A Concerto of Smiles

Currently listening to: The Essential Barbara Streisand Album - First CD, Song no. 10: Happy Days Are Here Again.

Which I just bought today at MPH! I am so happy, wheee...!!! And it's only RM29.90! A normal original one would usually cost about RM49.90! And this is so much cheaper. But what's more fantastic here is that there's two CDs in it! With an average of 20 songs in each CD. What a good bargain! The last two-CD album I bought (Barbara Streisand) cost RM80! It was her end of the century Timeless Concert album (recorded LIVE in Times Square, New York on 31st December 1999 to 1st January 2000). I have no regrets purchasing an RM80 album then and I certainly have no regrets with this one too which is RM50 cheaper! I am so happy!! And most of it are my favourite songs! I love Barbara Streisand!

RM29.90 (usually RM49.90) + 2 CDs (usually 1 CD - cost almost RM50) + 20 songs per CD (usually 17 songs average per CD) + famous/favourite songs = Philee very happy and satisfied! 30 bucks well spent!

Now currently listening to: (Same album and CD) Song no. 15: The Way We Were

*Suddenly THE POTATO doesn't know what to blog anymore. Or perhaps the inspiration and mood flew out the window. Or maybe she is just too lazy. Or busy, in a foolish way mimicking Barbara Streisand singing in concert. :P

Okay, let's be random here:

- My birthday is swinging by soon and I still don't have the *oomph* in anticipating or even thinking about it! My soul feels mundane... someone, surprise me please! This year, its only makan and more makan... dinners with family and more family, lunches with friends and more friends. Makan and more MAKAN! Great right *sarcastic*? I get pudgier for my bday present. :P But then again, I am not complaining. Feed me people, FEED ME!

- Despite my passion for food. I've gotten more self control on food intake lately. :D And in a self absorb and prasan way, I feel lighter, lol. Will exercise more too. Not only because of the appearance sake, but I need to toughen up a bit. Reason.... (read next point)?

- I TRIED cycling one night (with my dad "coaching") which by the way I am still unable to (after so long - retarded I am on wheels). I struggled through from my house to almost the end of my housing street back and forth and literally almost passed out. I was sweating, it was tiring and I still could not cycle! Let me tell you, TRYING TO CYCLE IS A SPORT (retardly)!!! I might as well exercise and work out by TRYING to cycle. Lady Cabonara (my red bicycle) must be fustrated for me too. Which also bring me to the point that I am so "taufu"! Hal kecik macam ini pun I can't tahan, if I seriously ran a lap, I don't think I can survive it. Hence I need to buck up and move more. :P

Currently listening to: 2nd CD, Song no. 3: Comin' In And Out Of Your Life.

- I am so blur la... lazy too. I am worried bout my undone assignments but yet I do nothing about it. Case Study and presentation? What am I suppose to do again? *Bah!* Soon, they'll start piling up and I'll freak out. Besides, they're all due near my midterms too. Study soon??? *Please don't crack me up*

- I sleep like a vampire pig! Figure that out!

Currently listening to: (Same CD), Song no. 5: Papa Can You Hear Me?

- I am suppose to call many people up with many different reasons but yet I am procastinating like a "busy person" while I am kicking up my toes like a bee with no honey. It's sad when "takde hati" while other wait for you with theirs. I bore myself out. Heck, I even practise the piano a couple of times lately! I don't know what I am waiting for...

- I am so mundane.... So normal, so mediocre and so human. Special and unique I am. But in a normal way. Just like you, her, him and it. So fragile in life and so nonchalant. Like a by stander in the background of a movie. My movie. Now thats sad. I so need to wake up and pay attention!

Currently listening to: Song no. 7: Putting It Together

"If you can't get the rainbow, make your own rainbow!" - P

YouTube of the Day: StarWars according to a three year old :)

~Large and warm huggies to you!~

A Symphony of Dreams

Currently Listening to: Dreams to Dream by Cathy Cavadini.

Original Sountrack of An American Tail III.

What if you slept?

And what if, in your sleep, you dreamed?

And what if, in your dream, you went to heaven

And there plucked an strange and beautiful flower?

And what if, when you awoke, you had the flower in your hand?

Ah, what then?

~Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"Once I dreamed I was a butterfly, and now I no longer know whether I am Philee, who dreamed I was a butterfly, or whether I am a butterfly dreaming that I am Philee."

~ Adapted from Chuang Tzu

Smile Away the Tears

Hi, It's me again.

(Before you read this, make sure you read the previous entry)

I am posting 15 minutes after my previous post. Yes... indeed its fast. Why you may ask? Well, firstly you'd have to read my previous post in order to understand this one. The main story here is about my one day helium balloon named Horton Penguin Minnisque. I had to post this up asap due to a certain emotion that has just "got me" there and then. As stated previous entry, I would always let go of my (every one of them) helium balloon (s) before they go soft. So tonight, I took Horton down from my music stand (clipped there) and started to write my private message. Then, I proceeded to the porch to "perform" the tradition.

And there it goes.... I let it go.

And it slowly in a frightful way... flew up into sky like a wandering soul.

So lost, so fragile, so dainty....

