmm... not sure also. Maybe go BBQ in PD?

In the evening, of course the typical-every-year lovely family dinner at a fancy restaurant. :)

Hahaha, I keep having this vision of me sloutching on the living room couch and watching TV the entire afternoon on my birthday. :P

Don't know la... just no "umph" this year! Usually I would make my birthday a big deal every year (at least to my family) but somehow it just tonned down. Maybe cause I'm "adulting"...

Anyway... back to the main topic (over runned with birthday topic pulak) - fond memories.

Inclusive of everything. I just need something treasureable. And since romance is way out of the topic, I guess maybe I need a nice vacation or a really good adventure. Get out and take a little more risk. Tsk tsk!

YouTube Video of the Day: ~(Super CUTE wei!)




=D Happy Day and God bless!

Hugs ~ Miss you lots!

The Other Side of the Rainbow

Currently Listening to: Soon and Pure Imagination/Never Never Land

by Jennifer Ackerman

Thoughts/Mental pictures out loud:

*Lotsa giggles and cuteness seen and touched*

*Tender snuggles and warm embrace*

*HAPPY!*

*Manja-manja*

*Grins*

"It's like playing in the rain in my pink raincoat and boots. Swinging my transparent umbrella and singing with delight till rainbows join me." :)

YouTube of the Day:

(Yiang, this is dedicated to you)

Check out her expressions, tehee. Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do. May this "cute" you up for the day! :D

Hugs!

Quote of the Day:

"This kind of people, must prejudice!"

LOL!

The source shall remain anonymous. :)
(Sorry, hehe. I just had to post it up!)

Okies, have a nice bright day people.

Hug and be Hugged!

God bless!

Colour Your Life!

Box of Crayons

While walking in a toy store
The day before today,

I overheard a Crayon Box

With many things to say.

"I don't like red!" said Yellow.

And Green said, "Nor do I!

And no one here likes Orange,

But no one knows quite why."

"We are a box of crayons that really doesn't get along,"

Said Blue to all the others.

"Something here is wrong!"

Well, I bought that box of crayons

And took it home with me

And laid out all the crayons

So the crayons could all see

They watched me as I colored

With Red and Blue and Green

And Black and White and Orange

And every color in between

They watched as Green became the grass

And Blue became the sky.

The Yellow sun was shining bright

On White clouds drifting by.

Colors changing as they touched,

Becoming something new.

They watched me as I colored.

They watched till I was through.

And when I'd finally finished,

I began to walk away.

And as I did the Crayon box

Had something more to say...

"I do like Red!" said the Yellow

And Green said, "So do I!

And Blue you are terrific!

So high up in the sky.

"We are a Box of Crayons

Each of us unique,

But when we get together

The picture is complete."

~Anon.

"Life is complete when you use every crayon in the box."