I stood there in the porch, not letting my eyes off it, bending my neck backwards as I gaze to the "heavens" where my dear Horton was reaching for so aimlessly. And yes, my neck hurt very much back then, but somehow, I couldnt stop doing so. I watched it as it flew higher and higher, consumed by the dark veil of the night. It got smaller and smaller till my eyes could squint no more in gaze of it. I felt as if my heart flew with Horton. I couldnt take my eyes off it. I felt like a mother watching her child leaving her to a far away place, to a better place. It ached for a moment and I felt sad as I watched it disappear into the dark blue sky.

The feeling was soo.... I don't know. I haven't felt like this in a very long time. And despite my previous expression on my emotion then (mother & child analogy), I find it insufficient to depict my entire existence then. In which I so wholely felt standing there as I watch it fly away.

I wish, I dearly wish you could have experienced it with me. The moment Horton and I parted, I felt as if my soul churned to the skies and my heart wept in missing it.

Do I sound like a complete lunatic?
Perhaps I am. And I darely say I feel no shame to it.
For it was a beautiful feeling. Sad but beautiful.

If you've watched Desperate Housewives (cant remember which season was it), I hope you can recall an episode or a scene in where Gabrielle has a miscarriage. Soon then, he convict husband (Carlos) has his in-mate friend console her. The guy took Gabrielle to an open park and handed her a helium balloon, telling her to set it free. The balloon then represented her unborn child and how she had to let it go to move on (cause Gabrielle was in denial then).

This scene came to my head after Horton left my sight. No, I've never had a miscarriage before (LOL), but somehow... it felt sad in letting it go. Like it was something previous. Maybe because of what I wrote on Horton or maybe because of something else, something more.

But the moment, I saw Horton vanished in the deep "ceiling of life", my heart just.... *no word for it*

And now I wonder,
I wonder so much on where it is right now? Which star is watching over it? Is he (yes, btw, its a "he") afraid in loneliness and in the midst of darkness? Are the winds kind to him? Has he found his way?

Gosh, I miss him so much now I could cry...

Thought Out Loud:

When you see a girl helplessly "in love" with a helium balloon, you know either she's gone cuckoo or that the power of PMS is so great that humankind (or in this case, womenkind) takes an evolving leap in emotional life where limits holds no sky (which guys cant, bohoo!) :)

or

Maybe Horton and I did have something together... *sniff sniff*

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This post is dedicated to Horton Penguin Minnisque. A beloved helium balloon and cherished "son".

~Lost but not forgotten~

I will always love and miss you....

I am sorry I had to let you go...

****Rest in Peace****

Canvas of Life

Currently Listening to: Yue Liang Tai Biao Wo De Xin (The Moon Represents My Heart) by David Tao.

Today's post will just be mainly on some randomness and happenings of the day.

My life today:

1# Had a nice and filling lunch at 1 Utama after college with Meng (Yiang had an orthodontic appointment, so couldn't go). We ate at Nippon Yataimura. Both of us had a nice bento each. Mine was tempura (as always) and he had pork mayo. :) No, no pics, cause my little craze of taking pictures of food has gone down the toilet. Now I just eat! :) We were suppose to have Gelato ice cream for dessert, but the bento really got to us and we ended up too bloated to have ice cream no matter how yummy it looked. We walked around and there was this new attration thingie with lotsa balloons everywhere!! Best part was, they were giving out free helium balloons!! MY FAVOURITE!!! So I had to get one (despite being ahemmm.... more than the required age), thanks to Meng. Since then, I felt really giddily happy. I just have this thing for helium balloons. :D I even took the liberty of naming it: Horton Penguin Minnisque!





As tradition goes (for me), after obtaining every helium balloon in my life, I will later set it free to the skies. It's just a thing for me, cause I find it depressing to see it small and frail in the morning when the helium has "habis". So I shall let it out later. But not before I write my secret message on it....hehe. Also a tradition for me. A good way of conveying secrets to nobody....wakakaka...


2# After 1U, I teman-ed Meng to Tesco to have his haircut. And as usual, Borders is always the place to go and hang. So I waited there with my "darling mangas". :) When I got home, I was super sleepy. So I decided to "throw" everything aside and just snooze like a pig. :) And guess what? I woke up several time in between because I had no peace!!! Mr. Moses's 4th assignment in the forum has yet to be done! Subconciously, my mind was reminding myself periodically like a maniac. Despite knowing the dateline was 12am and I had more then 6 hours to do it, I couldnt help being nervous and worried. I think it was because I wasn't sure of this assignment and I have yet to study to understand more. But after "procastinating" it through my nap, dinner, Koren drama and new manga (LOL), I managed to sit put on my chair and "scribble" it all through. So yeap, its done... hopefully good enough. :D


3# Suddenly, I am in no mood to blog about other details... :P Minor things that bug me now. So I guess a few random pics will do (lama I tak post pics d).

Pro Comm text book! I so should have photostated it instead. Rugi gila la!

Random: My messy bed...

Random: My messy table...

Random: My Ikea book cupboard. First row belongs to my babies (plushies), second, third, fourth and fifth are my comics (in and out), sixth row bears my ancient history, archeaology and egyptology encyclopedias and seventh row stores my files and music books. :)

Shoujo Manga section - Malay Version...

New handphone ornament, I just love it! So unique and cute. I named her "Alberquerque"

Super random: Just did them myself... For the fun of not cutting my toe nails. :P

My plushie collection. Many were presents, some are my precious, some souveniers, some can't be dispose off and some for the fun of it.

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Have a Blessed weekend and God bless!

~ Hugs!!! ~